think i lost a tuition job with a really lousy mom who expects really weird stuff. siao. anywayz. spoil my mood totally.

anyone wans to play mahjong? i haven played in such a long time. suddenly it seems crucial i do the so many things i haven done b4 next week. wat if i dun survive to do these things next week?

had a really scary dream. was ostracised by my frens for this girl they barely knew but yet they listened to her and agreed with her every word. i was so pissed i ran off but when i got to the lift, this lady who had just walked in before me had a look of horror on her face. an old woman sorta floated out and i decided to run down the stairs in fear. big mistake, apparently she could teleport to every flight of stairs and wait for me. i had to wake up to get her out of the dream.

uneventful day, just had headaches all day. think i need to sleep early, finally there's a 3 day break till the semis of euro, all the supporters can have a good rest..i just read the book "Heartswaps" by Celia Brayfield.. pretty warped concept of relationships.. about fiancees exchanging husbands to test their fidelity and such. erm. i can't take it, personally. pretty conservative bout such things still..

today was not a good day. found out some horrid and prolly life-changing news. haiz. i dun feel well.

sitting in a polyclinic today totally reminds us of how the country's healthcare system sux. is the National Healthcare Group privatised? cos everyone got pretty angry waiting for an avg of 45 min b4 seeing the doctor. it wasn't that there were tons of people, it was the same few people coming in and out, and the doctor took a break of at least 5 minutes btw each patient. COME ON@!!! people are dying out here!! then there was this man who prolly waited a long time to see the doctor, after that he was supposed to go to the next room to change his wound dressing or something but he waited another half hour for that. he got impatient and went to ask the nurse but she just told him she didn't get his file and he had to wait his turn. the man saw red and started spewing vulgarities. he went back to the doctor to demand his file and apparently, the doctor was still holding on to the file. another woman was complaining bout how the doctor told her to go beg the reception for a smaller number if she dun wan to wait anymore. my god. some one should do something bout the polyclinics.

i got a new phone! for free! haha.. not really, but my dad has the annual $500 voucher from singtel so he let me and my sis get new phones. :) i got the nokia 6610i, the screen resolution is actually not as gd as 6610. hmm.. at least now i have a nokia camera phone as well.. my sis got a LG7120, its her first flip phone so she's really excited about it :) after that they got pillows at the taka fair as well..

my dad brought us to the old airport road food centre for dinner, and i dunno why but my mom started throwing tantrums.. (!?) yah, she does that all the time. we're so used to it we just ignore her. my dad was like ordering the food and she refused to give any suggestions, yet after my dad ordered the stingray she made tons of remarks like it looked yucky and all. my dad got quite exasperated with her but at least he managed to stay patient still. i was a little irritated so i asked her to tell my dad wat she wanted to eat but she just became sullen and sulked in her seat. me and my sisters rolled our eyes at each other and just pretended my mom wasn't there. how dumb was that, a 45 year old woman sulking for nothing. the food came and it turns out that the stingray was really good (although it really looked dry) and my dad tried to pacify my mom by taking some for her but she just said she wasn't hungry and refused to eat anything. DUH. bochup, we all just eat lor. after a few unsuccessful attempts to ask my mom to eat, my dad gave up and just enjoyed the food too. oh well. dunno wat the hell is wrong with her, how on earth are we supposed to respect her if she does things like that all the time?

damn it.. another draw :( the bookies must be really happy.. stupid penalty shootouts. yesterday was quite fun, took pictures for the straits times article, so buy your Straits Times this THURSDAY!! :) then bought a new pillow at the taka household fair and new underwear at the tangs sale too.. erm.. lets just say i'm happy i need a change in my underwear size.. :P There's this mega singtel fair there too, so just go on down to check things out..

some highlights of the match btw holland and sweden:

"He ate my cake!!!"
"Shut up you tattletale!"


"kiss me you fool.. you must kiss me for the team to win.."


"let's do the cha cha while he prays for the rain"

keke... i'm so boliao.. pictures are courtesy of soccernet.com.

