last day at work. damn stupid.first thing my boss told me to do is to clear up my desk for the new PC for the new MA. then she started calling up another dept about some site testing thing and it was obvious they didn't have anithing for me to do but she kept harrassing them for things for me to do. as usual, that girl was late, and i was shifted to the fourth level. by 3pm, i was superbly bored and playing games on my laptop in full view of anione who walks past. left early when i received a call from my frens who were at suntec. had a walk around b4 weilun took us to jp in his car for dinner. heh.. they totally crack me up.. nv laugh at so many lame jokes for so long.. treated them to curry fish head but i was not that hungry enuff to eat alot. celestee had treated me to pasta at Moonfish (formerly spagheddies) at millenia walk in the afternoon so was still feeling bloated. craving for a bit of ice cream now though. haagen dazs anyone?

group shot from last nite, henry's bday actually.. we took this at paya lebar mrt station.. :)

had a bad day again. my dad is like sooo selfish. he's not using his car yet he won't let me drive it to tuition cos that will save me so much time. the damn tuition is only 1.5 hours and my travelling time is like 3 hours in total. kaoz. wasted so much time.

last nite was fun. went to geylang for dinner, celebrated fren's bday, and ate frog leg's porridge, mee sua, and smelly beancurd. so full. argh. back to the books.

damn it. lucki today is the 2nd last day of work. i'm getting really pissed with my work. and my boss. the organisation is so inefficient and pple are really irresponsible. can't elaborate more but i would advise everyone not to join this organisation next time. it SUX!

went to CK tang and bought a bunch of cosmetics from prescriptives heh.. using gift vouchers. :P anyway.. well worth it.. i think.. but i think mainly i must sleep and eat well first. sianz. so tired of studying.

argh..overslept this morning..woke up at 8.15am..rushed to tk the bus at 9 and reached work only at 10am. and i played PC games the whole morning. ahahahaha!!!

have been very suay these 2 days on the bus. twice, china women (aunties) sat next to me. not that i'm purposely discriminating, but they were both very rude and inconsiderate!!! both seemed to think that i'm invisible or something and read their papers with their elbow shoved into my side. and oso sms-ed with their elbows pushed into me like i wasn't there. how come i dun seem to need so much space to do the same things?? and then, the woman who sat next to me this morning behaved like the whole bus was hers. we were sitting in those seats at the front where u face 2 pple who face the whole bus. and this old lady sat down in front of her but she didn't even had the courtesy to tuck her feet in and let the old lady sit properly. poor old lady had to sit sideways the whole ride. !! i was super disgusted at her. and while reading her papers, she was adjusting her bra openly. YUCK!! maybe i really am invisible or something.

this is wat my bed looks like.. a mess.. ! :) pikachu there is from my japan trip.. Pokemon center souvenir.. one of the best things i bought..

I bought a telescope today!! was on the mrt reading Today when i saw that carrefour was having a sale for their telescopes, only $49 and magnification of 175x.. WOOH!! anyway, set it up all ready to use, but turns out tonight is too cloudy to do any star gazing. ARGH.

zobo until cannot zobo at the office. was playing monopoly on my laptop towards the end of the day. with my boss right beside me. ... pretty lame. but its not my fault if she has no work to give me!! :(

it was quite a chore carrying the telescope back home. at peak hour i felt bad that my telescope was taking up a seat of its own, so i tried to carry it on my lap and almost killed the girl who sat down next to me.. haha.. the telescope was abit too tall for my lap and a little heavy so it toppled over when i wasn't holding on.. lucky for the quick reflexes of yours truly, she was safe from harm..:P

at wisma, this old guy, supposedly a security guard of somewhere came up the bus. when he sat down in front of me, he was reeking of alcohol and holding his head. my god. his life must be very sad to have to get drunk at 6 plus in the evening.

today was studying for CFA and playing ard with VB in the office. my boss just let me do wat i wanted. apparently she realli had NOTHING for me to do. so i just fiddled with VB trying to connect to database which finally succeeded.. !! hahahaha.. the rush of satisfaction brought back all the feelings of why i wanted to do computing in the first place. haiz. aniway, VB is damn stupid. although i'm stupider for not being able to program in it. the chiong cd i installed it from didn't have any help files and i had to struggle thru on my own. damn it..

sianz. today the company told me this is my last week cos they realli nothing for me to do. abit dulanz they so last minute. nv gimme notice. and cheat me of a month's pay. DUMB BANK.

its realli tempting to go out after work. must restrain myself for the next 2 weeks. ARGH!!

