one thing i hate most: to be stood up by pple.

especially when you tell me to meet you at one place, and u fail to inform me that u're actually not there any more, until i reach there and call to ask how come all the shops are closed, then u actually tell me, "oops, i'm having dinner at another building.." and u nv give me further instructions to tell me to wait there or wat. At least give me a message to say where u'll be rite? was freaking pissed. and its like meet for wat since u chose to have dinner earlier on? i dun think its unreasonable that i get angry bout this, i'm sure anyone would be unhappy if they're tired and kena dua-ed.

i need more sleep...

this is pretty urgent. Any one noe of anywhere to get cheap air tix to san francisco ? preferably bout S$1000.. i need it end Aug.. thanks.. :)

私があなたについて憎む10 の事

私があなたについて憎む10 の事

私はあなたが私に話す方法を憎む、 そして方法あなたの毛がによってゼリー状になる。
私はあなたが狂気私を運転する方法を憎む 私は凝視するときそれを憎む。
私は嫉妬のあなたの欠乏を憎む そして方法私の心を読んだ。
私はそんなにそれが私に病人をする憎む、 それは私に韻をする。
私はあなたによってが常に正しい方法を憎む、 私はあるときそれを憎む。
私は私に笑いをするときそれを憎む、 私に叫びをする時均一なより悪い。
私はないときそれを憎む、 そしてあなたが呼ばなかった事実。
しかし大抵私は私が憎まない方法を憎む、 終わり... ... 少し均等にしてはいけない 全然均等にしてはいけない。

I stayed up til 4am to read this book last nite..
reminded me of this book: similar to Tony Parson's "Man and Boy".. typical British humour..

it was good, real life humour interspersed with serious issues like pregnancy, fatherhood, miscarriages and how a couple deals with these humongous changes without losing their love for each other. quite a touching novel.. but Tony Parsons still wins in the tears department; his every book never fails to make me cry. (i'm not a easily touched person by books or movies by the way...) speaking of movies, Big Fish also left me in tears at the end of it when the son was telling the story to his dad in his last moments. ahh.. i haven't watched a movies in eons .. spiderman was ages ago... when will i get to watch a movie again!?

met up with the guys at NTU today and also saw a online fren for the first time.. he's in NTU comp engin too.. but oni today then finally we waved to each other in the LT. and strangely, today i saw lotsa pple from the past. mostly from my sec sch though.. and i saw at least 4 of these pple.. :)

Photogame:
1. Enter your first name only into Google.
2. Then click the "Images" tab.
3. Pick your favorites and post them


some of the nicest picts in the search results.. :)

decided to purchase the Casio Exilim z40! the special edition sky blue piece is so enticing!
very the chio yah? think hp wants to get the underwater casing for his diving purposes too..

finally made the move and sent off my application for the UOL degree. registration is pretty costly, i am definitely going to do well for this. no more slACking!!

this morning was spitting blood.. i have no idea why. after bout 4-5 soaked tissues, i was a little freaked out but still alive. perhaps a burst blood vessel in my throat? strange.

new layout! sick of my small fonts.. and one of my readers who was generally more mature complained he found it hard to read.. so .. decided to make full use of the space on iE.

last nite at dinner, i was about to order indian rojak cos the next table had a table with a big plate and it looked delicious. hp was like "HUH?" and proceeded to tell me some horror stories bout the stall. apparently, once, when he ate duck noodles just in front of the indian stall.. the stallholder came out to clear his pail. unfortunately, not just water flowed out of the pail. a family of >12 cockroaches, eggs, even albino roaches floated out. !!! the stallholder thumped the pail a few more times and 4/5 more roaches fell out. EWWWW!

learning how to use Fireworks. will try to do some chio design out when i finally master it.

one of the rare days i managed to wake up on time despite sleeping super late last nite.. i really am growing up .. hiakz..

