i'm exhausted. took off from work today cos i realli was too tired to drag myself up. i dunno why, i perpetualli feel tired even though i sleep at 12+ and wake at 7. yes as in i will nod off at 12 midnite, and even in the day i keep yawning, and sleeping on the bus. is it normal? its been a month and i should have adjusted to the routine of sleeping and waking early but no, i haven't. really feel super exhausted despite not doing anithing much. didn't even go out much for the past week. pretty worried that this fatigue might be a symptom of a larger illness or something. hmm..

just reached home.. went to bugis to shop with my sis after work. i tot it was bloody near so i walked. yes, walked from suntec to bugis. it realli was veri near! unfortunately, it also started to rain. i was walking towards bugis from the ecp exit (pple who drive there will noe wat i'm toking abt) and it started to drizzle. ok, still bearable.. then as i reached the middle of that bridge, rain got heavier, lightning was flashing every few min. by the time i reached the junction, where there was no shelter aniwhere near and it was a little too late to turn back and run into suntec, the rain started pouring. SUAY. was torn btw running forwards towards any building but was afraid i would fall down and malu myself even further. so i tried to walk briskly without looking too pathetic and it was like only in the last 100m when i then remembered i had today (the paper) in my bag. well, it saved me from SOME drenching at least. can't believe my stupidity.

when i finalli reached bugis, was nearly totalli drenched, and me and my sis went to trim our brows and after that walked ard a little. we saw a super dumb booboo sign at the entrance of The Edge (a poor imitation of The Annex at the Heeren).. "We've extended the Edge" or something liddat saying bout the extension of the edge has been opened blah blah. they might as well add a tagline saying "We've extended the Edge, Walk further b4 u FALL over! " ... LAME.. heh..

my frens said i've been crapping alot these few days. maybe its cos i haven seen hp in like.. 4 days i think? hmmm. longest break i've taken from seeing him so far. hope he's studying hard for his exams... dun even dare to call him much. JIAYOU dear deaR!!

going to my bank's regional head's farewell dinner tomolo evening. its weird. i dun even noe him yet i'm invited to attend. my whole floor's pple have been invited as well though. his chauffeur's most excited bout this. nv see him so enthu bout walking in and out and toking bout the party's itinery everyday. maybe he's just glad that his boss is finally leaving him for gd. hehe..

nv came back so earli from work b4. once again boring day. manage to spend a whole day on some excel sheet hehe.. then no need to get ani more dull work. :S ate lunch by myself. i'm getting addicted to the korean food at suntec foodcourt. its realli spicy and gd. but i can feel a sore throat coming up :S

happy sia!! coloured, cut my hair and did treat ment too.. woohoo! promotion pricing of course but it looks gd.. :) so long nv pamper my hair liaoz.. although it took bout 2.5 hours..

work was no-brainer again today. haiz. as usual, efficient me finished up wat was assigned to me realli quickly, even took the initiative to clean out the cupboards and found some treasures inside, mainly souvenirs from some past events the company held. my boss even gave me the go-ahead to take ani of the souvenirs if i liked them.. hehe.. :) she realli couldn't find animore work to give me and told me i could leave earli if i wanted to.. thats y i was so free to sit so long at the salon hehe..

received my visa DEBIT mini! wooo!! haha.. it looks every bit as gd as on paper. now.. just have to wait for my next month's pay to start using it :P

my dark rings getting realli bad although i sleep 12+ every day.. WHY WHY WHY???!!

work today was DUH. i felt underutilised. my efficiency was fully shown in the way i handed back every piece of work given to me in less than half the expected time. my superiors were veri surprised to say the least. cos i still had no PC and no intranet, they couldn't expect me to help with their server implementation of the training programs etc. in the end, was assigned to clear out some dusty old cupboards and rearrange the stuff in the room. all cluttered up and messy basicalli. cleaned it out and cleared the mess in an hour. yes, i noe i'm realli super efficient, i can't help it!! :P aniway. managed to leave at 6.30 today. 6.30!! finalli. only my first 2 days of work i managed to leave so earli. and hp was so sweet!! despite having exams on friday, he came to fetch me from work. *touched* he had dinner at my place and as my parents had to fetch my sis from her tuition job, he got a ride to JP.. :) my sis scared us for not returning calls/ answering sms etc. had some weird foreboding feeling something happend to her, like robbery/murder etc. i'm realli too imaginative for my own good sometimes.. lucki she appeared at 10. else i would prolly have gone to the house and asked if she was there liaoz. phew.

lunched with xinhuan today. i love meeting up frens for lunch. my oni time of the day to relax and meet up with pple basicalli, pple not from the office i mean. we toked, yaked, shopped. and i got a box of pralines from Sins (the chocolate store) today! free! was reading Her World magazine on the bus to work and i saw that the offer to redeem the chocs began today! and hehe.. there was an outlet at millenia walk so it was realli heng i saw the article. haven eaten them yet though.. wil comment on them when i'm greedy enuff to eat them all up..

