too lazy during the weekend.. its when u're at work and trying to pass time that you would post diligently every few hours because blogging is the most interesting thing to do when u're not supposed to do it.

friday.. mm had french dinner with Ryo.. it was moderately expensive i guess, his line is drawn at 3000 yen per person, depending on the cuisine. it was good atmosphere at first, until they began blasting music (in the restaurant), so loudly we couldn't hear each other speak. i got so irritated i asked Ryo to ask the waitress to turn it down. they did turn it down for like 10 min? and then the music blasted on again. wth! in the end i just thought that i wouldn't go back again. food was only so-so anyway, not incredible.

throughout dinner, we were discussing the possibility of renting a place together cos it was too difficult for him to come in and out. everyday is like a war game to tell the truth. i would be looking out if there were other staff, if not then a quick signal to him and he would dash out. haiz. but then, it japan, u have to pay like a 3k non-refundable deposit to rent any place, and its not like it is deductable for rent or anything at all. i guess the housing rental business is very profitable. here. anyway, just discussing, the main issues was where would he park his car(now that he has been paying fines too many times parking illegally near the dorm) and whether this whole thing is feasible. mm, so another thing to do is to check for housing too i guess..

saturday.. yesterday i bought a yukata set (finally!) it was so cool.. cos i looked very cute haha.. i tried the dark colours at first and it was just so not me. i guess dark colours are for more mature ladies.. in the end i tried a light pink one and i actually looked better suddenly. yay! it was a little ex, but not more expensive than japanese normal clothing so i guess it was ok.. there was actually a sale going on, hence i was able to buy it cheaper than usual.. after that went to Yodobashi and bought the newest game in the Fatal Frame series, if translated, i guess this title would read "The Voice of the Tattoo". haha.. sounds crude.. anyway.. it looks really scary.

Ryo got influenced to buy a Canon Ixy (ixus in singapore) too! wahaha. he wanted to buy a digicam and we looked around and this has dropped to a reasonable price (5MP) so he bought it. i looked around for him, cos he didn't really know which to choose, the Sonys and Panasonics were tempting but they didn't have any viewfinders.. which we all know how impt it is when battery is low and u wanna take a few more shots. hehe.. so now we hold the same phone and camera! wahaha..

baseball game tonight.. yay! But think I'm coming down with a sore throat... argh..

I've decided to post up some pictures of the aquarium trip from last sunday.. all the fish looked really delicious hehe..

outside the aquarium they were promoting a penguin movie.. so there was this:

ice sculpture of a emperor penguin.. it was melting rapidly due to the heat..

pretty similar to a real one i would say..
this silly penguin was posing for the cameras..

then we bought tix to go in..

aquarium tix and ferris wheel tix

and we saw the biggest stingray in our lives (both of ours) and we began studying the undersides of all the specimens there..

the stingray specimen'S underside

the turtle's underside

the spider crab'S underside


and finally the most interesting specimen:
the human specimen's under(back)side.. (the girl on the left, look at those teeny weeny shorts!!)

trying out my new phone's photo capability..


my favourite morning drink, Lipton milk tea.. i wish they sell this in Singapore though.. it's delicious..

not that great.. only 1.3MP after all, but fair enough considering its a phone.. going to post up lotsa pictures (i hope) with my new phone..

Headlines in the straits times today : Perfect 10 as SIA is best airline again

Again? Probably won't stay long though. Before i ever flew on SIA, I had been fantasising about my first flight. where there would be very sweet/sexy/helpful stewardesses. with games and movies galore on the flight. and good food too (at least better than other airlines)..

Turns out that after the first flight.. The fantasy fell from the sky. The flight was normal. The controls for the movies etc weren't that great and the games were boring. the food was only so-so too; I felt Thai airways was better. The stewardesses, not pretty, not helpful, it was the stewards that proved to be more helpful. All the girls did were to show black faces. When they weren't speaking to you.

The flight back from jApan was worse. Ryo's tv was spoilt. actually the controls were spoilt and he was pissed off for the whole ride. they didn't offer to upgrade him to first class, i had to speak to 3　stewardesses before someone would do something about it and the first one didn’t get back to me so I had to try really hard to get their attention and when the first one I asked walked past again, I tried to speak to her but all I got was her black face. Knn! And they were all so big sized! Not only tall, but big boned.. I felt intimidated rather than enjoy their services..

on the plane back from Singapore, I was thinking that I don’t wan to trade places with these stewardesses anymore. I guess when u’re young, these seem like the most glamourous jobs in the world where u got beauty and respect and money.. now I know that beauty part is not really true, all the stewardesses nowadays look normal; I don’t really respect them anymore, not after the lousy service and I would much rather be served than serve others; and now that I am probably earning more money than them, so I guess the money part has also lost its attraction.

