千四百四十一： Transformers

Transformers is great!! the 2.5 hours of the movie went by very very quickly & I finally understood why they were here and the reason for their morphing. & the effects of the vehicle transforming into the humans were super cool. seeing the robots on Megatron's side pummel the humans was worse than seeing war movies..

I just reached home. am actually dozing off at this PC le. nitez

千四百四十： 朝番

it's my turn to do morning shift these 2 days and I had to wake up at 6.30am 6.20am to reach the office at 7.30am. Luckily my sister has school and my parents send her to school so I just follow the car to reach work in time at 7.35am.

it's actually quite nice to be at work at this time cos the office is quiet and empty & you can do pretty much what you want in the morning. Check the essential stuff to make sure they are working, then just relax abit. & then somemore, by 4.30pm you're free, while the rest of your colleagues are still busy. :D

Shrek 3 was really funny, but the movie was abit too short. would have been better if it was slightly longer. but I think at least there wasn't as many babies as we were led to believe in the trailer. phew. that would have been disgusting! the bra-burning feminist part was seriously (-.-!!)

today watching transformers~ yay!

千四百三十九： また？

So the theory about 1 new one coming along every month is proving to be true. What's going on ?!

& i caught Shrek 3 for $1 today! thanks to HSBC $1 deals. hohoho!!

千四百三十八： Braces Time

Finally after 2 months of being lazy, I finally made it for my appointment with the dentist today. He seems happy with the progress (thank goodness) since I had thought that the teeth looked like they were moving apart rather than together. & I was right in thinking my bottom teeth looked dirty on the inside. so the dentist helped me removed everything accumulated there & i got yellow bands & shiny teeth again :)

Work has been quite slack these few days. which is good cos I foresee next week to be OT week again. sighz.

千四百三十七： Mist

ok I made this little thing over the weekend as well:

checkered crystal heart

sweet でしょう？

But I haven't decided if I want to make it into a pendant, a handphone strap accessory or a keychain. I'll just let it hang from the string a little while longer.

Made appt with Akane to watch Shrek on Wednesday finally, and then got movie date to watch Transformers as well on Friday. :D

Looking forward for July to be here cos in a week someone I'm waiting for would be here. I think I am still waiting? I am not sure anymore myself. But at least in July, it will be testing period again and we will have lots to do. I am so free these few days it is killing me to pretend to be busy. That's harder than doing real work.

千四百三十六： Fantastic 4

I'm so glad I caught this on impulse after dinner with WH today.

met WH at marina sq for dinner, had a quick dinner at thai express (simply thai's tom yam noodles are way better!! but no more simply thai anywhere le.. *sobz*) then we walked around window shopping for a while. but we sorta ran out of shops to walk around and then we finally reached suntec and WH agreed to watch fantastic 4 with me even though he watched it already. (#^-^#) thanks!!

the silver surfer seemed cooler when he didn't speak, but at least the show ends well. It's so refreshing to finally watch a show that isn't 2 hours long (its only 1.5 hrs) and not feel that exhausted after that. we were supposed to eat cheesecake but we forgot about it and by the time the movie ended it was tooo late.

work again tomorrow. (yuck) and i have to start taking bus to work (double yuck). This month was bliss with waking up late and having my parents drive me to work cos of the sch holidays, but with the holidays ending, it means i gotta ride that overcrowded 1 hr bus again. ARGH.

千四百三十五： Rainbow Bracelet!

check this out, I completed the bracelet this afternoon.

rainbow bracelet

not too shabby right?

I was supposed to have Japanese class today but my dad bought lunch home late and after that I had stomachache so it was too late to go by the time I was ready to leave :( In the end I didn't go.

persuaded my mom to buy Meiji Amino Collagen today, as I have seen this collagen drink to be a beauty essential drink in Japan for maintaining youthful skin. well, its really expensive there, the readymade drinks, cost about 400 yen per small 150ml bottle. so I thought I would try it for a while and see if at least the effects of uneven skin tone would be removed. The last time I saw Fancl brand of the collagen in guardian Pharmacy, but I couldn't see it today. so maybe i'll try it next time.

ok.. time to zzz after another tiring nightmare of murders and escapes last night. good nite!

千四百三十四： Rainbow

work in progress

Do you know that there are tons of good movies coming up in July? Transformers, Harry Potter, Die Hard 4.0, The Simpsons Movie, Alone (the thai horror show bout the Siamese Twins), Bourne Ultimatium, & No Vacancy. ok must put aside about $7 * 7, $49 for movies in july? hee..