another $25 earned today :) tuition in the morning then afternoon studied with hp. or should i say i had lunch and took a nap in his room until 5? :S NO DISCIPLINE!! argh... wanted to study one.. in the end studied until 7 and then went home.. :( dunno why i feel sooo tired. couldn't wake up from the nap. kept dozing off when i tried to wake up. tmd.. and i've been falling asleep in front of my comp for the past 2 nites while chatting.. :(

was traumatised tonite. on my way back, when i was walking towards my estate, saw a man walk out, towards the railway side. then he stopped in front of the hedge. tot he was waiting for some one, but as i walked nearer, realised he was in a peeing position facing the wall. OMG. this is the 2nd time this week i've seen men peeing there. IN PUBLIC. wats wrong with these PERVS???? he saw me walking towards him and quickly zipped up and pretended to just be smoking. but i could see the wet puddle on the ground and almost puked. YUCK. the 1st time, i saw a taxi parking at the side of the road. the driver got out and walked into the small lane towards the railway. AND he started like unbuckling his belt and unbuttoning his pants while walking towards the lane, STILL in full view of the main road. i was nearli blind BUT I'M NOT BLIND YET!! veri veri disgusted. and i made a mental note to be home by 8 every nite from now on unless someone's sending me back.

had this realli gd idea. it's still in the midst of construction but me & hp decided to blog daily into a shared blog of events/happenings/thots in our relationship. to have something to look back and read about in future. :) sweet idea huh? be prepared to get realli jealous of us. muahahah..

had sambal stingray and sotong for dinner. YUM! :) walked ard clementi central for a bit, long time nv been there.. it was pretty fun.. bought some groceries and just hung ard abit, veri relaxing end to a boring day haha..

have signed up for Google's new Gmail (as solicited to all blogspot users) and i must say, its realli quite gd. besides loading realli fast (unlike spymac which is totalli slow, and doesn't retrieve mails except every few days), it also doesn't time out users who keep the window open similar to outlook. it auto-refreshes every few min to check for new mail, and has this cool "Labeling" function for u to sort your mail. although the filtering of spam still leaves much to be desired, but overall, sorting and searching done great (of course they do that well, they're GOOGLE) and the 1GB mail space is a bonus to the efficient way of checking mail everyday. so i've switched from the booboogal mail to the new email alexxis@gmail.com. do email me, even ani short note, i LOVE to receive letters :)

stoning at home on a saturday afternoon.. would have gone to NTU but feeling too lazy to do that. think he needs to study w/o me oso.. i'm too much of a distraction :P feels gd to relax at home without facing strangers and worrying wat they're thinking when they see me walking to the loo like once every 2 hours? i drink alot, and pee alot apparently, but then u nv noe wat these pple are thinking despite smiling so brightly all the time. maybe its cos they get a ton of renumeration so they can smile at everyone. did u noe that they top dog gets like $3k of transport allowance per month??!! $3K!! on transport alonE!!! :(

shitty day. ultra suay. having some dispute with singtel over my phone bill. can oni elaborate when i'm clear of it. has anione ever encountered their customer service pple telling u something is free over the hotline and then charging u for it later? freaking asses if they are going to do that to me too.

hp lost his handphone on the bus when he sent me back. :( CRAP!!!! haiz. i should have done my usual look ard b4 getting off the bus but i didnt!!! :( partly my fault. so sorri so sorri. :( haiz.

first evening in eons (since i started working it seems like eons aniway) i been home for dinner. reached home at 9? haiz. not veri earli, but i tried to leave the office at 8. long walk to the bus stop. all the way from millenia towers to esplanade. in heels. argh. and came home to a crap dinner. not that it tasted crap, just that there was so little left of everything i was almost licking the dishes to get at every morsel cos i was sooooo famished. haiz. so hungry now still. and sleepy. but if i try to sleep, all i hear & feel is my stomach growling so i can't sleep. & i'm grumpy as well. cos i'm hungry, and hungry jocelyn is always VERI grumpy. :(

i'm now stoning in front of the PC trying to recall my day. oni thing i remembered was i had lunch at crystal jade (courtesy of lynn, my colleague). she was craving for the porridge and ended up treating us lunch. :) thanks lynn! :) then we went to carrefour and i bought some snacks for me to eat when i was working. in the end saw some mushi icecream thet King's came up with which looked jap and delicious so bought it and treated the other girls to it during tea-time. (no my office is not that kind to give us tea-time and yes, it was self-declared) a little too frozen but pretty gd.

think i'm going senile. i can't rem even today. wat i did. wat happened. and i just feel tired all the time. freaking exhausted from sitting down all day and not doing much work with my brains. cRAP.

oh and i'm still waiting for my UOB visa debit mini. applied for one last week. but it HASN'T arrived yet. freaking slow bank processes. but it's Sooooo cHIO. check this out:

cooler than visa mini in fact :)

ok finalli at work this morning, a little late (9.30am) but still here. i always have to summon ALL my will power to wake up on time in the morning when my direct superior is away on business trips. i have to summon even more will power to decide to come to work at all. yes, i am sad to say that i have no self-discipline whatsoever esp with regards to work of meagre pay and long hours. and that i'm prolly going blind due to the long hours at the PC with no health benefits. :(

as i was saying last nite, DOMs & crowds on public transport irks me. DOMs being Dirty Old Man(S). How does one define a DOM? its realli a instinctive thing. first, he looks chee koh, staring at every single girl that looks passable on the train/bus. once he discovers a suitable target, he inches towards her. this is difficult to do on a crowded transportation but all the more he can't be detected moving while the train is lurching etc. after moving in close enough, he will inch into her personal space, wif his arms trying to move into her portion of the bars she's holding. he won't molest her as it'll prolly put him into jail and end his DOM days but will do things like try to lean against her or his arm against her or stand veri close next to her. by this time, the poor girl has notice the invasion of the DOM and is looking ard worriedly for ways to escape. she tries to subtly move away, but the DOM relentlessly follows.