Of course, this is just to say that I would rather be served than serve others, not that stewardesses are lousy people or anything, but probably they should do their job a little better since they chose to be in the service industry and I do want my country’s airline to do us proud. Ryo did not come back with a good impression of SIA and I was really embarrassed that he had to be subjected to such things on the airline we Singaporeans are so proud of.

眠ーーい。。

just finished my laundry, got a new phone cos the damn nokia was not really working well anymore. it kept hanging.. haiz. stupid nokia. this time i settled for a cheap toshiba domestic phone.. but it was quite cool and very fun too.. will post up a picture tomorrow..

went to the doctor's finally yesterday for my tummy ache. apparently, the intestinal viral gastro-something is back again. had a case of panic attack 2 nights ago, on Sunday night, where there is a sudden intense feeling that something bad was going to happen and then I didnt dare to fall asleep for fear that i might die in my sleep or something. I have no idea why, but i jsut felt scared, with my heart beating fast and my mind wandering all over the place and me having no idea why. haiz.

been cooking udon myself these 2 days, think i better start eating right(and to save some money b4 the allowance comes, supposedly end of this week). work has been superbly boring these few days. because i had nothing to do. NOTHING to do. haiz. anyway.. i guess i better think of something to do tomorrow.

I can’t believe the Britains have resorted to panicked shooting just because they can’t stop a man they THINK is a terrorist.

the article from the New Zealand Herald..

the shooting of the Brazilian man was so tragic and the stupid Brits can’t tell South American from South Asians!!

spent a good sat with weiyi, peiling and tze wei. actually i woke up at 1pm, so not much sat to spend hehe.. anyway.. we went for dessert but the restaurant pretty much sucked. after that went shopping and we saw so many girls in Yukata.. prolly going to get a set and wear it when we go see fireworks soon. yay...

went to the 海遊館(aquarium) today. it was fantastic. at first it was just like underwater world but after we went in, it was tons better. its 8 storeys tall.. and there were all sorts of things in there.. penguins, dolphins, otters, sharks, jellyfish.. a very cool place but i kept thinking of sushi while i was there.. haha.. and after that rode the ferris wheel. one of the largest in the world i think..and i saw the Cirque du Soleil tentage for the September performance. COOL! probably will be going .. but anyway it was a good day .. ooh and i picked up like 10,000 yen on the train !! hahahaha..

had dinner with matsuzawa san and kana san last nite.. it was good to meet these people out of work cos they are not the same pple at work..it was pretty fun making fun of matsu-san together with kana san cos he's the tokyo team leader.. but it was fun.. having a hangover now.. ouch.. and i bought UBL speakers! CreatureII.. the cool things that looks like aliens.. have like 7000+ points so i used that and only spent bout 5000 yen. yay.. enjoying great sound now..

i love this game!

i feel better already. tried not to feel sianz bout not having anyone to eat dinner with today. I must not grow too dependent on anyone! (very noble sentiments but i am not very sure that i can achieve it)

probably going to dinner with colleagues tomorrow.. i think.. i feel bad that they look after us so well when we go tokyo but we just bochup these people when they come over to osaka. we should reciprocate but its just so easy to ignore them and do our own things. i am so afraid of having nothing to do at work, cos its realli difficult to feign hardworking-ness.

should I be a whiny person on my blog? i could have so much to complain about but i seem to have lost the will to complain. i just go about my days half-dazed and just taking everything in and not thinking. on the train, i watch people without thinking wat they are thinking, without wondering what their lives are like. I used to do that, but i just don't have the energy or the desire to do such things anymore; is this what growing old is like? where you stop wondering and start accepting?

very terrible tummy ache. food poisoning maybe. ouch.

had french food last nite. that was good though. goose liver and the 甘い海老 was really 美味しい。

Back to work again. Its really mundane and the feeling is especially worse when u've just come back from a holiday. Wished I could be joining the sixoneders at their activities right now, but I really should stop thinking about it.