千四百三十三： ビーズ

I went to check out the wares in the beading industry in Singapore today with J after work at People's Park. and I found the prices to be quite reasonable compared to the online prices. so I got myself some beads to start up the bracelet in the pic yesterday! This is not a cheap hobby...

the start up tools

hopefully I will start making something tomorrow evening. Make sure you go to People's Park Centre (not complex!!)

Today the 21 year old guy finally summoned up his courage to chat with me. Online. hehe. it was abit weird. I didn't know what to say to a 21 year old, so I asked him about army. which really feels like eons ago. hmm

oh i had the weirdest most horrifying nightmare last night. dreamt of being in a house w/o knowing who is the murderer cos he is wearing this mask, then seeing people stabbed to death before my eyes (think Scream or Zodiac) then trying to escape the house but with suddenly kids in masks and hoods surrounding me and my guy. My guy holding my hand turns out to be Jude Law (hehe the only highlight of the dream) and he starts kissing me passionately while the evil kids starts chopping my hair off and trying to cut his hair too. ouch. alot of bloody scenes around. but good kiss. I'm quite tired from all the dream-running and kissing so shall sleep earlier tonight~~

nightz.

千四百三十二： 地図

I downloaded this program on my PC yesterday from the company server and it proved to be very useful! Microsoft Streets & Trips. I think it's mainly used for people to plan road trips, but the world map was a handy tool, allowing you to state your destinations as routes.

So my Thailand holiday will look like this:

Singapore - Bangkok - Krabi - Singapore

so exciting!! I saw my colleague's snorkelling pics yesterday and it made me wan to get an underwater case to take pics of fishes in the water too! unfortunately, its so expensive! and i don't know if I will use it often. for Ixus 40, there's only this All Weather case (AW-DC30) , that you can't even use if you go diving, cos it only goes down to 3 feet or something. argh.

Oh. i think I know who the 21 year old is. I caught the person looking at me as he ran past, looking kind of embarrassed. (#^-^#)

ok for my next bead project i wanna do this:

rainbow bracelet

or

transparent heart

which one looks better?

千四百三十一： The Boss is Sick

Today was the most relaxed I had felt in months because my boss is on MC! woohoO!!

and today was strangely very unbusy. no emails came for us to solve no nothing.

& i found out some 21 year old guy got a crush on me. hee hee.

千四百三十： Absent Minded

I booked our air tix today! so excited~~ we have never travelled outside Japan together before, & Singapore doesn't count cos it's my home country. so we will be going Bangkok for about 4days 4 nights and then Krabi for about 6days 5 nights. My airfare for Singapore - Bangkok - Krabi - Singapore is about S$210 (inc taxes). I would say that's .. quite cheap? I don't really know how cheap it can go, but that seems pretty reasonable. Now abit of a headache over which hotel to choose, the ones very near MBK (& quite ex) or those abit of distance (maybe 1 stop away) but alot cheaper.

Krabi I found some discount related to my HSBC card, but actually I saw another hotel which is cheaper than that even.. so have asked Ryo to pick.

today the piece of work due to my boss I been procrastinating turned out to be not as bad. Under the threat of my neck, I managed to churn out something good. Surprisingly. I need some sort of push I suppose. works well under stress. :(

& I forgot to rinse off the conditioner off my hair before i got out of the shower. I was looking at the mirror, then I touched my hair and I realised it was still sticky with conditioner. then i was like "oh shit!" then ran back into the bathroom to rinse my hair. I don't think that ever happened before.

千四百二十九：Abacus Ring

ok, this is the latest creation i did yesterday:

Abacus Ring

not bad right?

千四百二十八： Spider Lilies

I watched Spider Lilies with CJ today. The show with Rainie Chang and some other thin and tall girl pretending to be japanese, the one about lesbian love. I was a little embarrassed during the lesbian scenes, but the scene was quite a turn on, even though it was too short. I was expecting more of such scenes, but the show didnt show much. sianz.

we had dinner at Sakae, my first time there in YEARS, it was ok, thansk to CJ for the treat. i think. then we went shopping and I got 2 very sexy black dresses! hoho. Chaos is still the best place for sexy clothes for me. fits like a charm and very very nice and sexy shapes and cutting.

then we went Kino and I had a good time browsing at this month's Associe magazine (japanese magazine) about rules in the workplace for girls. very befitting of the current situation.

then the movie then we went st James, but not before depositing the car at his place first. since he lives so near me aniway. just left the bags in his car, then we took a cab down. then we just sat in Bellini's and chit chat and he bought me drinks (thanks again~~~) and alot of secrets started spilling out.

but it was quite good, to release whatever i been trying to hide, and when you drink, your unhappiness about stuff gets amplified. you know you can't stop thinking about your unhappy situations and then you just feel self pity for quite alot of the nite. but CJ was pretty kind about the whole thing.