KNN! KEEP AWAY FROM ME u STUPID OLD MAN! IT's ONLY OUT OF RESPECT FOR OLD PPLE IN GENERAL I NV KP U IN PUBLIC!

ahh. i feel better. crowds i hate cos they enable the DOMs to operate. haiz. would so love to knee a guy in his meisters one day just to vent all my frustrations with guys in general. would knee him a few times and then laugh cruelly at him doubled up in pain, curled into a foetal position on the ground. dun be fooled by my mild exterior. i'm realli a violent maniac locked up inside me.. *smiles sweetly*

damn it, i missed posting this entry on wednesday by 18 seconds.

tired. veri veri tired. thin haze over my vision of everything. forgot i wanted to blog until i saw the clock on my comp ticked 11.53pm. now that i'm blogging, i can't rem wat i wanted to blog about.

i'm that brain-dead.

there's a vague memory of work today. hmm.. had argument with hp over msn and was sorta upset in the morning. lunch with celestee at bK with her smoker and me breathing in passive smoke. then more chatting / powerpoints until work ended. freaking boring day.

super tired. crowded mrt today, i absolutely hate crowds and DOMs on public transport. shall elaborate more on that tomolo. nitez.

have decided to post up somethin in tribute of my current fav blogger Neville Nah.. its one of his blog entries from feb for those of u too lazy to scroll to his archives. :) check out his feb17 2004 entry. enjoy!

"Alright settle down now boys and girls, today we're going on a journey of discovery and education! Old Gramma is going to talk to all you kids about the male sexual organ otherwise known as the penis.

The penis is known by many names. It is known as dick, cock, schlong, monkey, penguin, shoe, tool, sausage, weener, love meat, pee-pee, ding-dong, one-eyed monster, knob, dipstick, rod, boner, willy, woody, python of love, pecker, prick and pork sword, just to name a few.

Now the reason why we are talking about the penis today is because during psychology lecture today, the one Theresa told me that the one Yvonne told her that her one bio teacher once told her in secondary school that the average size of the firm worm at attention is equal to that of a:

CUCUMBER.

That very statement just jerked me to my senses and blew me away.

Now girls (and some boys), if you think that the average "shoe-size" of a virile male at full alert is the size of a cucumber, then in future, you are going to be 1) sore 2) disappointed 3) sorely disappointed.


"Mummy! It doesn't fit in my mouth!"

After stating her case, the one Weiling too agreed that she heard from someone that it was indeed the size of a cucumber.

WHERE DO THESE LIES COME FROM?

So that's what they do for sex education nowadays huh, sell false hope. Seeing how no amount of verbal explanation would satisfy and make them understand, I decided, in the middle of my psychology lecture, to whip out....



...my pen to draw on a piece of paper....



...a circle representing the diameter of the average cucumber (since they countered that even if willy-wonka wasn't the length of a cucumber, surely it was at least the diameter of one)

This was followed by mathematical explanations how impossible it would be for someone to hide something that size into pants unless he was wearing a parachute as a skirt. The mentioned size is simply impossible to achieve, it would defy every single law of physics and nature ever known to Man.

OF COURSE, there are exceptions. No, not me. But I mean if women can have boobies the size of the:

MOON

then surely, there are some guys out there with a pickstick the size of a:

WHALE

But boys and girls, let us not be too obsessed with the size of the toothpick, be it a cocktail or a bratwurst, for what really matters in a guy is really... his:

HEART

Because that's what really matters...

stronger heart, more stamina.


"Boy! You get your hand out of those pants NOW!"

DID YOU KNOW?: The one Sharon Shen Fungly once meant to write "My pen is broken" on my foolscap paper back in JC but due to her horrendous handwriting, it turned out as "My penis broken". Just for your perverse information. "

muahahahah... hilarious, yah?

spent most of the day studying and stoning. the Nicoll highway business is dua zong (BIG news) but pity my side of the office can't see it. or i prolly haven figured out which is the golden mile complex from 33rd floors.. yes my myopia's getting worse, and everything looks the same from 33rd floors!! :S

spent my day reading and laughin my head off at the writings of Neville Nah's Husamalia's Den. he's hilarious. veri witty, sarcastic but not in the kinda way that offends anione. and no controversial stuff either just clean wit and sarcasm. :P

disgustingly warm weather. HUMID as well. melted into a puddle and prolly lost a kg of liquids. my sis says i look thinner. guess the best way to lose weight is not ani stupid diet programs but just to stand in the sun and sweat ur fats off. effective and cheap. best buy.