took this picture in snoopy town Harajuku. think it was exactly a year ago that i was in japan. ahh.. i miss tokyo..

hp was so sweet to bring me supper cos i was hungry.. but it was more of a sad nite, dunno why he started toking bout sad things and after that made me cry. haiz. realli worried bout u dear...

i have something i wan a lot.. i wan the Friends sitcom DVD set.. of ALL the episodes for my bday this year.. that would be good.. and of course if someone would sponsor me a cruise ticket as well.. :P

went holland v today.. so long haven been there le.. lotsa not so gd memories there of some one again :( wah. sux... i hate my memory for being so photographic. why doesn't it remember as clearly for studies?? sick of his face & memories popping up at unwanted moments. it was when i suddenly remembered his face and words and face last nite that i missed my MRT stop. kaoz. stop invading in my life u idiot! GET OUT!!!

marina south maddy bday on 10-May.. testing out the new photo log software :) pretty cool huh? :P  

finally, a reply from singtel. apparently the customer service lady is trying to get me a waiver, but she didn't tk into account april's amt so now it complicates this matter. well.. thank god, but i hope she's successful. finally she calls to tell me. .. a little slow, but at least a reply finally. to give her credit, she's quite nice, very calm and polite. hopefully, things work out.

the weather sux. so humid that however nicely i prepare to go out, will be drenched by sweat by the time i get to the bus stop. :( sianz. wat shitty weather.

just had a great meet up with some of the sixoneders.. only bout 8 of us met up, but it was gd enuff.. as usual, guys were pretty crappy, and got to see qunci's bf for the first time :) he's cute.. in the chubby sort of way.. but quite used to seeing her with nat le, so its a little weird. had dinner at thai express.. the waitress was realli enthu cos its her last week on the job :) congrats! hee.. later on we went to crepes and cream for desserts, and they gave us an extra bowl of sundae by mistake hehe.. ah well.. things are overpriced here anyway, at least that compensated for it..

was so blur i missed the stop at bukit batok. was thinking bout some things in the past, then suddenli looked up to see the bukit batok sign and the mrt doors closing. ARGH.. in the end i got off at gombak and waited another 10 minutes for the train back to bukit batok. and by the time i reached there, the last bus had gone, and i had to walk all the way out to the main road to take a cab. *sobz*

saw a green snake on my way out today.. it was bright green, lime green in fact and was more than a metre long. tot it was not alive until it suddenly curled upwards. (it was hung upside down on the fence..) YUCK!! was pretty scared but told my mom to get the security guard to do something bout it. dunno whether its still there though. creepy..

interview went really well. talked to the manager for like hour+ and after that breezed through the mandarin test. :) hopefully will get it.. its alot more of wat i wanna do than wat i do now. haiz.

saw hp's hall room for the last time. so empty le. a little sad cos so many happy memories in it. took a nap there b4 going home but still pretty groggy. hp's such a sweet guy..

feeling a little down. family (my mom) is at my back again. going crazy trying to handle her. sianz.

"In you, I found peace"

history comes alive in films. lazy youngsters who have no interest at all in greek myths and legends will noe the story of Troy for years to come cos of the magic of movies. with the lure of handsome men and beautiful women they idolise acting on the big screens for them, can they not catch a piece of the action?

the movie was good. besides the fact that Brad Pitt was deliciously nude in many scenes, the legend was well portrayed in the show. the arrogance of Archilles, the heroic Hector who put his countrymen before him, showing true honour in battle, cowardly Paris who created trouble with his beauty (orlando bloom was well-chosen to act this role..), and Helen was really very beautiful. Very elegant, its so difficult to hate her despite that it was her impulsiveness that caused the ruin of Troy. many of the battle scenes were a little too gory and brutal for me (as were those in passion of christ and gladiator and other war films) but, haiz, i really dun understand why these men had to kill each other to get their way. couldn't they talk it out? honour and glory is really so important? perhaps this is why men and women are different. pity all the gd pple had to die in the end. or should i say good-looking? heh..

yay! got an interview with Agilent Technologies.. hope this would bring me further? hmm.. hopefully i get in, only 2 persons shortlisted..

horrible day today. stomach still aching, and i realised i kena fever. 38 degrees. no wonder my head been feeling woozy. argh. been gunbounding too much as well. time for a nap.

swam and suntanned today :) bliss... bliss to just do nothing.. haha..