Ok we gotta start planning the bangkok/phuket/krabi trip. we as in me and ryo. he decided that he wants to go bangkok/phuket after all, instead of me coming japan. sighz. but alright someplace new for me, so we gotta start checking is it cheaper for him to go direct from Japan or stop in Singapore first and we go together. mafan!!

千四百二十七： 梅酒

tonight I was invited to a female colleague's place for dinner with a few other girls. It was so fun!!

We drank and talked alot of taboo topics, and then gossip about who's doing it with who in the office. hahaha. one of the girls got quite drunk and wanted to take off her jeans. it was ok, cos it was all girls, but it was still quite funny to see them behaving so wild. hehehe

was in a bad mood this morning due to some person, argh. but end of the day it seemed better. cos i had almost finished my work, and i was flipping through the beads books and i just started on something new tonite. i'll try to finish it tomorrow. :D

千四百二十六： Thai Accent

I'm so happy it's nearly the weekend!!

its been such a hectic week, time passed really quickly. Which was bad, cos I had quite alot of things to do.

Anyway, went to Vivocity with my cousin & his fren for some shopping. I got myself a nice kaftan top from Topshop (which isn't having a sale btw..) but they didn't have S size which would have fitted me alot better. sighz..

We had dinner at Thai Accent, which is quite expensive, and kinda regret it. the only good thing about the high prices were the rice refills. The taste was avg, not super good or better than thai express. but the view of sentosa from the restaurant was pretty good. The old ferry terminal is gone now, only the jetty remains with abit of the orange roof left from the queue area i think, and I feel quite sad cos all my memories of sentosa with my family was mainly of us riding the ferry to sentosa. :(

yesterday I was really tired dunno for wat reason, this morning I could barely wake up at 7am even though I slept at midnight. now I'm yawning uncontrollably again.

ok I am pretty much going to take leave for about 6 days in August to see Ryo, since our leave can't be brought over to the next year. ARGH. So unfair la.

千四百二十五： ストレス

I think stress is not having too much work. Its having work you don't want to do, don't wish to do, don't know how to do in a tight deadline.

argh.

千四百二十四： 美容院

美容院　＝　salon in Japanese. In Japan, their Beauty & the salon for the hair stuff comes together. and they would usually be closed on Monday. Very convenient. and the stylists get a fixed off day too. isn't that great?

I finally went for a haircut after 5 months. its probably the longest interval i've gone for w/o doing anything to my hair in the past 3 years. the haircut became a rebonding session and the stylist went to do treatment w/o asking me and it was so freaking expensive!! aRGH!! I hate it when they do that, its so unethical. :( I really have to eat grass next month liao.

Since we are on that topic, counting down to pay day again.

13 more working days to Pay Day!

千四百二十三： Ocean's 13

Thanks to CJ who jio-ed me out of the blue late this evening to watch this. I been searching for someone wanting to watch this to no avail the whole weekend and CJ was a godsend today :) Enjoyed the chats and the secrets sharing very much, I dunno why today seemed alot more fun than usual. :D would have gone for prata supper should it be a weekend though.

Today was pretty much an UP compared to last week (the only way any day could have gone would be up compared to last week). The morning started out swamped, with my boss chasing me for stuff I was apparently supposed to have done last friday evening with an hour to spare till work ended (DUH? you think I still got mood to slog for you after all that happened last week?) and I had to rush out stuff for her after having a very stressed lunch with my insides all panicky. I hate that feeling. I mean, it wasn't any deadline for anyone, just something she die die want to see which is something she really got no idea about. sianz.

after lunch, things got better, work cleared bit by bit and I actually can't remember when I was so productive b4. I guess stress really forces some performance but its definitely bad for the skin. and the hair. and the brain. ack. ok, i am a wuss, but I am really more of a own time own target person even though I can perform when I need to. Dora ordered some dinner for everyone cos she was oso staying late, and we had quite a good dinner of zichar and after that I had to rush to finish up and then meet CJ who picked me up at work. (^-^)

I kinda dread work now, I want to find a day to take MC and just dump my work on someone else instead. argh.

千四百二十二： 気になる？

Even though a guy is attached, and he knows you are attached, yet he minds when you meet your bf, what does it mean?