woke up late, went to work late and was super tired. i duno why. considering i slept so earli last nite. had some disturbing dreams of me chasing after someone for something. can't rem wat though, and it was so hot last nite i had to on the fan full blast on myself. neck and back was aching when i woke up and i think there's a mosquito in my room. had a throbbin headache thruout lunch and after that. shortness of breath as well. :( i dun wanna die!!! felt better after i rested awhile but the best cure is still to meet up with hp.. headache forgotten immediately :P

took a big step today. equivalent to hmm.. from one side of the road to the other? (in one steP) we put down the deposit for the wedding package thingey.. after watching their showcase fashion show at millenia walk.. the dresses were WOW.. & me and hp were like looking with our mouths open haha.. cos it was a promotion and they were giving custom-made wedding bands as well, we went to the jeweller's after getting our receipt and it was weird cos the guy was like saying "so wat size does ur husband wear?" n it took me a while b4 realising he was toking to me. it sounds weird, we've been barely b/gf for a while and suddenli he's my husband? heh.. aniway.. after that we were both veri happy, didn't even feel my hunger from not having eaten lunch.. :) we just wandered around suntec hand in hand looking to see wat to eat and since hp has been craving to eat the kuali buffet (formerly congress), we decided to hang ard the food court and wait for the buffet to start.. SO HAPPY!! hehe.. seriously big step but he took it as well so its realli time to look forward and work towards this goal.. :)

i am very embarrassed by my mom. (would like to say i hate her but its too strong). she's damn rude to my bf, treating him like he's invisible, always being so unreasonable. throwing tantrums and slamming doors in the house. asking me to do a thousand and one things and accusing me of things i nv do. scolding me bout things when she was the one who broke her promises. KNN. would like to one day scold her in her face and just leave. have tolerated this for 21 years, dun see why i have to stay on further. going to save and leave when i can afford it. maintain minimal contact to keep peace in the house. she hates me too obviously, always scolding me but not my sisters for NOTHING. i'm always the bad one, other pple's daughters and sons are so gd, why dun u learn frm them? blah blah.. fuck her.

had a good day today :)

hp came over to swim and we suntan for like 2 hours so now i'm a nice tan brown, even my tummy.. :P then i cooked lunch for him while we studied our stuff. basicalli veri relaxing day.. he bought me the HerWorld Brides magazine and we looked thru it for ideas.. realised that our choice of package is not bad, cos the studio is like 18 years old and featured in the magazine as well.. :) going down to check out the show tomolo as well.. but their designs are NICE.. :)

aniway.. floated the idea of marriage during dinner and it was not well-received. ahh abit too earli, but hp was there as well and it was obvious they are still damn living in their own generation (my parents).. still trying to control my life as usual and hp could see why i sianz of toking to them oso, cos they were so unreasonable.. :(

i finalli finished my slides!! wooHOO!! .. was slacking half the day away in celebration haha.. aniway, celebrated a colleague's bday in the boss' office (which became a meeting) and i listened in on it, with minimal contribution since it wasn't relevant to wat i was doing..

hp came to find me for lunch, jack was supposed to meet us but he once again nv reply and all, and in the end tell us he busy, so bochup him. there's a bridal promotion thingey at millenia walk and we got pulled in to tok to the pple bout it. hmm.. it turned out to be a gd thing cos hmm, it was a worthwhile tok. about 3.5k for that bridal package, and it was like open date thingey.. so just needed to pay the deposit and keep them informed of dates so that they can schedule for u.. their photography's quite gd, so i think it's pretty worthwhile, gown's made to design as well.. woo.. suddenli can envision myself walking down the aisle.. :) check out their gowns and photos here: www.goldenhorseawards.com.sg hmm.. i'm pretty excited bout this.. now i just have to figure out how to let my parents noe..

tired.. i'm now so brain dead i can't rem wat i did at work today. i think i finished the animation for the slides, started on the cover slides., had a gd lunch by myself at thai express.. my lunch kaki was home with MC.. damn.. the office was so freaking cold. i ate the seafood laksa again.. think its nicer than tom yam.. haha.. well.. the weather was so hot today i was kinda perspiring even in the restaurant.. but at least i didn't feel so cold in the office after lunch.. it was lucki i ate a gd lunch cos had to work until 9pm.. stupid powerpoint. i nv wanna touch animore point in my whole life after this job. YUCK.

hot sia. hot...

reached home to receive my pay from the LOTR exhibition. $505!!! WOOHOO!!!! haha.. this month have savings liaoz.. muahahah...

met up with xinhuan today for dinner.. had a gd chat.. she got to meet hp too! :) she also at a loss as to describing him but after a conversation where she was testing his sincerity to me, she gave him the approval.. hee.. :) we went ard looknig at rings and discussing marriage.. so funny hehe.. after that watched Honey the movie and the dancing was super cool ... makes me feel like learning hip hop as well..

was kinda pissed at work. it was 5.30pm, and becos one girl was on MC, the other girl wanted to leave earli, couldn't finish her work and dumped everything to me. i can't believe it. i was supposed to meet hp and he was downstairs liaoz some more.. and it was work that needed > 2 hours. sian half, and my eyes were hurtin. yes hurting and everything looked blurry. think i better go get new specs or somethin. damn. can't bear to use my new pay to buy specs. :(

blackout. my first at home in 21.5 years of my life. it was traumatising.