slept til 10 plus this morning cos of some unexpected matters that cropped up last nite.. went for supper with hp to fong seng and it was soooo quiet there. after that, was on our way to explore singapore in his lorry when eliza called us to help her find jack. apparently, he's doing some insane thing to see her, walking the PIE in the middle of the nite. ARGH!! we were pretty irritated but in view of the fact that the idiot might kill himself, we went in search of him. found him but he bochup-ed us.. in the end he walked backwards and we had to go on since we were on the expressway.. lost him there and we couldn't find him after that. haiz. so silly. should have behaved more maturely. tk care u 2, dunno wat to do oso..

still realli sleepy, been dozing on and off the whole day. i'm getting old.

changed my header.. wanted a more mature feel to the blog but not really very successful.. anyway, very happy I got to study and basically rest and do everything i wanted at home today. wx came over for a swim but it was sorta cloudy and we watched frens/crayon shinchan to wait for the sun to come out but by the time there was a little more sunlight, errm.. we were both too lethargic to go down. HAHAHA.. gd day, we caught up on wat was happening with the rest of the pple in nTu and the girls in class too.. haiz.. i miss the guys.. so long nv see them le, wonder how they are.. studied quite a lot today too, so i guess its been pretty productive.. off to tuition now, later supper with hp :)

woke up at 12noon.. then rushed home for tuition..

had lunch at KAP with hp, so surprised to see kaiming there.. :) his hair looks weird, a little longish, but still as dark as ever.. didn't tok to him though..

the tuition kid had a big apartment. veri nicely furnished. but the parents, esp the dad was a little rude. he just totalli ignored me even though i sorta gave a smile in greeting when i saw him and the mom. DUH> stupid SNOB. anyhow, decided to ignore him le. wat a dumb adult.

celebrated grandma's bday. she's 68! so old. pretty scared of the day when she will pass away. i know for sure i'll cry ALOT. haiz.

argh... just lost a game of monopoly.. :S bad decision on my part.. not very good luck during the game oso, well.. too bad.. was pretty fun though.. went to chomp chomp for dinner.. :) first time there! it was quite gd, though the food not that spectacular.. had sambal stingray, cockles and mussels.. throat hurts abit now..

manage to study quite a lot today.. shall go study more now.. :(

reached home like at 8pm.. the earliest i ever been home on a normal work day since i started work.. today there was nothing for me to do at work. NOTHING. fiddled with some power point stuff for a few hours, then some excel stuff. had long lunch. came back and fiddle abit here and there. figured out the usefulness of fireworks. (Macromedia fireworks that is..) its COOL! heh.. now i can make my websites super much more chio and powerful. then went shopping downstairs cos it was getting difficult to be pretending to be doing work. i think that's probably wat i've learnt the most. How to look busy when u have nothing to do. maybe i'll write a book on that. muahahahaha...

no plans on a friday night. ironical that today is like the most free i've been in a loooong time yet i've nowhere and nothing to do. ah well.. should prolly make use of the opportunity to rest i suppose.

I'm on the hunt for a new job. contract is not being extended cos they have nothing for me to do. (Kinda obvious huh) sad... but a little relieved. its kinda dead end, considering its all the fault of my dumb boss who didn't prepare anything (PC, employee pass) for me working here. DAMN IT. no wonder the turnover rate for the staff here is so high. please tell me of any lobangs k? haiz

finally used up hp's nydc voucher. NYDC is really not a cheap place, must stop eating there at least for the next 3 months. save money!!

poor hp dear. he was so sleepy he fell asleep on the bus. nv see him so tired before.. jiayou dearie.. i'll try to be more understanding..

i better start studying. its so easy to be distracted by every other thing that happens.so glad that tomorrow is the last day of work and my one week leave begins! finally a change to rest. very exhausted.

blood brothers. (Jiang hu) the new movie by raintree productions. with andy lau and jacky cheung. It's AweSome. VERY. no special effects, no guessing of who's bad and who's good. just very cool use of subtle flashbacks to explain present situations. well done, eric tsang, well done. although the plot is nothing new, loyalty btw triad members etc, but this is more than that. although very much the same cast as infernal affairs, the show is totally different. different feel totally. more suspense. not so much of twists and suspense but very well-thought plot.. chinese movies depicting gangsters have indeed come a long way since the time of Ekin Cheng and his role as Gu Huo Zai. Well Done.