Today I practically slept the day away. Yesterday I went for Japanese lesson, asked 2 people whether they wan to watch movie in the evening but 1 replied me and i didn't receive the sms, then the other one didn't receive my sms asking him about the movie. argh. so in the end I went to dinner with my family at Taman Jurong, (the sambal stingray was very very good!!) then went suntec to look at the stuff on sale. I didn't buy a single thing even though almost all the shops were having sale. Nothing caught my eye, and I guess I'm really picky. Maybe I was just not in the mood for shopping also. Was feeling quite sleepy from waking up at 9+ am, and my mind just kept going back to the moments from the last last week. This month is another waiting month for someone to be here again. and waiting is a very draining activity. We have a new teacher for Japanese class too & she is .. really loud. very unlike most Japanese ladies, she speaks abit like a japanese Lian. heh.

so I fell asleep at midnite after a pretty good conversation with Ryo, maybe i'll go Japan in Aug. had a horrible nightmare about the gem on my ring falling off and only managed to wake up at 11+ am after trying the whole night to repair the ring in the dream. ate breakfast, helped to prepare lunch, ate lunch, took a nap, ate dinner, and then we went supermarket. Bought alot of stuff and then i'm feeling sleepy right now again. I dread to have to work tomorrow, but if I take MC, i'll probably be swamped again the next day instead. sighz...

千四百二十一： Zodiac

I watched this movie with C today. I realise that majority of the people I know have names beginning with the letter C. or with the 2nd most number having names beginning with J. The movie was good, very intriguing, keeping me literally on my toes the whole time. with the puzzles and the clues and the suspense of not knowing when the next murder will happen, I was at all times ready to gasp. hehe. but the ending was pretty disappointing. The movie was quite long, so they might have been rushing for an ending there cos there were many question marks towards the end. But worth watching just for the whole process.

Work just threatened to overwhelm me today. Something that really almost cost me my neck happened this morning. But I hope it has blown over, else I guess maybe I can get ready for a new job. I only realised I had like >5 projects on hand when I had the 1-1 meeting with my boss this afternoon and she herself seemed surprised when we spoke and listed out the projects 1 by 1. I think she didn't expect that I had so many things on hand. And everything seemed to just crash down on me today, dunno why everyone seemed to be finding fault with the work I am involved in & my boss just throw me in the water to struggle and find a way out. argh. exhausted.

on the way home, I was so tired @ 11 pm ++ i actually just dozed all the way back, something I hadn't done in a while. I think I should start my Japanese classes tomorrow. zzz. nitez

千四百二十： Beads

We had a beads accessories class held by Yoshioka-san today and I made my very first accessory all by myself!

Beaded handphone strap

Not bad right? I think I'll try my hand at this as a new hobby from now on. (^-^)

This was the highlight of the day. I was not looking at my boss the whole day, eyes too swollen from all the crying last night, and in the class there was some example of vacation being cancelled due to work and the trainer did not know he had hit a sore point when he used my name in the example and it was all I could do to stop myself from bawling and maintain a fake smile on my face while the other people who knew were giving me sympathetic looks.

I think my work quality went down the past few weeks, esp with all these tension and friction at work. I feel damn unhappy about the way she is inconsistent about what she wants and there is still tomorrow the 1-1 session which i feel is redundant. i have nothing to say and I don't want to look at her.

Anyway, I'll stop thinking about her. Spoil my day. But its really been a sucky week.

千四百十九： 殺したい

My trip has been cancelled.

Sorry XQ. Sorry.

I am so sorry.

千四百十八： Sun with Moon

At least I think that's what the Japanese restaurant is called. I don't know what the name means though. We went there for our team dinner tonight. It was so-so, very interesting dishes & quite authentic but due to the sorta unhappy talk I had this afternoon with my boss, things were quite tense. I hate conflict, especially when I haven't been feeling such good vibes lately with her, but I guess it was partly my own fault for thinking I could take this into my own hands. By right, the holiday is the holiday, it shouldn't be used to be the flying time what. But anyway, forget it, what's done is done, she has approved it, despite unwillingly, and I should just be thankful for that. & partly I had so much on my mind that I could only think about the same thing during dinner and wonder how things are on that side.

So I will manage to stop over in Tokyo after all and by luck, Ryo will be in Tokyo the same weekend as well so we CAN meet up. yay! But still mentally exhausted today after all the stress of how to face my boss when I realised she was damn unhappy even though I had changed the flight date from 24th to 21st already but effectively only saving 1 working day. But I did try! it was really last minute and there were really no flights left!! nvm, shall stop harping on this and try to make up with better work in the coming weeks. Tomorrow & thursday is some training conducted by a guy from Redmond, hopefully lessons will be fun?

Some random thoughts:

• Today's bus 171 took me home pretty fast.
• I can't remember what his face looks like in my head.
• I am feeling more and more immoral by the day and the feeling is really depressing.