just reached my house downstairs. stepped into the lift and the lights flickered. tot nothing bout it, but was a little spooked. all horror movies involving lifts went thru in my head. i pressed 4th flr and the doors closed. the lights started flickering alarmingly fast. my heart was probably pounding as fast. heard whirring sounds, tot the lift was oredi moving up and the lift blacked out. nearly screamed my heart out. lift doors opened and i stepped out, expecting to see familiar surroundings outside my apartment. realised i was still on the ground floor. was freaked out. didn't noe wat was going on, could oni see the black lift doors opened ominously in front of me.. the corridors were still lit at that point. walked to the stairs. took a step and everything went dark. jumped out of my skin. and of course back to where there was at least moonlight. decided to wait there til my mom came down to look for me.. :P

turns out my mom (veri timid as well except when scolding pple) didn't dare to come down and shouted at me to walk up the stairs myself. damn. lucki there were lights in the stairway, prolly powered by our own generators..walked up to find out no light at all except from my handphones. had to light candles and tealights.. quite romantic but i realised 2 of my tealight holders were missing... hv to look for them soon.. basicalli realised woodlands, cck, jurong west, boon lay all blackout, but bukit timah seems to be the worst hit, even the street lights all off. and we were the last to resume power. hopefulli no more blackouts. rumour has it that it was the neighbouring countries that cut our power to try to attack us.

weather's damn hot tonite. hope i can sleep soon.

realised there are tons of pple who care for me. i change my msn nick everyday based on my mood and when i put depressing nicks, there are always kind souls who ask me wat's going on, whether i was ok. even if i wasn't, ur small gesture in asking already made everything better. thanks pple.. :)

couldn't wake up. tot of taking MC again but felt a twinge at the loss of $70+ should i take an off day and miss work. in the end reached work at erm.. 9.15? slept the whole journey on the bus.. something which almost nv happens.. i can't sleep on buses unless i like nv sleep the nite b4 (this being the case) and could barely open my eyes at work. everything was a blur in my contacts which felt veri dry.. aniway.... finished up nearly all the ppt slides liaoz.. oni left 3 or 4 sets i think..yay~! prolly able to meet deadline liaoz.. :)

was supposed to treat hp to haagen dazs cos i was sooo craving for it but in the end, erm.. just bought him meadow gold hehe.. save money mah.. both ice cream.. quite romantic eating it along the river at the esplanade area.. yes.. thats where i go everyday.. i take bus to go home there, no choice.. we had dinner at marina sq and saw xiaxue eating dinner with her fren just when we were discussing her elimination from mydreamd8.com. tok abt coincidental.. hp was pretty sarcastic heh.. but not within her earshot.. aniway.. we walked ard and the wedding pple are like attacking us from all sides.. despite me thinking of marriage.. paying for a gown i hv not planned for yet.. n i hv no money for that too.. so it was kinda irritating.. :(

going to sleep earlier tonite.. can't take the bleary dark eye look in the office..

hanping brought me supper from amk.. so sweet! he knew i was feeling grumpy and all so he waited for his bro to return with the truck b4 driving all the way down to meet me at 1am.. *touched* thanks dear for being so sweet, realli appreciate the short hour of meeting up despite me being quite sleepy liao :)

bored. moody. dunno wat i'm realli feeling. my head hurts. seriously. tried to take a nap jus now but oni felt veri groggy and even more of a headache when i woke up. and the bed was damn warm. or was it the pillow? restless too. i wanna go out. but i'm not too rich liaoz. didn't even finish a single chapter today. wat a wasted day. sianz.

had a realli weird dream last nite. dreamt that i met jx and he was surprisingly frenli, veri chatty and chummy. veri surprised when he asked to reconcile. was torn btw the desire to slap him and to apologise. partly i wanted to be big-hearted and just tell him i was happy, the other half me wanted to laugh in his face and say he was too late and he's going to regret this for the rest of his life for being such a jerk the last time. woke up feeling veri headachy. damn. shucks... still feeling veri tired. i think something's realli wrong with my room.

uploaded some new photos..

there's some problems accessing the full folder, just check it out at http://community.webshots.com/user/booboogal when u're free.

woke up oni at 12pm? zzz... oni slept at 5am cos was playing gunbound with hp's neighbours; went his hall to study overnite..

went to sentosa today.. it was not crowded surprisingly, and the sun was not bad. not too hot and not too little.. tired though.. despite oni lying there a short while (like 3 hours?) the travelling time is horrendous.. and i think i spent bout $20 today on meals and transport and magazines.. erh, i succumbed to temptation and bought this month's issue of FHM.. yah, it's still a crap magazine but me and hp had fun ogling at the babes and criticising the ugly girls..

so tired i'm heading straight to bed now.. zzZ

INto the Mirror (that korean show on TVmobile with the mirror and the girl) is super scary. whole cinema was screaming. the sound effects were gd. and veri veri gory. and the concept of the movie was novel; it introduced the idea of a symmetrical world behind mirrors. ending had a not-so-good twist.. shall not be a spoiler.. :P do catch it, its quite worth it. there was this one time where there was so much built up suspense and not a sound in the cinema until a guy suddenli shouted to his gf "stop scaring me!!" who prolly was jumping at every sudden movement in the show... heh.. he made the whole theatre laugh and the tense moment dropped.. movie had some funny moments of sarcasm as well.. so its not like heart stopping thruout..

had curry fish head for dinner finalli.. :) worth all $19 of it.. a little expensive, but its food court, can't expect hawker centre prices.. at jurong point by the way..

going to study til late at least one book of CFA materials.. zzz.. oredi dozing off..

went balaclava for drinks with hanping and his frens. music was so-so.. his frens were quite frenli, 'cept i kept getting the feeling his gd fren Maddie wasn't veri happy to see me. just a feeling, she was ok frenli but she didn't look happy the whole nite. maybe i'm oversensitive but i'm quite sure it's cos i'm with hanping. aniway.. didn't speak much to her in the end.. overall it was quite fun.. drinks were quite ex though. place pretty crowded. i had 2 pints of hoe garden. veri sleepy now. it tasted gd. haiz incoherent tots. realised stanley knoes xq and dylan. super small world.