GREECE WON?! hmm... was right that the underdogs were a sure bet this euro2004.. the french must be devastated.. les bleus must be feeling le bleu right now..

this shot of english fans is hilarious:
indignant english fans at the french match vs greece

at least they can console themselves with the thought that they might have won on basis of skill as compared to the french who had no chance to score at all..


an angry Thierry trying to bewitch the ball into doing his bidding :P

damn it. i shall stop buying strike tix. can't believe england and portugal drew. WHY WHY WHY?!! pretty pissed with the referee. should have allowed either team to win and i'll get my money back le.. :( *sobz* a little puzzled why england sent beckham to take the penalty. dun they noe from history he always sux at penalty shootouts?

a pictorial depiction of the downfall of the englishmen:
the ecstatic english after their first goal
they start to worry when rooney gets hurt
the english deciding to wrestle and slam the portuguese team members when they realised that they were going to lose
the goal that gave the english a brief 10 seconds of false ecstasy
the final goal that broke their hearts
the english team still in denial

can't remember wat i wanted to blog about the moment i sat down.. hmm.. tuition was quite ok today. i think its my house. there's this inertia that stops me from going out of it everytime i step into it. enticing me to fall asleep everytime i'm here. spooky..

had a super weird dream last nite. no offence to anyone, but i dreamt i was vandalising a church, using a soccer ball to destroy the walls and the glass. after that i robbed an old man of his handphone. i felt so ashamed of myself when i woke up :(

i'm tired. so very tired. after i slept like 20 hours in total yesterday. wat's wrong? zzz

This is my 500th post :) woot! nv tot i'd actually have the determination to write something everyday. personally, i dun think my writing has improved at all :( i also did a change of template, which should be just temporary i think, just to have a change of environment. personally, this is too small.. no space for my words and picts and links.. a little too cutesy also.. some opinions please?

today almost couldn't get up again. had to summon every single ounce of willpower i had to sit up and get dressed. came home at 11+ to rest for the afternoon's session but the girl said to postpone cos she was out. even better, i get to rest and pack my room. now at least, i have one more shelf empty, and another bag of rubbish. haha.. went to make a new pair of specs, hope it makes me look better.. :P

man.. I don't know wat's wrong with me nowadays. no apetite, feeling super tired all the time even though i sleep at 1 and wake up at 11am, can't walk like 2 blocks without feeling super out of breath and perspiring like mad. are these the symptoms of any disease? actually wanted to go for a full body check up but my mom was against it, saying i'm too young for any big diseases anyway. erm.. thats a really duh line of reasoning. but these medicals do cost a bomb, i think >$200? hmm..

have to force myself to sleep early tonight, else i'll have to postpone the morning tuition tomorrow again. :( i'm really not a morning person!!

i just received my starhub bill for the month of june and guess wat, i've broken my incoming call record again!! woohoO!! the last record was 2 months ago of $301 but this month, my incoming calls made up a total of 2181 min and cost poor starhub $327! heh.. i dun feel guilty bout it at all, although i really do wonder how starhub is going to survive in the long run with customers like us.

i'm so happy today.. hp was off work today cos of his allergy and i went to cook him dinner :) alrite, it was more of him cooking, but i didn't get to help much cos he kept splashing the boiling water at me accidentally! oh well.. but the dinner was good and we had a long chat.. both things that we haven't done together in a really long time it seems. (the chat and the dinner)

had some stupid disagreements with a tuition parent today for yesterday's session. refusing to pay me for the time i stayed back to help the dumb kid. its not my fault that you wan me to solve every single question step by step and explain it to you as well, how do i noe it takes you that long to understand?? aniway, the stupid kid claimed to his mom that i wasted a whole hour on a question that i couldn't solve hence the extra hour needed. kaoz. kids are such liars. was pretty pissed and mentally made a note to nv stay any extra time for that kid again. idiotic.

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as promised, pictures from yesterday's dinner..


dad & mom sitting together..


my sisters.. :P they look sooo alike!! ..


& me looking very silly and sleepy.. hence the dark rings..


my youngest sis and my dad...


erh.. last but not least.. picture of the standard bowl of noodles thats always part of a chinese dinner..

my sis treated us to dinner at boon lay raja restaurant.. sort of a father's day celebration, and i treated bout $40 as well? heh.. the shark's fin was gooood.. but barely enuff for all 5 of us.. yum..

