1114: i dun want to say good bye!!!

3 beautiful girls gathered to say good bye last nite.



koshimura-san, okabe-san and me.

we are all part of the Ｒ＆Ｄ cost management team. koshimura-san is my colleague, okabe-san is my senior who passed on her knowledge b4 leaving to another dept, and me is the one leaving.

booooohoooooooo!!! (T.T)

and the leader of us 3 is :



Hanaoka-san, my very very very concerned and helpful sup/manager who is the nicest boss in the world. haha. in btw is kosono-san, a member of r&D admin.



the boss of ALL of us is Yamashita-san, the rightmost guy. he's the overall head of R&D in the company o.O .. yes powerful, sensible, very very cool and quiet and strict guy. but not evil. hehehehe.

and the last other members of the r&D side, admin, HR, leases etc,


haiz. this is sooooo sad.
we had korean food, yesterday i surfed the net to read blogs in the office, found many people i had lost contact with b4. hoho.

oh back to the party. my boss is very very chatty when he's drunk. and after the dinner we went for more drinks at a 居酒屋 across the street. full of young punks, some very cute. but it was fun. ^-^

haiz. i will miss these people so much.

1113: guess what?

guess what? the person i had thought who was waiting had stopped waiting.

and he deleted his blog because i said "i guess this means you are not waiting anymore". am i right to feel a little mad? i guess i'm mad that he had not bothered to tell me he got attached. so that i wouldn't even bother to check in on how he's doing anymore. you want me to be out of your life then so be it. sad? a little i guess. his words always come into my mind during bad times here and i'll be pushing them to the back of my head, determined to prove him wrong. yes i do regret hurting him, but if it made him stronger (like now) why not? i guess i always was just waiting for another letdown. as it had always been.

oh well. i guess its just karma then. if people are afraid of secrets being revealed in their blogs, why do they bother to write?

on to other things.

today 3 issues of TV Guides came out with kimura Takuya on the front cover! woooohooOO!! bonanza for the fans, and they are doing a special remake or update of the drama series Hero. yay!!! and i also read that this year's SMAP concert will be held from 30th July onwards. (-.-) jaclyn!!! if you see this and u balloted for tickets, please count me in!!!!! Please please please!!! argh, why now!!

finally began work on the scrap book last night. yah, i know, its kinda late, and i plan to give him this weekend. -.- but tomorrow i have a holiday and i think the hardest part is picking the photos to print out from this whole year. should i print photos of me, photos of him, photos of us or photos of scenery?? and i realised they have this function where u can print 2 photos on 1 piece of L-sized photo paper so that each photo becomes the size of a credit card. hoho. with a border somemore, totally fits my idea of getting the photo to look like a polaroid. hoho^^

i dunno wats wrong with me but my left side of the jaw been hurting since friday. it hurts so bad i can only open my mouth at most 4cm wide and its not the teeth its the bone area. its even affecting the area near my ear. such that there is throbbing pain when my mouth is closed. anyone knows what's going on? i tot it might be wisdom teeth but no pain in my gums or wat, its the bone area that hurts. i better go see a doc..

1112: i m back from tokyo people!

i love tokyo!!!

everytime i go, i come back with the same feeling.
i.e,

I LOVE TOKYO!!

for the clueless.. i went to tokyo last weekend. Ryo had bizness trip on monday so he asked me to go with him on sat to have dinner with his frens and cousin over the weekend. it was pretty fun (compared to the last time when i went alone)

i was the one planning the whole program so it was once again... tiring. spent the whole friday printing out schedules, maps, getting tickets.. planning train routes.

on saturday morning... set out at 6.30am.. for a 8.25am flight. o.O napped on the plane and reached there at bout 9.30am and we headed straight to Yasukuni shrine. i wanted to see wat the fuss was about, after the press had blown up the matter so big that it affected international relations but to me, i only saw a normal shrine. there was a exhibition hall with a re-built kamikaze planes.

some pics of the place:



the entrance of the shrine. the place already looks huge from here.



the name of Yasukuni in japanese kanji



the front "garden"? we had to walk this long stretch b4 reaching the shrine's prayer quarters



there was a statue of the minister of war, Omura for the Meiji restoration period.



the main altar



and the planes used in WWII

after the Yasukuni visit, we went to Tokyo Dome area for lunch.



its been 3 years since i've been there and the place still looks as majestic.. and the roller coaster still looks as scary as ever.