veri sleepy day. woke up late and reached work oni at 9.40am. i DID NOT realise today i was allowed to dress down; apparently, the rule applies on the last day of the week and not just fridays. DAMN. and i wasted so much time at home thinking wat i can wear without looking too casual cos i was going out for drinks after work. i was surprisingly productive today though, did like 5 sets of slides which is a new record for me muahaha.. although now have a headache and nausea again. YUCK. i think its realli weather related. i dun feel so gd and as i look out the window, i can barely see anithing. yah, its super hazy outside again. bleahz. can't wait until its 7pm. haiz, 3 more hours. sianz......

got my first paycheck .. woohOO! its $500++ for bout 7 days of work.. heh.. yay!!

just got a 1gb email acc.. email ani comments or ani personal questions to me at booboogal@spymac.com. :)

had a lonely lunch by myself. *sobz* abit off, but its quite nice actualli to just sit there and eat super slowly while reading the papers.. i went after the peak hours, 1+, so the food court was like quiet and not crowded at all.. couldn't get up this morning, my mom had to shout and shout b4 i finalli could get up. :S

was mulling over something hanping told me over lunch yesterday. he said i'm a veri lucky person. was veri surprised at this comment, cos i didn't consider myself lucki at all. he said it wasn't like the win money kinda luck but just that events occurring around me just seem to fall nicely into place because of a seemingly random event that i innocently triggered or did. which was veri strange cos i nv noticed it b4. then after lunch, we walked out of the esplanade to see our bus at the bus stop. ran to the bus stop and luckily, there was an old man toking to the driver for instructions which delayed the bus enuff for us to get on. once on the bus, hanping said that this was the kind of thing he was toking about. cos just b4 that I decided to go to the loo b4 going to the bus stop. i told it was just plain coincidence, but he said it didn't happen to him. I brought him luck. :)

i'm now up and about at 3am in the morning cos i just woke up.. yes, i just woke up (surprise surprise!) .. took a small yellow tablet at 7pm (chlorpheniramine) for my cold and started feeling groggy like 5 min later. managed to eat dinner my mom cooked (best meal i've had in a long time actualli) and K-O-ed. actualli received a sms from hanping b4 i slept to check on my flu but i was half asleep and didn't reply him until like 2 hours later when i woke up to another sms from him. *oops* aniway.. was lazy to reply and still veri groggy, so asked him to call me and was supposed to meet him for supper but i was jus too knocked out by the pill still at bout 11pm. almost fell asleep in the midst of conversation in fact. finalli dragged myself out of bed at 2.30am to finish up the powerpoint slides i was doing for work.. which almost bored me to sleep again.. *zzz* anihow.. this is why i dun like to eat medicine, cos they have such multiplied effects on me. one small pill can knock me out for nearli 8 hours.. pretty weak man..

my boss is the best! ;) was blowing my nose this whole morning and she told me to take half day off home to rest. yay! coincidentalli, i had arranged to meet hanping for lunch and so had the luxury of having a long lunch at thai express b4 heading home. their seafood laksa in yellow curry is YUMMY! wanted to have a swim when i reached home but it started raining so i took a nap instead.. :)

shucks. now the dreamd8 thing seems like a big evil thing. even more so i want kirin to win now. espcialli got that horrid Ghost who left bad comments on his blog. haiz. why is he so suay? he realli tries to be a veri gd fren, fixed me up with one of his closest frens who turns out to be realli realli such a great, wonderful guy its unbelievable why we didn't noe each other sooner. we crossed paths several times, just like in "turn left turn right", on gunbound i played with/against him unknowingly, i missed his presence at IT show when kirin wanted to intro us, some of the NUS bazaars he was there.. and kirin was so concerned when there was problems btw us, he tried to make sure things were ok btw us and all.. thanks dude.. i realli appreciate it, understand ur gd intentions. i'm veri nearli like u, so i understand wat u are going thru.. being misunderstood cos of unfound and hurtful rumours is a terrible feeling. i noe u want us to stop voting for u, but please, its so near to the end liao, its a pity to just give up. give us permission to vote again and u have all our fullest support until the end. (even hanping will vote cos i ask him to, despite his seeming hostility.. he wistfully wondered wat u were up to today, and i could sense that he does regret his rash anger & he misses ur frenship) dun lose out to the evil pple, all u need to do is allow us to give u full support.. :)

i feel like peter pan.

i read my sis' blog and realised she grew up. without me realising. didn't noe that time had flown by so quickly and she was veri nearly an adult. perhaps, mentally, she oredi was. like any elder sis, i had always tot she needed me to protect her from the evils of the world. and that if anione dared to bully her, i would give that person hell. and her bf was subject to my approval. etc etc. all the whims of the protective elder sis. she has done well, with veri little guidance from me. or perhaps with the guidance of me in the form of things not to do. i served as the black sheep, of wat she should not be when she grew up and she has done well to not become me. despite having the same education from the same schs and some same teachers, i am proud to see her become a much stronger person then me. better values, more mature, i do admit i've been jealous of her occasionally. jealous that my parents seem to have more pride in her but yet always disappointed in me. higher expectations of me yet lower impression of me in their esteem. jealous of how she is always the good daughter in their eyes while i'm always the disappointment, the one to always anger them. jealous of how i'm the rebellious one, the one to fight for freedom from parents while she just quietly sits there and sulk and i fight for her. haiz. time is just moving by far too fast. i can't help but fear the day when we all go our separate ways and form our own families. even now, we oredi lead our own lives in the same house we live in. i have also realised why i nv need girl frens. i have my sisters & they're all i ever need. weiting, wei, please promise me that no matter wat happens, we'll always be there for one another in times of need? i realli can't bear to let go of u girls.