one of life's little realisations: the satisfaction of teaching doesn't lie in the kids getting good results; it actually lies on payday! when i got my pay today, was feeling super generous so i stayed extra time to explain some more questions.. losing alot of my patience with kids. why do they not see the tricks/shortcuts in maths? it was so clear to me even though i haven't touch all these stuff in years. have their school teachers not been teaching them properly? NIE seems to be training teachers who can't teach. If your students have to have tuition on what you've taught them, you can't be teaching them properly. what are we paying taxes for these lousy teachers for?

sorta decided to become vegetarian, meat to me seems suddenly very disgusting.. must be a phase.. but i purposefully only bought honeydew to eat despite feeling ravenous in front of an Old chang Kee stall. went home and tot could continue the vegetarian food thing but turns out mom was off work today and had cooked pig's stomach soup and my dad had prepared cockles and fried beehoon. now.. parents take so much trouble to prepare our meals.. we can't possibly just not eat rite? kinda rude.. so had to shelve the vege plans for tomorrow. :P

found a hate blog. she claims i'm not too gd looking and she can make it as model.. u guys wanna judge for urselves?

http://peervealiaz.blogspot.com/2004/06/blogger-siao.html

according to her, my blog sux becos "all she is blogging about are her bf, her cfa and her very mundane life". and she keeps on reading. poor fool. her life must be more mundane than mine to have to keep reading my blog even though she thinks it sux.

and once more, the poor girl says that "Pple wld care about your life if you are moderately pretty. Sad to say-- Boo here is not pretty, at least not sneeze-ohh-poor-thing-pretty-babe. " and she goes on to say that "You write about every snippet of your life-- Do we care TT much? No." but yet she reads on. Sheesh. some pple just can't make up their mind. if she still reads it, even bothering to analyse, she must really have no life. and contradicting herself.

Really... i'm not out to be the best blog or wat shit.. there are pple who enjoy my blog and there are pple who dun. if u dun wanna noe bout my mundane life, then dun read anymore and torture urself. pathetic sia.. if u're just saying looks make the blog, then i'm sorry to say that your blog is totally sucky. (in case u're dense, i'm saying u're UGLIER than me.) at least my i looks gd in my picts. ur picts.. i won't bother to comment.

P.S. this bitchy girl used to be in my neighbouring class in hwachong. thanks for the publicity anyway. think u're the type who relates to xiaxue. (ugly but thinks u're chio, and likes to read bitchy blogs..)

actualli the other site she condemned is damn funny (www.stephychua.blogspot.com) similar to husamalia's den..

bought my very first cap today. check it out!

my new adidas cap

nice? heh.. not really my very first, the first ever was bought at Hard Rock in Beijing but totally uncool so i didn't wear it anywhere.. Kuishinbo buffet change le!! dun go there anymore, its not worth it.. me and wei ate until we almost died and then we went to tk a sloooow walk in suntec. she wanted to go to royal sporting house so i went in and tried on the caps for fun.. turns out this one looked really good and i've been looking for a cap so decided to buy it at sale price.. :) so happy..

after that we split up cos i was supposed to pass a cd to a fren.. tot that person told me he working ar cineleisure this weekend.. i reached there to find no roadshow. a little puzzled, sms-ed the person oni to realise he was working at causeway point!! argh!! wasted my bus fare, decided to spend some alone time at kino instead.. saw the new shopaholic book, but it was kinda ex so cheapskate me decided to visit the library instead.. turns out all the copies the library had was on loan or reserved. damn. in the end borrowed "The tessaract" by Alex Garland (author of the beach starring leo dicaprio..), science of harry potter and 2 books on photoshop & fireworks. determined to learn something in my zobo days.

time to do my jap hw.. some girl at the last lesson told me the answers were all at the back of the text book. -_-! but i won't be looking. :P

jap class was so fun last nite. cos i knew pple le, it wasn't so awkward, we could help each other out and make jokes and chit chat.. once again.. as they went thru the food vocab.. i was drooling.. lack of dinner and i could actually hear my stomach growling.