That's about it for the first day, after that we went to hmm... FCUK sale at Omotesando! 40% off everything.. was so happy ^^ and after an hour plus of browsing, people watching at the harajuku area, we went to his friend's place in Chiba. he had a great apartment near the sea. argh.

hmm the next day... we had great plans of going Asakusa, odaiba etc. but we woke up too late.. we had breakfast at Starbucks :


my strawberry & cream frappucino & his caffe latte. ^^

we headed down to Ginza after that and it was pedestrian heaven day!!



Roadblocks were set up on the main shopping streets for people to walk about freely and cars to not pass through and it was great!! even the dogs were having their own dog heaven..



and we went to a maid cafe in the evening. french maid uniforms and the waitresses called u "master..." hehe.. unfortunately no photographing were allowed inside..



if you want to go.. u can use this pamphlet to help u :p



i guess the pic gives u a pretty good idea of wat the girls are dressed in. most people went in for the novelty, but some were real perverts. the way they looked at the girls. it was disgusting lor. -.- but yah.. not a good place for a date, good place for a guys' outing.. ^-^

3rd day, went for farewell lunch at shinjuku with my colleagues in the tokyo office. 54F, Mitsui building, Heichin-lou and its a chinese restaurant..



this lady organised the lunch. ^-^

unfortunately, the group shot was badly taken (T.T)



as u can see.. it is too dark. argh

after that. headed to Ghibli Museum.. I think u all know about Ghibli studios? the studios that came up with Howl's Moving Castle.



there was a Ghibli bus to take us to the museum. it was yet another place where photography was not allowed. (T.T)

and thats pretty much the end of the trip.

and my souvenirs! i bought a set of soft toys for him and me..

presenting Gaspard and Lisa :

&


he's supposed to keep Lisa (to remember me) and me to keep Gaspard and when we reunite, the little dogs will be united again. awwwwww....

1111: & the dreams end

I woke up at 5.00am today to catch the 2nd half of Japan vs brazil. the first time in world cup history the 2 teams had clashed. (usually becos japan didnt manage to make it to the later rounds to had the chance to get to meet them -.-) but at the half-time mark, it was 1-1. it was a draw and they still had a chance. unfortunately, i had to watch them concede another 3 goals in that half and when the 2nd goal went in by Gilberto (i think>?) u could see the hopes dashed in their faces. there was little chance of bouncing back unless they could score 2 goals in the next 20 min and there was little confidence. did we say ronaldo was fat? i guess his last goal is a smack back at our faces for saying that. (T.T) well, at least the Japan team was the only team in the group to have scored a goal against the Brazilians. despite finishing last of the group (Australia drew with Croatia), this match was a good effort. their goal was much above expectations and watching the replay, i couldn't help but feel proud. the scorer was the youngest player in the Japan team, and this was his first world cup. perhaps we can hope for greater things to come from him.his goal probably gave them the motivation to even try to beat the world champions, for the Japanese fans to see the glimmer of hope that they could maybe, just maybe get to the next round with any miracle.

well. that'S that. i guess. good attempt to hold out at the end, but the first mistake to the australia already fixed the outcome of the group matches for the japanese. haiz. train hard and we'll see you in South Africa, 2010.