wah.. did not realise that the moment i had lunch, i didn't have to work for the rest of the day..

my boss asked me to go shopping with her for a farewell gift for her colleague and have lunch with her.. it was quite fun actualli, kinda like a getting to noe each other more session as well. we went to orchard and wandered around for like 2 hours in the scotts and tanglin area b4 giving up and going to Royal selangor at taka to get her a pewter clock. yes, song zhong. i felt kinda awkward knowing she's giving a clock as a gift (i'm pretty superstitious i suppose) but since she's indonesian and the receiver was american, i guess no harm done, since they were both ignorant.. heh. the clock was nice though.. veri unique, the base was like a bamboo stick hollowed out.. we finalli took a cab back after she treated me lunch at taco bell :) by then, it was like 3.30pm.. then i just had no more mood for work..

messed ard with my laptop for a while when she went for a meeting and i was sent off on an errand to get her a farewell greeting card by 6pm at 5.15pm.. hehe.. went to marina to realise that the whole humongous place had no gift shop. !! realised that the nearest place was like city link and had to walk all the way to Kalm's. I was not feeling well by then despite the opportunity to skive off on shopping trips the whole day. nose was like totalli stuck and it was veri difficult to breathe with my mouth in the airconditioned area. while walking fast. :X aniway, got some card that cost >$5 that wished her success and all.. veri classy, hallmark card, but way more than i would ever spend on a card ever since i learnt to use a PC to print greeting cards.. :P rushed back for her to sign the card etc, and cos she left for the farewell dinner earli, i left work earli too.. haha..

hanping was so happy to see me for dinner.. was actualli planning to surprise him but turns out he was planning to surprise me to meet me at home, so i guess luckily we discussed the surprise b4hand.. heh.. we think pretty similarly, so not difficult to come up with the same things based on our feelings that day.. :) arghh.. but parting is always so sianz. always have to meet for short while then leave for home, its a veri off feeling. i wished i had like one whole week to properly spend with him and then i won't complain i haven had enuff time with him yet.

took a look at the voting of the dreamd8 thingey this morning and saw that kirin was last. he had asked us all not to vote for him animore and i guess it was his choice.. however, saw that his ranking had moved up a few minutes later.. hmm.. was online chatting with him and he wasn't happy bout it.. aiyoh.. pple support u still not happy? had to leave for work and found out later he wasn't eliminated :) hey kirin.. just be thankful for ur loyal silent supporters lah.. next week u prolly out liao oso lor.. haha.. so cheer up!

feeling realli sick today and i lost my voice. argh, having no paid MCs realli sux. :(

back to tedious powerpoint conversion. yuck yuck yuck. looking forward to lunchtime..

think there's a flu bug going ard. my tuition kid was coughing, hp is coughing, me sick, frens oso coughing.. this is sars evolved??

trying to triple-task, even quad-task here.. doing powerpoint, reading CFA text, watching TV (just now.. miss congeniality is super funny :) , chatting online.. erh.. wat else? bloggin apparently.. abit distracted here.. with a little headache and all the blowing of my nose as well.. erh where was i? yah.. as i said, i 'm pretty distracted.. realise my mind quite flighty, goes from one thing to another without stopping and that leaves me feeling quite tired in the end. mentalli drained. hmm.. but thats prolly why i can't sleep.. mind jumping everywhere at nite..

suddenli had a weird tot today... was at tuition and the kid was irritating me a little with her inability to have opinions bout her newspaper article even after my attempts to discuss it with her.. anihow.. was sms-ing hanping bout me dying (if i got drenched in a rain since i'm sick now, and he asked me to drink rain water.. yadda yadda, its a long story) .. and i suddenli realised, if i died, my blog readers wouldn't noe. & since no one has the password to my blog aniway, no one can update and tell the world i died and left.. was thinking, i'll tell everyone now, if there are no updates from me (unless i said i'm taking a break from blogging or something along this line), no updates from me after one whole week.. take it that i've left this world.. sad huh.. but this is the oni way i can think of to let pple noe i have died.. by preconceiving a communication method of non-communication. wow.. that sentence was way too cheem.. heh.. :P

due to the tight deadlines i'm suddenli facing at work.. (the boss of my boss just came back) have to do work even on my own comp at home liao.. thats veri sad.. come home still have to face more work..