there was a wedding dinner going on at the same time and it was quite a horrible situation for the bride and groom. firstly, they always make this grand entrance during weddings rite? well.. all their tables were inside, nearer to the stage and the people along their path were all people like us who dun give a damn bout their wedding. so ... the dry ice and the lighting weren't helpful as the photos of them entering the restaurant showed background of pple who weren't even looking at them. after that, cos they were a christian couple, the MC read out a prayer they wrote in mandarin which sounded very very cheesy. like all christians, the groom thanked the Lord Almighty for everything during his speech, and he also thanked his parents for their hard work all these years by presenting to them flowers and a gift. (DUH!!!) seems wrong, shouldn't he be saying something like "i'm going to be a filial son"? anyhow, the MCs (one speaking mandarin and one speaking english) were sucky. broken english, mandarin that made you cringe. the bride looked like she was in her late twenties, but she gave a very nice speech, which made me feel quite touched.. (although i can't remember wat she said le.. :P) anyway, we finished our dinner after their yum sengs and it pretty much gave us a headache. took some photos of dinner, haven uploaded them in the comp so will show them tomorrow... heh..

had quite a lousy morning. i slept until 12. wasted it. and then woke up to sneeze and sneeze. packed my room a little, finally all my CFA books are under my bed. so there's only 1 pile of magazines on the ground now haha.. hp came to find me in the afternoon and we just lazed ard cos i was sneezing and sneezing. had taken a pill so was too drowsy to go anywhere too.. boring..

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today went to like 4 tuition sessions.. dead beat.. :X nothing much happened, i guess when u're working life's a bore..

haven been taking pictures lately so decided to put up old photos :P this was from the bike rally, the guys all have their own bikes obviously, only i'm without a bike *sobz* took this at the end of the rally after they collected their bikes.. we were all so hungry by then..

finally. last night i had a good dream :) well, pretty good for my standards.. i dreamt that i was Legola's girlfriend (YAY!) and we were fighting side by side against the orcs. the orcs part wasn't so good but the girlfriend part more than makes up for it :P i dunno how to use a bow of course, so i just passed him arrows and stabbed any orc who came close to him with a dagger. hehe.. wat an exhausting night of great battles.

had a horrendous nightmare again. dreamt that i was in a carnival in nanyang's old campus & 3 girls committed suicide there while the fun fair was going on. Apparently, one body was on the canvas above my head when i was in the vicinity and i remembered a fren in the dream asking me if i had felt the drops of blood that was dripping down the canvas. freaked out. Woke up feeling very jumpy. was alone at home and kept hearing things. shucks.

ahhh.. then end of another tiring day finally. tiring cos i didn't sleep well once again. :( anyway, abit sianz that my tuition kids today are like so unattentive. i was too tired to make them listen also so i just heck-care today. read up on my jap today, realised that i'm still quite ok, just need to revise vocab and remember the grammatical rules..

the guys have gone to cambodia today, i hope they have a safe trip, in all senses of the word.. went with hawx to the temple yesterday.. prayed for their safety, hp's job, my mental health and gd health to my family also.. haiz. dunno why, i keep feeling this sense of impending disaster lately, just hope nothing happens to anyone. *prays hard*

Courteney Cox finalli gives birth to a cute baby girl! congratS!! her new baby is named Coco. (Coco Cox Arquette) hehe..

Courteney gives Birth!

would I disappoint anyone if i start blogging one-liners every day? :X



hee.. just joking, i'm too long-winded to do that anyway.. gave an interview to Life!thisWeekend regarding Gunbound to help out a fren's fren's fren who was doing her IA at Straits Times. its prolly not going to come out this weekend (haha.. pun there..) cos she hasn't taken our pictures yet :) its supposed to be on the cover i think, so do watch out for it! did the interview with hawx and another NUS guy that i dunno, but i think she should prolly have interviewed kids also haha.. coincidentally, we all have about similar ranks, but i'm the highest ranked among those interviewed.. (MUAHAHAHAHA)

hanping met me at funan cos he wanted to cut his hair.. but i dun think it was very well done. he looked rather silly (although neater) cos his hair's too thin for those in between length where u can see the scalp yet u still look untidy.. :(

haven't been sleeping very well these few nights.. i have dreams i can't remember, and i keep waking up in the middle of the night. after that i have difficulty getting back to dreamland and i wake up at like 7am again and after that doze in and out of sleep.. leaving me unable to feel very rested the next day. :( anyone knows of any gd psychiatrist? i think i got alot of internal knots (xin jie) to get rid of b4 i can finally sleep soundly once more.

watched Best Bet! its pretty good actually, despite having a lot of cheesy songs haha.. quite a gd story line, its meaningful enuff and close to a singaporean's heart. the dialect at first was a little hard to swallow, but after awhile it became pretty funny.. :) go watch it!