1110: zonked

u know we always use the word zonked?

i didn't know it means:
1 under the influence of illegal drugs
2 extremely tired or completely asleep.

ok i knew the 2nd meaning but didn't know about the drugs one. abit bo.. just for ur info only. hah.

okie these 2 days have been bad. bets all down the drain. cos all the teams, those at the top, kept getting a draw!! -.- damn off.. not much money left le, hs oso lose until his base is almost depleted liaoz. (and he was up to 100,000 yen at one point lor. ). haiz. think i better rest these 2 days. its been a not so good week.

i was thinking along the way home yesterday, that its been a while since i had really mind-blowing sex. and of cos my sex drive has gone down drastically too. because i been feeling unhappy? because i had became indifferent? its just not on my mind much nowadays, even when he is over for the weekend, i would rather just sleep when night comes around and i get sleepy quite early nowadays. i don't know if it applies to guys too, but i guess for a girl, mental health is a major factor of their sex drive. guys complain that after marriage, after the kids come, they get alot less. but did they think to help reduce the stress the mommies feel? if the women had less things to worry about, had the xian2 qing2 余裕 (yo-yu), the extra time to relax, they would probably to perform better and want their guys more too. i guess on a certain level, we blame all guys for causing our stress. for making us worry about them, whether they are happy with you, with us, with anything. the stress to take care of them and the kids well and yet, these idiots take us for granted and think we are just there when they have both bad and good days while when we need them, they are nowhere around. do they realise we need them as much as they need us and it takes 2 hands to clap, to make this work? whats the use of physical gifts when emotionally we are just still depressed and insecure?

oops. i see that the topic has digressed from sex -> emotions.

in case, you haven't noticed, i've added the Google calendar right at bottom of this page. (^-^) can check out my appts there if u are bored (or if u are interested)

1109: Mexican Food

guess wat.

quarrel again. 喧嘩 it is called. prounounced as "ken-ka". he still can't decide. selfish ass. am i suppose to leave everything in limbo for him? last night was one of the rare times that i was wholeheartedly thinking i hate this guy, hate him for doing this to me, for lying to me, for making empty promises, for making me wait, for taking me for granted and for making me become this weakling.

I HATE YOU.

yah i had that i love you post but that was in case i died. since now i am confirmed alive and things do change everyday, i take that back. I HATE YOU.

ok. i want to write about the farewell dinner last night but i am still feeling very unhappy from the above section. lemme try to blog bout happier things.

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i cant think of anything happy. the quarrel lasted until 4am+ which sucked and i couldn't wake up this morning. i hate work. so my head is still achy and my eyes are barely open and here i am, looking for a listening ear.

OK. the dinner.

we had dinner at this mexican place Chico's & Charlie's last night. it has a branch in Sg too apparently. my first farewell party. even though this was with people i barely spoke to at work. it was also with people not from Japan. the US localising people, the marketing side a guy from London, and a girl from US but was born in Taiwan. haha. so we all happily spoke english, chatted n it was pretty cool. first time i had mexican food. real ones, not just at taco bell or nachos at the cinema. hah.

yupz. it was delicious.

so here are the photos.
most of these people you would not have seen b4.



the localising guys (from US) and seon (the darker one) from London



peiling and the taiwan lady, the other girl grew up in Germany until her uni days in japan.



me and ben here, he's frowning in all the pictures and acting cooL -.-



oh, except in this picture. hmm. i think this is the first shot i've shown with me wearing the specs i bought in Japan. i look kinda weird don't you think? and Jiun lih jumped into the picture here. -.-

and lastly, to disgust u, here are my leftovers.



i am still in a horrible mood, by the way.

1108: Japan vs Croatia

i can say truly that the players (except the goalkeeper) where the Japanese players gave nearly 100% of their effort. and it was just to not concede any goals. yesterday's game of Japan Vs Croatia, it was very one-sided. poor japan was defending like 70% of the time and it was heartstopping everytime when the ball neared the Japan side goal. the commentators didn't help either. they were super dramatic and kancheong. but then of cos, this was their home country, it was all the more heartstopping due to the fumbling of the goalkeeper. he seemed to be having butterfingers. he was supposed to collect a goal from his defenders after an out and he missed the catch and the ball rolled past him. shocked to say the least, and the ball continued to roll towards the goal while everyone watched in disbelief. Thank god, the ball's path was just wide of the goal post and went out for a corner to the Croatians. -.-