its not difficult work, just tedious.. cos the idiot who did them b4, he can't use powerpoint at all!! he would use a new text box for every single phrase or word or bullet he used, such that there would be like 20 small textboxes on a single slide that are super small. to edit their fonts or standardize their font size i have to erm, either re-type all into a new text box altogether or shift-click all of them. Being an IT student, modularity is like super ingrained into us and basicalli, i can't stand things that isn't editing-frenli at all. was super pissed and i kena-ed a headache from staring at the comp screen for so long i wanna puke. yes... can realli feel the nausea.. dun worri, i realli think its the screen, its definitely not pregnancy haha.. but i am sick, prolly from late nites, and kinda have flu and fever.. sad... but see doctor veri ex.. i dun wanna waste money... :(

hanping met my family yesterday, my sis loves his lame jokes. esp since she tot he looks quite cool, until he started laughing haha.. my mom was a little rude, like the one in the kidney patient TCS8 show when one of the moms met the girlfren of the dreamzfm guy (i'm realli bad at remembering tv serial pple names) .. she kept looking behind him while tokin to him, and did not look him in the eyes at all.. after that she kept asking me why dun wan andy, and i was like ... totalli exasperated.. it was mutual and my dad was more understanding when i said that. even if we were together for like 2 years, if there were things that wasn't rite, so wat if we had held on for even longer? there was no long term security bcos i wasn't his ideal gf, and we were together cos he loved me, but he didn't realli see ani future with me, he even admitted that to me.. its quite sad, but since our priorities were different, isn't it better to part amicably than to be not even frens? he gives me great advice and he noes me so well, its a pity to lose the frenship liddat.. haiz..

haiz haiz haiz. sadz.. dun think he loves me as much after finding out, its a shock to him and i hate myself for having told him. he said "my heart bleeds everytime i think bout it.. " i feel so so guilty. even though it wasn't something i could have helped. unless i had met him earlier on... haiz..

things are better but there will always be that shadow there. thank you dear.. i love u now and that's wat matters rite?

oh my god. he found out. he found out everything and i feel like killing myself. i made him so sad. when the past catches up with u, and haunts u.. its time to face the music. i now truly believe this is retribution.

okie .. i am retracting my comment bout "the bitch we all hate in the contest who deserves to drown her fat face in the toilet bowl." the new line reads "being one of the nicest contestant, i hope posh wins.. she oozes grace and genuine charm, making her the ideal dreamd8, as compared to someone who might just voice out her opinions as and when in public without ani sense of public decorum.. "

since everyone is entitled to their own opinion on their own blog, i would say PEACE to anione i've offended (veri few i think unless their fans oso are offended by me).. like them, i'm just entitled to my own 2 cents worth on my own blog, with veri veri veri veri few nasty comments liaoz, so do forgive me if i actualli do dish out some of these to pple that i realli feel veri veri veri strongly about (against?).

anihow. PEACE.

angry at wasting 2 hours watching passion of christ. argh. it makes me angry that the show was so brutal, that God didn't save him from all the cruelty. i dun understand how his sufferings redeemed the sins of the pple. why shouldn't the pple who sinned be the pple who suffer for them? so wat if the jews' temple was destroyed as Jesus prophesised? how did that punish theM? the whole movie was just bout how he was tortured by the pple he fought so hard to save. and how the soldiers seemed to enjoy flogging him. erh... i realli dun see the point of the movie. a normal human would have died or fainted at ani point of such torture. and the story of christ i oredi nearly knew by heart. so it pretty much gave me nitemares oni.. :( no offence to christians or anione here k? just my feelings.. (now have to make disclaimers.. sianz half)

not veri happy tonite.. haiz..

was at my fav place for dinner yesterday.. pasta cafe at taka that is.. and something unpleasant happened to spoil my dinner. this freak came in and sat 2 tables away from us. he didn't look like a freak, just a normal nerdish geek, and he just sat down and ordered only a glass of red wine. kinda tot it was weird that anione would go there for wine, and we tot he was just waiting for a late date or something.. a little uncomfortable after like half hour and he still sits there sipping his wine and looking ard. we just tried to ignore the creep and eat our food. basically, he looked like a loser.. suddenli, we heard someone toking realli loudly, reprimanding the waitress on my right. surprise surprise! its the freak. he was kao-bei-ing bout how the waitress should have served him water b4 he started drinking, how the wine wasn't aged enuff blah blah.. the manager heard the commotion and came over.. the freak repeated his stupid complaints again. in a nasal kiam-pah voice. i was getting quite pissed at him by then but there were 2 sec sch girls in the table btw me and him else i would have given him a peace of my mind. wat a dumbass, this is a PASTA cafe, not a wine bar!! being the fake wine critique, he was obviously out for some freebies using his cheap tricks. the manager didn't try to argue, poor man, he got a realli dulan look on his face while he tried to explain politely that they oni serve young wine here. the freak just left without paying after all those righteous tok bout how he's been mistreated as a customer. KNS!! if i see him again i'll definitely wack him! NB! spoil my dinner with all his crap! if u're so rich and wanna drink wine, go to a bar DUH!! he's prolly afraid of the bouncers throwing him out.. obviously out for free food and wanna create trouble. wat an ASS! and he couldn't even speak proper english with all his pretending to be high class and know-all bout wines. IDIOT!! anihow, after he left, the 2 girls at the next table starting mimicking his words and discussing wat an idiot he was. couldn't help but burst out laughing.. as we turned to leave, was surprised to see posh and shaun (dreamd8s!) .. posh recognised me and said hi :) i still maintain she's realli realli nice unlike one of the bitch we all hate in the contest who deserves to drown her fat face in the toilet bowl.

watching passion of the christ later.. julia got us free tix!! :) thanks jules.. poor hanping becoming poor after we go out so often.. actualli me too hehe.. but i should be getting my pay for citibank in bout 3 days.. so YAY!

back to work for now..