*RUMMBLEEE*

anyway.. after that met hp and we had dinner near his place n we decided to watch Big fish at his place. the movie was kinda long though. we managed only to watch half the show until 1am and no choice, he had to send me back home. (its still his workday today *sobz*)..

went home and was feeling awake, so i read finished my only shopaholics book "Shopaholics ties the knot" by  sophie kinsella. it was gd! or maybe i'm just at the stage where everything weddingy brings up emotions in me that i can't explain. hiakz. the book's been lying ard the house awhile and i finally mustered enuff strength to lift it up and start. couldn't stop after that. haha.. think i'll get the books after that one to read too.. :)

off to eat kuishinbo with my sis le.. craving for all things (food ) jap after class everyweek.. :P

bloggin on a friday afternoon.. can see how bored i am bah.. decided to apply for UOL external study program since i'm zoboing now .. can fund it myself with my current income aniway..

abit peeved bout some pple on public transport. the nite b4, this chinaman sat beside me. he kept whistling... and singing.. while he read his book. it was especially irritating because it was late at night and i was trying to rest. after awhile, he started to dig his ears and flick it around to see where it can land. i think something landed on me cos i felt it and was super disgusted. flinched visibly and he just carried on. disgusting dude. these are the kind of foreign talent that the country is trying to attract? sheesh..

thinking of going out but nowhere to go.. not really sure where i wan to go oso.. just wan to go out of the house.. :S

finally home sweet home. had my jc class chalet for the past 2 days.. hmm.. tues nite til thurs morning..

tuesday was a busy day..
2 tuition sessions, b4 i finally could go to the chalet at 9.30pm. the long ride on the mrt was torturous. cck all the way to pasir ris without any reading material or music to listen to. luckily, met up with hp halfway at raffles place, and we walked the deserted stretch of road to downtown east together having missed the last bus. (the last bus to the resort ended at 1opm.) ... it was ok to walk actually, the bus from the interchange is only one stop away from the resort; we reached there in 10 min. a little awkward initially, then i intro-ed hp to the guys at the pit, they made small talk, but mostly left me and hp alone. think he felt quite weird, so after we finished eating and cleared up, he told me to join the class while he took a walk ard the resort.

took a bath and the guys decided to play Indian Poker in view of the large amts of alcohol available. very the suay, kena a round where they had filled the cup with an insane amount of vodka. kinda embarrassing, i was knocked out by the ONE cup i drank. :S maybe cause i took quite a while to finish it, by the time i finished it i was already feeling warm and my face was having red patches. :( UGLY. hp had come back too and i decided i was too sleepy and pukish to drink anymore. they made hp tuck me into bed in the other room and i think i just blacked out until bout 7.30 am the next morning. argh.

wednesday.
i woke up super early, with a slight hangover. and a craving for some ice cream. weird. it was pouring outside and i tot of my new sandals getting soaked. :( no one else seemed to be stirring from their sleep yet so decided to just get out of the room and take a walk. saw a big Cheers outlet and walked in to get a cornetto and a pkt of milk. bought the papers as well which turned out to be a wise move. went back to the chalet and no one was awake yet still. haiz. but then they only slept at 5am... so .. heh.. anyway, after finishing off my food, JY woke up beside me and started chattering to PS who was oso half awake. they laughed super loudly, managing to wake everyone up. hehe..

after brunch at one of the pasir ris hawker centres, came back to get ready for wild wild wet. we had 10 tix free, so none of us had to pay. which was good. cos the place is freaking overpriced!! $12.50. and it was actually exactly like jurong swimming complex. except for some stupid computerised locker system that actually hung and we were stuck outside waiting for our things for like 15-20 min. tried out all the rides, it was quite fun (cos it was free) overall, esp since i hadn't been to any place fun with hp for a long time. had to leave at 5 though and hp went home too, went all the way back to bukit batok for tuition (slept through the whole train journey) and then after that i managed to catch the last train back to pasir ris. i almost died of boredom again on the ride. i couldn't sleep cos there were 2 weirdos beside me. they kept digging their ears & flicking the dirt ard (YUCK) and they kept shifting in their seats, sometimes pushing their bags into me, which forced me to shift ard as well. IRRITATING!