1107: KTV queen

well. friday was a day spent pining for the weekend to come. had nothing on friday nite just packing up my room. to a more decent state for the caretakers to check on saturday morning. dumped many magazines, many bottles, packed up many souvenirs and i have like 3 Huge cartons of stuff liao the room finally looks spacious and manageable but i think it looks like i haven't really packed up much yet..

so friday nite. i packed till 1 am, made a bit of money from the Argentina 6-0 match. heh. but -.- the next match.. next next i think. mexico. haiz....

yesterday Ryo came back from his bizness trip and we were looking around for new phones and his fren suddenly messaged him to show up at the dinner with some games. and we were like thinking "huh? dinner not tomorrow meh?" turns out we had both remembered wrongly. and suayly, it was raining torrents yesterday, and his car was out of order so we had to rush back to my room to get my food presents and we braved the rain and took the train to their place.

dinner was fun as always, the kids wrote me a farewell letter. (T.T)so sweet! they said don't forget about them and come back to Japan soon. awwwww.... and it begins. argh. and they took a full photo with me and everyone and went off to develop it so that they could give it to me in a frame on the spot. haiz. very touched. i will definitely miss them. they talked bout having a hong kong trip in august and if i could make it, i should join them from singapore. i would, and i want to! then we had DS mario kart with everyone struggling to get 1st place (i am of cos the champion wahhaha! ) (^-^)v

and they drove us back but talk of going to the KTV came up and we really went. until 4am. dead beat but it was very fun. haha. they sang alot of kids' songs cos got babies there hehe.. and the atmosphere was good lor. and they acted damn funny for people who's over 30. hehe. yah

then today.. woke up at 10.30am . can't believe it. heh. then we confirmed our 4-day trip to 九州 today. booked it, rental car and plane ticket packages and i guess its our last trip together in japan until dunno when liao.

argh.

1106: ECuador surprise

this is so weird. ecuador has surprised all by winning this match as well. but costa rica has been playing like shit. like SHIT!

ok i am in a bad mood still. just had a big cry over the phone again. i hope he is feeling guilty enuff. my eyebags have doubled in size because of these 2 days. (T.T)

but . i think we've talked things through with him probably going to provide some help on the big plan we are trying to get to happen. i hope things manage to at least go somewhere. thanks thanks thanks to my very very very great sup who has been trying to help me make things happen. he has officially become my most respected boss ever in my heart. ^-^

but. one step at a time. one problem a day to be cleared. time is ticking away. i'm so not ready to leave yet.

1105: wriggling out of the hole

did he wriggle out? he squirmed out.

he told me he had work when he had promised to watch the opening match with me so i had waited. and waited. and when i called he said he was at work. and turns out that he had actually left early that day and had drinking until late with his colleagues and had turned up at 2-3 am when the match was already over. he had lied to me he had work and i had believed him. how stupid was i. i couldn't stop crying and i just cried and cried and cried. luckily there was yaohui online and he tried to console me. a good fren. (T.T) and i thought of how i had waited stupidly alone in my room, while the other trainees had invited me to join them for the match and he had said he dun wan to watch with them so i had waited alone in my room for him. and yet he didn't show up. a jerk or wat?

1104: trust issues

he thinks i am stupid and will never find out when he lies but i always do. eyes and ears every where for me, even by accident i find out stuff when i dont check his phone. when i think i can trust him again, something always force me to feel otherwise. i would love to see how he wriggles out of it this time.

1103: its over

i absolutely detest the guy in charge of our project. luckily i have managed to get the assistance of my wonderful boss. who is the most wonderful person in the whole wide world to me right now. MUAKZ!!!!!!