Winni said I had become more mature since b4 I went. I looked older than before too. Was it so apparent? He said I used to be cuter but now I seemed to have aged. Or grown up? Hah.. I guess its both good and bad. I have to let go of the fact that I can't possibly be cute forever, but I guess circumstances have made it such that I have to be one of the more mature ones in the program, having to take care of all their admin stuff like money, and HR matters. Forced to live alone, having to cope with all matters without the ready aid of friends, I guess I have grown up slightly if not a lot.

Am I able to be alone now? More so, if not all the time yet. Too much alone time still drives me crazy, I’ll admit and I guess crying suicide just means I need attention if u really listen to me. I guess I really should start thinking of other people around me for once.

He's more affectionate after the Singapore trip, I guess he really enjoyed the break. He even initiated watching a movie after dinner which was quite rare. Usually I’m the one suggesting such things. He doesn’t mind spending money on expensive dinners with me (although I quite sim tia when he does that) and he forgets the amount of money I’m supposed to return him even though its not small amt. Perhaps I should stop ruining my relationships and settle down.

I'm back!

from singapore that is.

and this time i was very unwilling to come back to Japan.

Xiangqin was back too this time. The sixoneders' gathering for supper and dinner was great. it was like no one ever left, we still had so much to chat about. we still seemed to be still in JC, never growing up, all still making the same jokes, still as comfortable suaning one another, i hope this will never ever change. a pity i couldn't stay later with them, but i had so little time here, and i wanted to make the most of it. mahjong was fun, despite only me playing a round, but it was good enough just being there, laughing with them, being able to let go all pretenses in this group of friends who have been through thick and thin with you for more than 5 years. thx weilun for sending me back and all the rest who were driving us.

xinhuan came to fetch me at the airport and i really appreciated that. came with us to newton to eat, her engagement ring was really classy and she seems to be more mature yet still the same old xinhuan. sorry i couldn't be there for ur convo, but I'm sure you had a gd time with ur mom and kenneth too. at least we managed to catch up over supper le. realli missed seeing u and toking bout ur wedding stuff. haiz.

managed to eat almost everything i missed. chicken rice at far east, curry fish head, kway chup, mee siam for breakfast, my mom's kiam chye duck, sambal stingray, char kway teow, thai food at thai express, tom yam noodles at simply thai, pure choc ice blended at coffee bean, satay, and otar. yum. i think i grew heavier by at least 1 kg this time and i remembered to stock up on chilli sauce this time round.

met up with edwin too... yay.. brought ryo to drink with ed and his frens on thurs at o bar, it was really good to see him but pity he had frens there and we couldn't realli tok much. i was so tired that i was pretty tipsy after a few drinks and we left early since he had work too. i think he missed me for this half year too.. then met him b4 dinner with sixoneders on sat to shop and tok. hope to see u in dec winni... remember to save up hor.

watched war of the worlds with Ryo at PS. was surprised dad was willing to lend me the car. after almost 2 years of non-driving (after the accident), it felt good. the movie was great, pretty scary since it was quite realistic but the ending was too abrupt. suddenly all the aliens began dying and turns out it was due to bacteria. .....but it was gd.. haven't watched a proper movie in eons.. and afterwards i drove him to see NUS and then back.

went to grandma's house on Sunday and Ryo went to sightsee himself. he went to the museums and night safari and I'm glad he managed to, cos i was too busy settling my own things to have much time to take him around besides shopping. he enjoyed the night safari, surprisingly, and its a pity it was raining all week and we couldn't go sentosa at all. went to orchard everyday, to shop and i managed to get a manicure, pedicure and facial too. oh yah.. and grandma was so happy to see me she hugged me, which was something she nv did ever b4. I'm glad I went although i was thinking i had no time to at first.

things are suddenly so cheap in singapore. cos I'm shopping with the mentality if i dun buy there i have to buy in japan and so comparing the prices i have to buy in singapore. hahah.. so i bought like 3 pairs of shoes, a bunch of pants and blazers and shirts.

so many things have changed. the roads, the bus routes, the bus fares, the ezlink card designs, the buildings, even my stuff have been moved around and i can't find my things in their places in my room anymore. haiz.

stayed out until 3am everyday when i was back but only once was cos i went drinking. time just went by so fast.

teared at the airport when i had to leave. i guess this time I'll suffer from serious homesickness and miss my friends alot more. ooh and Harry Potter 7 is great!! finished it in singapore of cos.. but the ending was a letdown. draggy too in between. shitz..