reached pasir ris at 11.30pm? and had to walk the way to the resort myself cos none of the guys were kind enuff to walk me in. IDIOTs. deserted stretch of road, was a little jittery. we played some mathematical drinking game that fried my brain and i lost a few times.. :( had to sleep early again, but this time voluntarily. was so tired. some one was snoring really loudly that nite. hmm. woke up when some one on-ed the tv in the morning.

back home now. zzz

 

finally met up with stanley today.. ironically, tot of going JB this morning and could only think of him being the other JB enthusiast.. then he jio-ed his campmate guosen so basicalli, it was an outing of 2 frens and a strange girl.. haha.. went in bout 3 plus.. big contrast at the checkpoints as compared to weekends.. no queues etc, we went in, had lunch, then i went to pluck my eyebrows, and then we all bought ciggies for frens b4 eating dinner at taman sentosa.. had crayfish, stingray, chee cheong fun, dou miao, and some other stuff i can't rem. altogether i oni spent bout 30RM! hehe.. super cheap over there.. so happy!

tuition day today.. hafta to rush off for tuition again.. 3rd session today, nv been so pia. forced myself to wake up today just b4 10.. luckily my dad came back in time to ferry me there.. then after that lonely curry lunch at JP b4 being late 4 the next tuition.. now i noe u can't get from boon lay to bukit panjang in half hour. haiz. then after that came home for a short rest.. now hafta go out again. can't wait for the day to end..

Shopping spree today!! heh.. so happy cos i haven't bought myself anything nice in a really long time..
 
had tuition this morning (i could barely wake up for it again..) but i had to go cos it was payday.. haha.. turns out the girl was sick (maybe from smoking too much.. not that i'm being judgemental, but she's ONLY SEC 3!!!) and in the end her bro could only be back from sch much later so i decided to give him tuition tomorrow evening instead of the long 5 hours today. in the end, i just went thru bio with her and then left.. went home to take a bath & found $50 in cheque waiting for me from some long ago tuition session finally mailed to me. WOOHOO! .. haha.. suddenly $200 richer..
 
went to simlim with frens to get their IT needs.. (an optical mouse & an ink cartridge.. ) was tempted to change my keyboard but decided against it. (CANNOT WASTE MONEY!!! ) anyway, was supposed to get my sandals today, can't spend the extra money on IT stuff i didn't need. although the 17" LCD monitors looked super tempting... argh...
 
finally finished with sim lim and we went to BJ for lunch.. (bugis junction of cos.. wat else can BJ stand for? hmmm.. ) was so craving for jap food after last nite's lesson i forced everyone to eat at Domi kitchen.. ate curry rice.. realli filling and only cost $5.80.. after that bought 2 new tops at 77th street.. yah, i'm a little old to shop there but found 2 really nice tops that fit me without being skimpy or too short.. hate to reveal my tummy nowadays since its really gross looking..
 
after that went to taka to buy my sandals from Nike cos thats the only place i saw it. turns out they only have size 5 left!! :( was quite sad.. then decided to go take a look at royal sporting house.. they had only size 6 but it could fit (tightly) and i wasn't going to buy the ugly blue pair which had a size larger.. they look like this, just that my pair's orange..
 
had dinner later on at bukit timah market.. managed to reach home b4 8pm.. dead beat.. but feeling super contented.. :P
 

realli excited that my jap class going to begin tonite.. but a little scared that i won't be able to catch up..
 
been crying the whole nite. this morning when i talked to him online, i started crying again. I'm just so sorry about everything. i should be happy for him but i just can't let go. very selfish of me.. but i really can't help it.
 
wanted to go jogging today with my sis but it was raining intermittently. totally reflective of my mood. on-off-on-off just like a tap. just that i can't control when to let the tears flow or stop. it was pretty embarrassing at tuition last nite when i was reading the chinese idiom tong2 gan1 gong4 ku3 (to go thru hardships together?) & tears welled up in my eyes. luckily the kid didn't see and i was able to pretend that all my sniffing was due to flu.
 