1102: commercial break!

apologise for the fact that all i been blogging about has been the world cup lately.. but because i been putting down bets with my fren, hence thats on my mind 24-7.

okok.. enuff with the world cup stuff. what has happened to me for the past few days?

after i came back from singapore, my cold was still on-going and i just couldn't seem to get enough rest despite sleeping at about 12midnight everyday? i just woke up feeling dead tired, and went to work like a zombie and on the way home from work at about 6.30pm, i would be already yawning like mad. why huh?

over the weekend, had uncountable disagreements with Ryo. first was regarding holiday plans. he had said last time that he would be ok this month after the Shareholders' meeting to go on trips with me. and expectedly, he bailed on me regarding that when i asked him if he could take a few day's leave at the end of this month and said it would be difficult. PUI! if cannot go should have said earlier, i won't waste time doing research liao mah. so i got angry and said if cannot go then we don't go anywhere liao la.

next argument not long after that. he been nua-ing around the whole day just watching tv and because i was mad at him about the travel thing, i walked around packing his stuff. so that he could remove them and bring them home. was thinking how do i noe wat to pack and wat to leave with him when i don't even know his plans. asked him to plan out at least wats going to happen for the next half year, he took like eons to think. and he looked like he was falling asleep lor. wah lau! everytime talking about important stuff he fall asleep on me, how to not get angry!? after ages of silence and me getting increasingly pissed off every minute, he finally wrote down his plans. which was very vague and did not tell me anything. i got fed up, told him no need to think liao, since this matter seemed so trivial to him, i'll just pack up everything and go home and not come back again!! then he just agreed, and i was like (T.T) he dun care if i leave and never come back! boohooo!! got so mad after that i ignored him until evening time. grrrr...

then on sunday, he broke his promise about something important again. haiz. sad. all he seems to be is a bunch of disappointments. even though i already expected the disappointments after his track record so far, the disappointments still sting nevertheless. haiz. got mad, cold war, and i said to just be normal frens when we go back unless he can be more concrete. my life is not a waiting game!! waiting for people my whole life is not what i want to do. i wan my life to go as my plans!!

argh. so we had cold war, like 2 strangers we went out, feel so weird. me teary, him bochup, so awkward. think the restaurant person must be wondering why we silent the whole meal. things became better when we went to yodobashi and was looking at games. -.- i guess having someone who gets excited about games as much as u is very important in my relationship. except it would be better when the person dun make me angry all the time. haiz. after that, he himself suggested looking at handphones. buying mic etc, so i guess its his way of saying he wanted to continue with things. -.- i just went along lor. sat at the cafe awhile playing games and later went back for dinner that i was supposed to cook.

things went well until after dinner. he said i was a 駄目な人 (da me na hito), something like CMI but in harsher tones. Something we were talking about because he was buying a $80 umbrella and i was saying its a waste of money and people might steal it lor. haiz. that hurt. ok lor. it was cold war again until the next day.

Monday, he didn't contact me until i msged him, i met him at the airport and i tried to talk to him on the bus but all i got was silence. ok lor. i already said sorry and u still chose to ignore me for things that u were in the wrong for? KNS. i was really losing my patience with this baffoon. so we had a silent dinner. u dont talk i also dont talk lor. in the end, he started asking small stuff, i gave short answers, and things became better. still cold. but better. haiz.

i dunno how things will turn out. this last month is damn stressful for me.

1101: The shocking comeback

it was a great shock for Japanese fans as the Australians scored 2 goals in the last 5 minutes to turn a draw into a win in the game last night. The many impressive saves goalkeeper Kawaguchi made throughout the game was undid by the last minute defence follies the team made at the end. the equaliser was allowed in when the normally clear-headed Kawaguchi came too far out from the goal to block a goal attempt which had left the centre of the goal wide with only a defender against the striker. the oncoming bombardment was unstoppable after that. (T.T)

it was so sad... i went home to see the game with Japan leading but had to see the horrible ending with 3 sudden goals. never mind, we will prevail in the next game against Croatia!!!

go Samurais go!!

1100: world cup 3rd day

its only the 3rd day of the world cup and i'm so tired. haha.. i didnt watch the 4am matches, not so crazy but even so, the 1am matches some i watched until halftime and gave up. i'm 18 yen up in the betting game. haha.. yah a trivial amount but its better than negative, no? and it's just for fun, so i guess it really doesnt matter much except i learn something new, about what are Asian Handicaps, coupons. etc. and how to properly keep count. hah. oh well.

next match Holland Vs Serbia. hopefully.. holland doesnt win. hahahaha!