I managed to catch the preview of NDP at padang (by accident) when i was walking to suntec. caught the fireworks at the esplanade and it totally made me feel the "I LOVE SINGAPORE!" spirit. i guess i'm a true singaporean at heart after all, despite the occasional grouses bout the government and the country.

finally long weekend. this week has gone by soo fast. haiz. now i have to look forward to the next long weekend in september. will talk more bout this weekend when i can.

bought 2 pairs of shoes and a new game and wanted to buy speakers so that i can hear music from my computer but in the end resisted. it was just too ex. went drinking too. :) it was a good day. bought another textbook for my studies too. will blog more soon.

The watch that boi boi gave me finally fell apart. Ok, actually the strap only. But to replace it, I would have to go all the way to the swatch place in Alexandra area. Which is so far away. And out of the way. But it’s still wearable. Can’t wait for work to end. Sooo sleepy today.

Yah I’m sorry my entries became kinda boring. Haiz. My brains are not really working these few days. Recap of weekend? Mm. Sat I had sushi. And I decided to take a risk and eat 馬刺し. Yes, horse meat sushi. It tasted like pork, but psychologically u just had this mental image of a horse. Argh. And the pony u rode when u were a kid. And my little pony in the cartoons. So overall, felt sick after eating it. Was mentally apologizing to the horse and all horses I’ve seen. Haiz.

And I managed to wear my Americaya shoes shopping! Surprised at myself. Of course it hurt like hell towards the end but I managed to wear it for bout 4 hours in a supermarket, to dinner etc. wow. I really prolly could wear 3 inch heels at the end of this stint. so i walked around carrefour in 3 inch heels feeling realli tall and adultish. in the end the main thing bought was mainly beverages and sunday's lunch. since i wasn't expecting to eat in much this week.

after that went to a used games/books store.. bought Kingdom Hearts for gBA at a price of only bout 2000yen. the original game is 4500yen i think? anyway, it was a used game, so reasonable price.. and bought a new set of comics, read but looks new.. school rumble . of cos its in Jap (^-^)

Sunday had laksa for lunch.. i must seriously get more of that mix, it gets better and better. peiling passed me her pack. and had 焼肉for dinner. thats like seoul garden (w/o the soup) not bbq pork. haha.. and then chilled out at starbucks. a very good weekend i should say. although it went by real quickly.

last nite had dinner with rob at The Beer Company. yupz. a huge selection of beer.i had a heineken and a crab pasta and we ordered some tortilla chips too.
this is rob btw.. doesnt look totally japanese right? he's from New York actually.. i guess where u're born does affect u.. haha

i finally finished one of the more urgent projects before my boss comes back tomorrow. phew. for a exhibition in China, China Joy 2005. i don't really know how they are really going to understand the exhibition since they don't really know Engish and obviously not Chinese.

neck aches. OUCH

knn. so pissed off. i wan my ezlink card back.

I'm supposed to meet winni at orchard control station at 11am today but I woke up too late.

if i really were to do that , i would have to wake up at 4am. wahahah.

but it feels really good to say on msn again that ok tomorrow lets meet at orchard ctrl station. argh. i guess i do miss singapore alot. going to be national in a month's time. I'll be here watching their summer fireworks and singing all the national day songs in my heart. or maybe allowed with other singaporeans who also miss home.

finalli friday... everyone feeling lighthearted.. reached the office at 7.30am for a directors' meeting at 8am. zzz. although it was like the fastest meeting ever.. 15min. cos all reports only. yay. then today seemed to pass really fast. there was a sale at hep 5 but then it was still ex. apparently the other people don't think so. there were throngs. of people. and of cos thongs. didn't really see anything to my liking. only bought a nice plain t-shirt and decided to save my money for shopping elsewhere.

so tired, hooray for the weekend!

hee hee hee..

i don't know why, but i'm in a smiley mood.. the kind of mood that you just feel like saying hee hee to everything and everyone.. hee hee hee.. it was so funny to see his reaction when i msged him on the spur of the moment..

me: do u love me?
him: もちろん
me:　i want you to say it!
him: I love u
me: in Japanese?
him: 愛してる
me: in Chinese?
him: 我ni愛
me: french?
him: (after some thought) je t'aime ..
me: really, you really love me?
him:.. はい。

wahaha.. after such an exchange how do i stop smiling? (^-^)

Had sushi for dinner last night. Super fresh fish and prawns. Of course, Ryo paid. I had some drink called lychee sour and because I finished the drink in like 3 seconds at the end of the dinner I was pretty tipsy. Ryo was saying from now on he’ll make me drink at every dinner. Wasn’t like me but I just kept laughing and laughing last night and saying everything was romantic, even walking back in pretty heavy rain under a not very big umbrella. So if it means I don’t pick any fights with him when I’m tipsy and seem really happy at everything, he said it was worth it to make me drink at every dinner. (-.-!)