trying to read my depression away. my sis is watching frens everyday now.. am supposed to go help out at my dad's office but my sis dun seem to wan to go.. feel abit guilty esp since he didn't make me pay for the repairs for the car after the accident. after that, i also didn't dare to ask for the use of the car anymore. guess its time to start saving up for my own vehicle..
 
missing school and miss seeing my frens. i've been out of school for almost 8 months, and still haven't found something i wan to do. a little depressing, but then i haven't been looking around very hard either. surviving on my tuition pay for now, but i realise I enjoy my freedom too much to wan to have a 9-5 job. although i'm a little tired of not having my brains exercised.  reading a book "Darwin's Black Box" by Michael J. Behe now.. hp lent it to me, its bout biochemistry and some of the complexities of it explained. quite interesting, but the subject matter doesn't really captivate me.. will review more on it after i actually manage to get past page 20.
 

found out my ex getting attached. so fast. and i noe the girl. dunno why. it made me cry alot. he said i hurt him alot. by telling him that i wanted to be with hp when he finalli made up his mind bout me. was i supposed to know that? i had been on hold for so long. as Rachel from frens put it: "i didn't break up with you becos i stopped loving you, i broke up with you becos i was angry." i was angry i nv was able to be wat he wanted. i was angry that i had already changed so much for him but he didn't realise i wanted some security. haiz. its too late, i guess i've done him too much wrong and hurt to deserve him anymore.

i'm sorry for all the hurt. and i hope u'll be happy with her. but i hope i'll still be some one special in your heart.

went for hp's convocation today.. yay! we both graduated le.. the ceremony was boring 2 hours.. esp since hp was right at the beginning.. was having a flu so the whole ceremony seemed even longer.. picture taking after wards.. not that fun cos after i took some shots with him, he took my cam and ran off with it, leaving me to accompany his dad.. a little awkward, but was still ok cos he toked alot..


took this ourselves ..


and his dad took one for us..

recruit strategy finally paid me my money for the dBS roadshow. FINALLY! after six long months. BUT.. the company proved to be incompetent once again by sending me my cheque with the wrong name written on it. I was super pissed off. don't get a job from that co..!!!

horrible habits i keep nowadays.. staying up late and waking up even later.. today managed to get my letters in order.. tomolo just have to mail them.. hope i get at least a job.. sad case man.. uni grad can't find job.. :(

did anyone noe that today was International Twins Day? it was celebrated in Britain. saw it on the news..

so sleepy. spent the morning tidying up my table (not veri successfully), writing up cover letters and resumes to be sent out (ok i did bout 5 or 6)..

i'm currently reading Notes from an even Smaller Island by Neil Humphreys. heh.. he cracks me up.. i think british humour's great. wit and alot of sarcasm.. but his latest one was funnier cos this first (or is it second?) book incorporates quite alot of explanations on Singapore's history (political and social) to explain certain unique singaporean social phenomenons to his readers whom he probably believed included expatriates. helpful information for the ignorant i suppose. :)

anyway.. was so desperate for passport-sized photos i printed my own. i look like crap now anyway with the late nitez, would be difficult to get a gd picture that won't scare the HR dept to death.

just came home from a mahjong session. damn suay. lost $20++. :( dead beat. the day was realli gd though :) shall blog bout it when i wake up..

I've graduated!! updated my photo album.. do check it out here!

pretty excited at first.. nolstagic feelings welled up when they showed a video of Soc (school of computing) .. ahh.. the memories.. haiz. aniway it was quite ok.. no speeches by boring and long-winded professors.. so it was quite ok.. almost tripped on stage, pretty embarrassing but typical of bbg, and took photos with some frens but mostly family after the whole thing. quite disappointed that hp couldn't be there, but his thing was more impt..

slept til 1 plus. the nice rainy weather was gd to sleep in and today i got finally another tuition pay. had dinner at bukit timah market. think i'm falling ill, feeling cold everywhere. and giddy. tomolo's finally commencement. and singtel has agreed to waive my GPRS charges. yay!