1099: World Cup Party

we kicked off the start of the world cup with a Pre-match DS party. :p

armed with our DS, we met up in Hongsing's room and played matches of our own, bomberman, Tetris, Meteos and of cos Mario Kart. they are great Multiplayer games!! so fun!! and i proved to be a winner in Meteos (^-^)v . didn't do so well in mario Kart though, and surprisingly, me, the lousiest person in the world at bomberman, managed to win twice! woohoo! and tetris JL is gooood. hmmmm weird sia. but anihow, it was quite fun. Ryo who was supposed to at least come when the match starts, didnt turn up til the end. at nearly 3am?! -.- was quite mad at him for a while but i was too sleepy to stay mad. apparently there are some problems with his car. again. haiz.

today is england vs Paraguay. who will win?

1098: i wish...

i wish i could do this every morning..

1097: swamped until now

finally some breathing time.

actually work's just over but i'm waiting for my colleagues for dinner. having thai food, yay!

last nite, i met Ryo for dinner. yah while i was still mad. when i see him i just can't help but melt and even though i was really pissed off, i couldn't help but smile when i saw his goofy face smiling at me. -.- ARGH. and then after then i can't remember why i was angry le. (of cos, until i read my own blog again...)

we haven't been out together after work for so long that i can't remember when was the last time. so yesterday we had a cheap dinner, less than 1,000 yen each.. but damn filling and quite tasty. ate the korean tofu set meal at the place i brought liling/baoying to last time, and i gave him his presents i had brought back from sg. i love to see his face light up when he receives my gifts. this time i got him a ferragamo tie with little teddy bears. hehe. but it was alot cheaper to shop on the airplane actually, and after that we walked around looking for a shirt cos he was going to stay overnite at my place. then i was taking out the tie and putting it next to all the shirts to see if they matched and he was laughing away at my silliness. heheheh.. yah its a little silly, cos i was asking him with each shirt he picked up "does it match with the teddy bears?" wahahaha!

and he came to stay overnite, finally we could spend some quality time together after weeks, and i told him all about my singapore trip and showed him the photos of the wedding. he was amazed at our tea ceremony customs and that people got money for it. and after he saw the photos of xinhuan and kenneth giving tea and receiving angbaos, he told me to tell all our relatives to start saving up. and he asked me to invite all the distant relatives to our tea ceremony so that we can get some ez cash. ..... *pengz!* -.- this is the first time i've seen him so interested in any aspect of talking about a future wedding at all and it had to be liddat. grrrr.........

so this weekend, finally we can go out into the world again after months of being cooped up in the room on weekends. no studying no work no nothing. phew. no need to cook for him also. hah!

1096

swamped with work today.

but i am glad to say things are better liaoz. kissed and made up (out?) last nite. ;p

anyway... talk later. really busy now.

1095 : madness

i'm mad at him.

we had a fight over the phone last night. seriously. how is a girl supposed to be with someone she can't feel any security with? who's non-existent 90% of the time?

ok. let's forget about him .

on to happier things.

i can't think of any.

maybe the fact that World Cup will be beginning this friday nite? pretty excited about it since i have a channel that screens all the matches and no one to kpkb me for staying up late to watch finally. hoho.. anyway.. the first match Germany Vs Costa RIca will be kicking off at 1am Japan time, 12 midnite singapore time, so everyone, stay up and watch!!! ^-^

1094: woolly mind.

my brain feels like wool today.

i still have my flu and i have a headache and this is the first day i managed to sit through work feeling so giddy and a bit nauseaus. i was very tempted to just go back at lunch but i wanted to eat lunch with my fav team leader who was here today. and got myself invited to dinner during lunch. muahaha. which i should actually skip because i am feeling really woozy but i crave human company more than i care bout my health. (-.-)

but i havent seen ryo yet. he on bizness trip all the time. haiz. damn sian.

only 1 month left. i better start preparing to move my stuff back. i hope my wildest hope comes true though.