Ok, I must pull myself together and get some things done this week

• Watch Shrek 3
• Get the DS stuff for Ryo (?)
• Pack my luggage
• Have supper with CJ b4 I leave

that's all i think? nodding off. so. good night.

千四百十七： Evil Thoughts

I am wondering what would happen if someone in the office found out what happened. Will he be fired or will I be fired? Girls have so many laws they can use to their advantage should something turn against them. What if I choose to use them?

The unfairness of the whole situation really pisses me off. How one-sided it is. How of course I have to be the one being the understanding one. Come on. You don't like to hear about mine, you think I like to hear about yours? If you really want to do anything, there is a way, I don't believe in idiots who tell me excuses and say "nono, I couldn't send you a reply because of XXX reasons". If your friend sends you messages, do you act all secretive & tell your friend you can't reply? I don't buy such crap, which leads to me pretty much disbelieving the situation as he paints it.

But. I guess he will soon learn that I am not as kind as I seem.

On a happier note, the flights to Seattle & back have finally been confirmed. My boss was angry that there was no flights back until 24th, so I had to ask the admin assistant to check for an airline which had an earlier flight. (T.T) It turns out that there was one last seat on 10th June (Sunday) morning on United Airlines to Seattle via Narita, and also one last seat on 21st June (Thurs) back from San Francisco. Argh. I was soooo looking forward to the SQ ride that it's kind of disappointing. Did it really affect the team whether I was back early or not? They could handle things, just that they chose not to. I'll be back in time for the weekend, wasting 4 days of my trip effectively, else I could have gone Las Vegas with XQ. But maybe I can take the chance to restock in Tokyo? hmmmm.

千四百十六： Affairs

I took a long nap today to try to sleep away the lethargy and the feelings of heartache. I'm counting down to July 9th. Double significance to the day, where I would have finished 1 year of my bond and also the start to a week of short-lived happiness. I feel like I've lost all motivation to do anything useful. I'll be flying on 9th to the States for the first time but I don't feel excited anymore.

I wish I could just throw away all these feelings of despair and just forget everything for a while.

千四百十五： Happy 61 day! (albeit one day late..)

yesterday was a pretty good day.

The fact that we only had to work until noon then go for some morale game session organised by the office was pretty much a motivation to get through the morning asap. In the afternoon, I bumped into one of the PM and turns out that today was their last day here. & this whole week they had some training for Project Management so I didn't see much of them. so one last chat before we left for the morale event, then we had to go to Settler's cafe in Holland V to play the cashflow game.

The game was quite ok, but too many rules, it was ok after awhile but we progressed too slowly. The game was facilitated by some guys from a financial co, and our group had a guy who was so pushy with his opinions. teaching us the game was one thing, foisting your opinion on us was another. He didn't let some of the quieter players speak for themselves and Dale (our boss) got quite irritated when he tried to speak to the other members of the game and that financial guy kept interrupting. Irritating! In the end our boss won at our table (nono, we didn't let him!!) but he was really good, and he made the game very fun.

The game ended at about 6pm, so rushed to Marina SQ to meet the 61ders, tried waraku for the first time and it's quite ok. but a bit expensive. but I shared quite abit of food with Weilun and oso burnt abit of hole in my pocket. :s we had desserts at Changing Appetites & i forgot how funny Guan is until he made us laugh until we could barely breathe. But I dunno why I was very very tired, and I actually fell asleep in Weilun's car on the way back.

today watched Pirates in the afternoon with my cousin, cj and C, I think I was still feeling sleepy so I couldn't really focus on the show. but overall , it was quite good, and I laughed alot. the ending when Orlando Bloom was XXXXXX and they could only meet once every 10 years. (T.T) I almost cried at that part, was tearing a little. sighz. I totally can relate to their parting feelings.

千四百十四： 好きだよ

It's been a long time since I've heard these words. :) but they did bring a big smile to my face. I hope they were sincere words though..

千四百十三： & the cycle continues

It is the end of May, (beginning of June) and do you remember what I had predicted last month?

Well. How true it turned out to be. Except this month, the old one is still hanging around and the new one is something that's totally not supposed to happen. I need someone who can listen to me w/o judging me. I want to just spill my guts over everything that's been happening, but I'm afraid of the repercussions of leaks & gossip.

I don't know how it happened, how these things happen to me. These are good people (?), but they all turn out to have one thing or another that makes them wrong. Yesterday I was reminded of the show Lunch Affair. They carry on their lives separately happily despite their everyday affair. I want to repeat, married people should not let people think they are available!!

Like my sister said, my life has become one big Japanese drama. sighz. very troubled. What is with my life and these wrong people?? Even my work trip will not be free from these troubles.