tiring day today... morning early tuition.. was so blur i lost my way, saw the wrong block on my paper twice and wandered ard abit b4 finding the correct place..then erm realised i need to revise my A maths. :S after that went to Wei laoshi's husband's wake. haiz. its a sad story. and she was too busy with other students to entertain us oso, but its ok .. she looks so thin, i hope she takes better care of herself..

after that fell asleep on the bus and went to tuition again and the mom made me stay another 1.5 hours for her other son. damn it. so tired after that. :( argh. time to rest.

went JB today, did so many things with onli $50!! eyebrow trimmin is like only S$5, and the food is like half price etc etc. bought the frens dvd set as well. :) seasons 1-7. woohoo!!

veri pissed at the malaysia immigration. they are Sooooooo bloody slow. we queued for 2 hours at the checkpoint to get into JB and by the time we went in, it was 3.30pm. :( had lunch at a duck rice stall (first time i wandered to anywhere besides city square) it was pretty good! then after that when we left JB at 9+pm, we got stuck at the malaysia side again. only 4 counters were open. .... bloody inefficient. in comparison, when we reached the singapore side, the queues were quite long but there were like 8 counters open. and when the customs officer saw that alot more pple were coming in, they opened up 2 more counters. damn gd service! :) so proud to be a singaporean. sucky malaysian immigration.. :( wat a waste of time. reached home at like 11. tired sia...

2 tuition sessions today, quite fulfilling, was a little irritated that these kids dun make an effort to think at all, haiz. aniway, met hanping for dinner at pasta cafe (yay!) and i finally tried something new. a great breakthrough, considering the only dish i ever eat there is the sambal marinara.. ate the seafood risotto and i feel that its quite nice, but doesn't match up to the sambal marinara at all. heh.

finally, the sony service centre has shifted to wisma. (from commonwealth the ulu place)n i happened to be there so i went to enquire bout my MD remote control. its quite disappointing to have them tell me that the stock hasn't been shifted from the commonwealth side yet. damn.

i need new slippers/sandals!! and went to flash & splash after dinner to see if there was anithing i could get from there.. there were LOADS!! arghh.. this cool faded denim bag, veri cool jackets with faux fur-lined collars and veri sweet looking white pullovers with blue stripes.. BUT.. the prices were not veri cool.. so ... had to just bite my tongue and walk out.. :(

poor hp is so tired after his few days of training cum work he slept all the way back on the bus.. hmm.. tk care dear..

i have deduced that i'm suffering from post-Friends depression. after watching the last episode of season 10, there is nothing to look forward to in sitcoms and nothing to switch on my kazaa for any more. :( watching the old episodes do make me slightly happier but not as happy as if there were more new plot to look forward to. the last episode was kind of disappointing. the birth process of monica and chandler's adopted baby was too rushed, rachel and ross' lines were a little too cheesy, and the ending left me feeling very hollow. sad that things were ending but not satisfied that it ended that way. with a lame parting shot. :( feeling a huge sense of loss. haiz.

could barely wake up this morning. watched Harry Potter & the prisoner of Azkaban last nite and it was pretty gd. at least the monsters were of a higher quality than the phoenix in the Chamber of Secrets (remember it looked like a chicken?) . but they changed alot of the plot sequence, and it was a little irritating. pretty exciting throughout, good casting of the new teachers but i always visualised Prof Lupin to be more handsome than the nerdy guy the movie's using now. and erm, Gandulf looks a little comical as Dumbledore, not so dignified as the past actor who's passed away. but it's worth watching. :)

after that had supper with hp and his hall mates at boon lay.. at first i wanted supper cos i was hungry, but after that i didn't have much appetite cos i was sleepy. haiz. then realised my camera had a longtime exposure function. hehe... its fun! but still have to learn how to use it properly..

the same figure from my nightmare came back. (refer to June 03's entry). this time it got closer. it had taken a step into my room and i could see his face. Yes, its a he. with stubbly unshaven face and very fierce eyes that was blood red and piercing. the scenario was almost totally the same, except this time, there was no sis to come in and save me out. i saw him at the door, tried to get up, took a softtoy from my bed and weakly tried to throw it at him but did not succeed and he just pointed menacingly a finger at me to pin me down on the bed with some supernatural powers bah. no sound came from me and just suddenly, my consciousness was dragged back into nitemare world. argh, its still so vivid, my chest hurts still (where he supernaturally held me back). of course needless to say, i didn't wake up feeling fresh at all. and made my sis take down the horrible mobile from my door frame immediately. think i'll go to the temple soon.