saw a cat limping past me on the way home. haiz. heart-wrenching, i didn't noe whether i should help it or not. I think it was pretty scared of humans, especially after its injuries. It ran away pretty quickly. :( came home to alot of nagging. sianz. dinner was not gd. argh. not feeling veri happy. i think i'm getting addicted to panadol too. :(

went to celebrate maddy's bday with hp.. had steamboat dinner at marina south with his frens.. quite funny bunch of pple ;) then went to cosy bay finalli. wat a romantic place, overlooking the river and all. great place to chill out as well.. :) too hot though the night was.. going to bathe and sleep.. zzz

first time i went to jalan kayu today. for supper! ice cream prata's nice!! had dinner with hp's dad b4 that, steamboat buffet at the kopitiam in amk central near jubilee, his dad's a veri jovial person, very friendly as well. :) then as we were both poor pple, went to his house nearby and played PS2 the whole nite. hahahaa... pathetic, but it was fun :) veri tired now, sleeping liaoz.. nitez..

i dunno why angelfire images refuse to let me show it on my site. damn irritating, so now its back to colours so plain and ugly. 'til i figure out wat to do.

slept only at 4+ last nite. head hurts. my sis woke me up at 7am. WITH AN SMS. asking me to help her buy movie tickets when i was like obviously broke. and then after that couldn't sleep properly, just dozed off and woke up intermittently when my phone rang (sighz) and i got smses. normalli, no one msges me or anithing at all. they all had to choose a day i wanted to sleep in to all do that together. (sighz again)

no plans for the weekend. i HAD plans, but all spoilt by the fact that the paycheck i expect did not arrive. kaoz. one weekend wasted. wanted to go phuture last nite, go JB today, maybe tomorrow mahjong. BUT, becos i face impending bankrupcy courtesy of a local telco, and basically am totally broke now, all my plans have been changed to STAY AT HOME THIS WEEKEND AND STUDY. :*( sobz...

printed my whole blog (jun'03 - apr'04) in the office yesterday cos i was afraid that blogger might be gone one day and take my writings with it. hmm.. come to think of it, no matter how far along technology advances, man (or woman) will still feel safer with hardcopy of documents. oni way they could be destroyed is shredding, or a fire. now, i'm definitely not going to do that to my blog. haha.. was reading through it and i realise that reading short forms of wording is pretty irritating. (oops, sorry readers!) shall be aiming to use y instead of the 'i's that I like to end my words with and write properly. haha... and that the past 10 months have passed by very quickly. (it's been 10 months??!!) yah, it seems like yesterday only when i blogged bout my birthday (28th sep), or even how excited I was about school beginning again (some day in july). haiz. just wanna say thanks to all of those who have showed concerned to me over the past 10 months and all those who follow my bloggie.. THANK YOU!! u made me feel really appreciated and to know that someone cares for you in the world is truly a wonderful feeling. :)

tiring day. did nothing much haha.. bought my mom her mother's day present, a renoma bag from tangs.. hp fetched me to work today :) and he came to fetch me for lunch too.. we ate chicken rice at lucky plaza, a little overpriced and not that great.. just so-so. i personally feel that the far east stall's better. aniway, then went to his house in the evening. his darn comp giving probs in connecting to the net. i can't solve it yet but i refuse to admit defeat. will be attacking it again tomolo. !! met his bro's gf. erm. can onli say she's pretty rude and spoilt. but thats the first impression. actualli tot she looked quite cute until she started speaking. haiz. a pity. finalli gunbounding with the guys again! yay!

had a super long meeting today. 9 am supposed to start, the boss made me go starbucks buy coffee for everyone, his treat of course. in the end started oni at 10. made me get up earli for nothing. ... but hp was so sweet to come send me to work so that i no need to wake up super early. :) so happy! the meeting lasted til 12. i didn't have much to contribute since i haven been doing much aniway. :( sadz. then he treated us to lunch at soup restaurant. 8 course. so full. the food was oni so-so. i didn't realli like it. oh well.. but the boss is realli nice though. crack loads of jokes and all. hmm.. ok lah, at least they noe i exist now.