today was an eye-opener. and i'm glad, i got back my appetite. (which is still enormous, by the way) and my energy level too. phew. so i wasn't going to die. heart feels lightened considerably, at least one of my problems has been solved.

oh yah, spiderman 2 is a must watch.. although tobey mcguire is a little too old (esp in the close-up shots of his face and pores) nevertheless, the spidey suit does a good job of covering his face up and the action scenes were soooo exciting!! heart stopped when he fell etc, and when otto octavius were killing the hospital personnel, pratically the whole cinema was screaming along with the victims. argh.. his fren harry osborn is really tasty looking though :P dun save your money le.. remember to catch the movie!

watched spidey today. WOOHOO! so exciting i almost forgot to breathe.. but as i was super sleepy.. missed some of the finer points bah.. have to sleep early tonite, blog again tomolo..

GREECE is the best!! WOOO!!!
only watched the match after the first goal and i'm truly amazed at their defence. 11 pple guarding the goal posts, its no wonder no one could score against them. and when they had the chance for a corner, they made full use of it to get ahead. whereas when the portughese had the rare chance to beat the keeper one-to-one, they were too flustered to kick properly and all their shots went high or wide. sighz. so many wasted chances at the goals. i wonder if anyone watches the COPA American thingey..


one of the highlights of an otherwise boring game, the mad bugger in t-shirt and jeans came onto the field at the 83rd min and ran around b4 jumping into the net of a goal mouth with scores of security personnel pinning him down


true greek heroes of the modern times

suay day. had a traffic accident. :( hit some car's butt and had to spend like an hour later sorting it out at IDac. he barely had a scratch but my car's front was so badly dented. damn it.














the wedding pictures from the bridal show.. pretty cool most of them.. but i like the one with the translucent tops best..




the makeover me who looks a little witchy.. :S

today had a great feast for lunch.. went to her world's bridal show at Grand Hyatt and the buffet lunch was wonderful. the lack of my appetite was forgotten in the abundance of all my favourite food like cold jellyfish, shark's fin and abalone. woohoo... it was a stand-up buffet, and the hotel had prepared most of their banquet food for us potential wedding banquet customers to test. i had like a lot of jelly fish and 3 bowls of shark's fin soup. ahh.. can still remember the taste of it. of course there were other food like sushi, abalone + mushroom, dim sum, etc etc. u get the idea. sumptious.

shall be posting up picts of the fashion show tomolo since my cam is out of batt to upload but they were quite amazing. of cos it helped that the models were tall and pretty.. then after that there was a lucky draw.. ultimately unlucky for us i must say, cos the couples on both sides of us won something. but not us. :S after that, there was an amazing dessert buffet by the hotel again.. woo.. all sorts of delights, brownies, tiramisu, chocolate fondue, cheese cake.. etc etc.. ahh..

show finally ended at 5 where i got a free paraffin hand wax treatment and makeover. looks nice but a little heavy for day wear.. will show picts tomolo again. heh..

total lack of appetite today and i only ate like one meal in the late afternoon (without finishing it) and then super late dinner (at 11pm?) at fong seng (without finishing my food again) .. shucks.. i dunno wat's wrong with me.. i only realised my headache was caused by my hunger when the throbbing stopped after i ate dinner. hmm.. strange way of my body telling me that i'm hungry.

on to Euro2004.. I'm so happy Greece won!! heh.. was secretly hoping for an upset to take the czechs off their high horse..


the cool alien referee who was part of the upset ..


the greek heroes

tough choice btw portugal and greece in the finals.. coincidentally, the 2 teams who played the opening matches will now play the closing final as well..

portugal won!! sorry for holland though, i was pretty much thinking they would win..


we always knew cristiano ronaldo was a showoff..


the back breaking antics of the holland goalkeeper was not enuff to save the game..


van nistelrooy trying to kiss another man again..
"i always knew u were my man, my dear christy.."


all the coaches of portugal ready to boogie in celebration..

hiakz. going to watch the replay tonite :)