1093: i'm Alive!!

luckily my twitching eyelids proved to be a faux pas. heh. i dozed off in the plane after watching the ending of Forrest Gump at about 1am, with my face forward in the pillow which i had placed on the table. it was totally uncomfortable because the bugger in front had reclined his seat causing my head to be poking into the back of his seat. even so, i managed to catch about 4 hours of sleep, waking up at 5+am to see the sunrise from one of the windows. unfortunately, i was in a central aisle seat, so i couldn't take a pic.(T.T)

reached osaka at 7.20am, the customs area was empty and efficient, i managed to clear out of the place by 7.40am. with some luck, the limo bus was right there waiting and i got on to the bus almost immediately and was snoring away on the comfortable seat in no time at all. (=^-^=)

some highlights from the past week, i finally uploaded the photos:

the wedding:



the bride & me in the day



while she waited for her groom to rescue her..



and the kiss... awwwwww....

and in the evening:



me & mingjie at the dinner



all of us bridesmaids and groomsmen

not much time to take photos as i was doing the work .. :p

am suffering from flu still so i shall go sleep now..

1092: at the airport

blogging from Gate D32 at Changi Airport now. my flight is JL722.. feeling very woozy from the flu tablet still and my nose is beginning to run again. i want to sleep but the flight looks like there are quite a number people on it this time. damn.

had wanted to buy New Man for the world cup stuff inside but its sold out everywhere!! grrr. sianz. didn't feel like buying anything else so i just wandered around the shops. bought some cosmetics at the DFS areas, had wanted to buy some other things as well but apparently they had been discontinued. hmm. maybe i'll do shopping in the plane then.

hope the flight's smooth. my eyelids are twitching.. abit scared. hope its just me being paranoid.

1091: long distance relationships

i been speaking to ryo on the phone these couple of nights. via Singtel budgetcall 013 service. i only spoke to him about 10min per nite and guess wat, it costs about $25 all together. for 40 min of bliss. argh. i had tried to use skypeout to call, and the quality was so sucky (due to my laptop using wireless in the house i suppose) that we had to disconnect after 1 min cos no one could hear anyone. i could actually hear him saying "moshi moshi?" very clearly but i think he couldnt hear me at all. haiz. else it probably would have cost just a fraction of the IDD service.

i dun wan July to come. i dun wan a long dist relationship to start. i know it will be torturous, these week i have been missing him pretty much too, i dunno if i will die if i don't see him for a couple of months. i should be stronger, 2 years will pass by pretty quickly (just like these past 2 years have past by) but i am really scared that i will lose to loneliness. we must learn from Aki in Pride, we cannot lose to ourselves, we must be strong, we must be women from the past. "furuki jitai no onna" 古き時代の女. she did well but no contact from the guy at all. this shows that LDR will not work unless both parties put in effort!! hmm. it might be ez to plan to webcam etc, but when both parties are working and in diff time zones, how do u make the effort to on the PC and just stay awake to catch a glimpse of ur partner's beautiful face? i dunno. it is difficult enuff in this one week.

got flight 2moro, so i'll say this here first.. thank u for all the wonderful memories this past year.


our first trip away together, to Aichi World eXpo


our first baseball game together


our first overseas trip together .. (me is back to my home kekeke)

hmm.. hope many many more firsts to come.. ~just wanted to say i love u ~

i had a pretty relaxed trip this week. tomorrow is the last day le. have to pack up liaoz. this week, i discovered that my social circle had became soooo small. both good and bad. i got to meet the people i really wanted to and to spend alot more time with my family as well. thank you everyone who met up with me. it meant alot to me and i am glad i had the chance to spend my few days here with you.