Looking forward to next week. Not to the part that my boss comes back from his trip to UK and US cos it means that I have nothing to submit to him. ARGH. Just have to get past those 2 days and everything will be great. Finally another long weekend is coming… have a meeting tonight from 6-8pm. Stupid Europe timings. Am so hungry now. I now totally detest eating soba after eating it for days on end at the canteen. Yuck.

i saw xi*x*e this morning.

whAT!? in OSAKA?!

or so i thought.

it was a clone of her. heheheh.. well.. almost similar.. exact same face (same features i swear!), short hair though, same hair colour, chubby cheeks, thick makeup despite the sweltering heat, not very tall, thick arms and thighs which showed from a mini skirt.. i was almost ready to call out to her when i realised she would never have cut her waist length hair and this girl looked slightly worse. more piggy i would say.. but nevertheless, enough to be almost a clone.

this gives rise to this theory i believe in, that there is at least one other person in this world who looks exactly like you. there has to be someone with the exact external features as you given the limited genes/DNA that's mixing around. at least one in a trillion. i have seen many people who look like my friends in singapore, in Japan which has much more people than our little island, where there are higher possibilities of hitting upon that exact gene sequence that your friends consist of. seriously, I'm sure there have been some instances in your life you have seen someone who looks almost exactly like someone you know but because of some tiny detail u suddenly see that made you stop short of calling out to that person just one second before you make a fool of yourself.

I wonder if anyone has researched upon this theory yet? I would love to find out more about this.

last night i kena bad mood from one of the singaporean girls for nothing again. i was just keeping quiet, going back with her like we agreed and then she suddenly showed a black face and said we been lying to her etc. WTH?! Enough is enough. I've been letting you step all over me and tolerating your moods, your sudden bouts of anger, your bad words and your silent treatments for like half a year. All because you are oversuspicious of people, you are intolerant of others, and you judge people too much according to your own standards. too proud to apologise when you're wrong, and if people are doing you favours, they have to do it YOUR way. what kind of friend are you?

my room is cleaN! finally.. all because of 2 bookshelves. and i got rid of the biggest boxes, pushed my bed against the wall, put all my books and games on the shelves and suddenly the room is so spacious! wonders never cease.. i should have done that long ago. now all i have to do is wait for the TV shelf and cloths boxes to arrive and I can neaten up the TV and PS2 area and also the rice cooker. and also have a place to put all the towels and clothes and neaten up my wardrobe. its actually overflowing.. cos its too dark at the wardrobe to see where i put my clothes or to arrange my clothes properly. everytime i practically burrow into the pile of clothes to find wat i wan. hah. but anyway.. my room is cleaned up now!!

its raining like its never ever going to stop now. very good day to sleep and I've finished watching a cinderella story. the soundtrack's good; Takuro was right. I don't know why, but my tastes lately have switched to chick flicks. they're heartwarming.. and i guess they just make me feel warm/teary inside. and i'm rewatching A walk to Remember. argh, i think I'm going to cry again.

I'm going to properly tidy up my room. with shelves. and proper places to keep stuff. this damn room has no storage space at all. i went to muji and bought myself a new pillow, storage containers and a shelf for the TV. later going to buy discounted bookshelves at the discount store. the bookshelves are only bout $10. super cheap. but looks gd enuff.

and bought a bottle of johnnie walker red label for like $15. heh.. enjoying bourbon coke by myself now. haha.. baileys is like only $20. is that cheap? so bored. argh.

Went to dinner with Ryo last nite. As expected, he was an hour plus late. The last minutes calls from his boss just b4 he has to leave is becoming very common. And that’s like after office hours. Wat the hell is wrong with these people? They can’t let their employees have a life? Had a big quarrel at dinner and I think he got pissed off at me. for being not understanding enough. How do you be understanding when every single date he’s late by at least an hour? In the end I just stopped arguing. Haiz.

We had sirloin steak for dinner.. quite ok price cause the meat was good. Very big fried prawn also. I still haven’t found black pepper steak though. Mm must add that to the list of food I miss too.