Anyway, after that.. work was back to being borin again.. nv go out today oso.. having a rest at home..

my veri own presentation slides are now part of citibank's asia pac regional training program!! hehe.. so proud of myself.. tomolo will be doing more, part of their sales training program, this is not the edited ones, this is wat i did ALL by myself, factfinding and collating and all.. :)

period cramps today.. OUCH OUCH OUCH.. so i was rite, the past few days were results of PMS. i can totalli tell when its nearly the time of the month. body just feels totalli uncomfortable, weather feels warmer, mood swings and all.. haiz. horrible being a girl. ARGH....

gastric pains today. hurt realli bad. took a day off work. ate actal when i felt the twinges liaoz. but oni worked after an hour once again. hp took me to see his place in the evening. veri nice place! his room was painted realli nicely, applegreen and white, but his bro had erm.. decorated it to look a little girlish.. but realli.. veri nice and big for 3 room flat.. :) and he has PS2!! with alot of my fav games. hehehe.. now i found a place to spend my evenings with him for free liaoz.. :)

50 first dates - "The first kiss is always the best"

sweet movie. watched it with hp after work. his exams are over!! yay! but unfortunately, he starts his working life tomolo. argh.. oh well, i'm trying veri hard not to feel moody/PMS-y. trying veri hard to just love him with no holding back, without thinking of the wrongs and being jealous of things that nv happend. hmm.. aniway, was happy to see him :) learning to be as lame as him.. hehe.. he's a bad influence..

aniway, the movie was sooo funny. laughed realli hard. rob schneider esp. his crude antics as adam sandler's best fren are totalli gross but hehe.. hilarious. love his movies, not veri cultured but gd for cheering up. :) until my gastric pains overcame me. i bit my tongue 2 days ago. and i can't eat anithing today cos it hurt too bad to eat. and since i oni ate like a mouse, i got hungry at 3pm. n no time for dinner since movie was at 7, and work ended at 6.30. ate a few sushis during the movie but i was dying as i walked out of the theatre. veri long nv feel such sharp pains in the tummy area le.. could barely walk. hp got some actal (some antacid pills) for me from watsons which was supposed to be "fast-acting" but my pains only subsided when i reached home. which was an hour later. fast acting my foot! almost fainted on the LONG bus ride home.

then came home to realise stupid singtel sent me the results of their investigation. the reply letter explained to me wat GPRS was (as a comp sci degree holder, yah, i'm supposed to be clueless about that yah? thats y i used it and jacked up a phone bill so high???) DUH. then they explained to me wat i can use GPRS for. "this service allows u to access to the internet, intranet or email" . another DUH. how does that address my complain bout ur stupid service? then they crapped bout how they checked that the calls were made from my phone ETC ETC. fuking stupid. of course made from my phone. else how i used the internet? and they go on to say how my SIM card is unique and all that shit. "please be assured that our billing is in order" of course, its in order, thats the thing u do best at rite? ur customer service sucked. MISLEADING information to trick ur customers into using services. Charging them for things they tot was free. I'm NOT going to pay for this bill if its the last thing I do. last resort, going up to the news with singtel misleading their customers (as usual). "We trust to have addressed your concerns and thank you for using our services." FUCK U. not a single concern addressed btw, and i will definitely not be using ur services again. a unsatisfied customer will lose u 10 more. Singtel is going DOWN.

turbulent nite. quarrels and more tears. i am still so angry. maybe it's PMS, but i feel soo betrayed. I noe u've apoogised and i accept it but it takes time to get over it. i've nv done anithing to hurt u on purpose, always careful of my words to others even, to let pple think we're ok even if there were times i was feeling down. cos i believe jia chou bu wai yang! apparently, u dun believe in that. and u had to tell it to another girl. GIRLS. i dun trust them. (sorri girls out there, its just that i've been backstabbed and my life and rep ruined becos of some bitches and the evil carried on by even more bitches, hence the wariness towards them from then on. ) aniway, just take the trouble to hide the tracks better from now on k? isn't that like the rule in army, do anithing but dun get caught? u've gotten complacent.

got scolded by my mom again. and some ridiculous arguing that i can't even be bothered to listen to. she denied all instances where she had toked bad bout my frens and criticised them and brought up some irrelevant things to argue abt. can't be bothered to tok sense. like i said before, i'll be out b4 she noes it.

napped the whole day. still feeling exhausted. i can't sleep beyond 9am nowadays and then go ard feeling groggy the whole day. veri unhealthy. been feeling veri cooped up. i wanna go out and HAVOC!! haiz. but no energy. is this how its like when u grow old? is this how it's like to feel old? I DUN WANNA GROW UP!! :S *Sobz*

realised i'm not going to figure veri much in ani of his impt decisions regarding his career next time. as he has so clearly stated. even if it affects me, it is still his decision to make. i will be told. but its still his decision to make. without consideration of my views/feelings at all. haiz. do i realli wan that?

feeling discontent. dissatisfied. disgruntled. disagreeable. displeased. distant. just dun feel gd bout anithing and every thing. i need a break, a vacation. i'm sick of everything.