1090: of chance meetings

ooh.
i updated my photo albums.. all old ones though, cos i'm repairing the comp and i am uploading all the old photos in case of the demise of my comp. so here they are:
- Tokyo 2003 : the full 400+ photos hehe
- Before Japan : i uploaded alot alot more pics from dec 2004 when i first bought the Ixus 40
- Sixoneders : alot of photos from when i was in Uni and the guys were in army. heh.

this photo was taken the last outing with the sixone boys b4 i left for japan, at zhiwen"s house



some of these same sweet guys came to the airport to send me off to Japan as well.



and today i ran into weilun as he was knocking off from work at taka~~~ (leftmost guy) wat are the chances!? keke..

i met weilun by accident today! so happy that i think it deserves a mention haha.. because i was walking around orchard alone when i met him.. hehehe.. so he accompanied me to Sasa and to do some window shopping. and we took bus to clementi together. luckily i ran into him, can jio him for dinner for tomorrow nite. heh.

xinhuan came to my house for lunch today. first time as a married woman. wahahaha! we had a long chat over lunch.. catching up on her post wedding feelings and happenings. looked thru the papers and it was unfortunate the skies turned dark when i was finally ready to leave the house. so we braved the rains and took a cab outside the estate to orchard and bought tix to She's the Man. had an hour b4 the movie so we went Yess! and xinhuan went in for a haircut while i just sat beside her and read magazines. she still was considered a student -.- and got a 30% off . ok la. it was pretty cheap for a haircut. but where do i find a student pass!? grr.

the movie was sooo funny!! granted, its a teen flick. and Amanda Byrnes is totally unconvincing (and quite ugly) as a guy, but the lead actor Channing Tatum <- very weird name is sooooo cute!! haha. i actually felt like a teenager again, think it was partly cos i was watching with xinhuan. hehe. dunno how long its been since we watched a movie together. since our teenage days?? hee hee... and we giggled our way through, watching the cute guys in the movie, watching them do their fabulous stunts, and watching the puppy love on screen and getting soft and gooey in my heart. hehe.. yesh, i am a romantic at heart, cannot meh??

after the movie, we shopped abit b4 she had to meet her hubby for dinner.. (poor me, all single still) and i wandered around abit b4 bumping into weilun. hehe.

food tally:
- leftover salted vege soup
- curry fish head (^-^)v

wats left.... oh. duck rice. and my oysters. hmmmmm. kinda difficult liaoz. tomorrow friday le.

1089 SMAP handover

i handed over all my smap magazines yesterday. to Jaclyn.. hehe.

met her yesterday at Thai express city hall for lunch and we caught up after a long half year. heh. this half year since she came back has gone by very very fast. still easy to talk bout problems with her and we talked about why people wanna come to sg to stay for long term when there are so much more opportunities out there. like after we've stayed overseas for a while, you will begin to feel that although life is good here, there are oso much more other things to be enjoyed outside here. much more things to widen ur horizon, to see and to experience. this would be a great place to return to after a long trip. but not before i've seen the world. sooo.. i still dun understand why foreigners from caucasian countries would choose to live and work here save for the stability.

we had an enjoyable lunch and after that i wandered around Funan. wanted to look at the selection of english game titles available but apparently, only 3 shops were open in the game side of Funan's level. maybe cos the IT show's starting today and they all went to prepare for it. but there wasn't much interesting titles and the price didn't seem that appealing. it's weird how 5000yen doesnt seem so expensive after so long while $50 feels like its a whole lot of money to be spending on a game. hmm. and i had thought i had just lost one of my Nintendo game cartridges so i was feeling really depressed and i didn't have any mood to buy any more games. (T.T) so i just headed home.. and managed to get sunburnt on the way home. hah. quite kua1 zhang1 but its true. perhaps due to the fact that i had been out of the sun for so long bah. and i played Katamari on the busride home. the sun was so hot and the bus ride was so bumpy that i actually felt nauseaus and bus sick at the end of the ride that it was all i could do not to puke. i quickly stood up to press the bell and tap my EZlink and just tried to stand still and think zen thoughts so that i could suppress the nausea. luckily, it worked. (=.=)

and my mom cooked my favourite salted veg with duck meat soup yesterday! yay! ate until i actually felt bloated. hah.