2 tuition sessions today.. basically a day of zoboing.. rite now i'm tearing out stuff that i wanna keep from my old magazines.. classified into groups like health, food, recipes and so on.

saw 3-legged cat last week. dunno why it suddenly came to mind. abit of racking my brains for topics to write. it was realli pathetic, hobbling around, but i dunno wat to do with it.

am reading a article bout Psychosis. its a little coincidental how i come across this article in a one year old magazine (june 2003 Cleo) the same weekend i saw the poster in the mrt station. its supposed to be a loss of contact with reality. a little like the disease in Beautiful Mind, but no alter personalities kinda thing. the person will appear paranoid, thinking someone/something is stalking her/him, and also hear or see non-existent things. the person also starts to neglect her appearance, and isolates herself increasingly from others, besides having lotsa difficulty concentrating or falling asleep. in short, the person will start to behave and look psycho. (imagine someone with long straggly hair walking ard in pyjamas toking to invisible pple, kinda like sadako.. !!) aniway, if u come across anione with Psychosis symptoms, u could get a info booklet by calling 6389-2972 from the MOH..

saw an article on contraceptives too. did u noe there are 7 types of The Pill alone? so confusing, they all have different dosages of different hormones, mainly oestrogen and progestrogen, to stop ovulation.. *blurs*

tried to tidy up my room.. most constructive thing that i did was to arrange my cds and get rid of all the spoilt ones. so much rubbish that i've thrown away 3 NTUC bags of rubbish and my room seems even more messy than b4. basically, i'm throwing away alot of things i've kept since childhood. many of these are actually useless but i just keep them cos i can't bear to throw them away. like magazines and all that. argh. i better get on with it.

finally got my long awaited dragon in gunbound tonite woohoo!! that's me in the angel suit (alexxis) riding the purple dragon.. cute hor? :P

CFA today. its finally over.. although i think i prolly have to go back in december to tk it again hehe.. it's a killer! i'm glad i'm still alive.. the paper was so different from the sample papers given.. alot of similar answers and all.. argh.. mCQ sux..

been downloading alot of chicago songs today. dunno why, but i just have this need to hear the songs and believe that love exists. and to believe in love again. just this sudden loss of faith in emotions, can't help but ask myself, does love really exist? I need to trust, I need to believe again.

went to see the Pinnacle today.. the duxton rd BTO HDB flats.. it was quite cool, and we can actualli envision ourselves living in it. hahah.. cool sia.. and then opened a CPF investment acc, changed my starhub sim card, hmm..

then became a free PC show helper for hp, (after i finished my studies for the day of course) and met a few of his frens and bizness associates.. ok veri tired now.. zz

had a horrific nitemare last night. woke up still stuck in the nightmare. dreamt that i went mountain climbing and the scene was like in one of the movies where the rope hit a snag and the father had to sacrifice himself to save the daughter. then after that, the survivors started seeing things (including me) as we carried on our daily business. kept seeing vague figures moving towards me from the corner of my eyes and i woke up because i dreamt that i was in my bed and this white figure was approaching me. and i was paralyzed in my bed apparently. was trying to scream to my sisters for help but i didn't realise no sound was coming out. until my sis realli came in becos she heard a gasp from me when she walked past my room, i hadn't realise i had already woken up at that point where i was trying to scream for help. its like when she came in, i suddenli could see that the white figure approaching me was a far white frame of the door and a mobile she had made for me which had merged to become 1 figure due to my short-sightedness. despite the realization that i was awake (and safe), the fear was real and i could still hear my heart pounding. my sis was shocked that i was so scared cos she could feel my heartbeat as i held her hand to make sure i had oredi woken up.

wonder if this has anything to do with our visit to changi village and ECP last nite. could we have bumped into anithing dirty?

my sis just found hamchan dead in his cage. haiz. he's a hamster by the way. a robo. its so sad, he's been with the family for bout 2 years. rest in peace little hamchan.. u'll be dearly missed by our family. :(

watched shrek 2. it's hilArious!! esp the part spoofing Mission Impossible.. MUAHAHA!! kids really shouldn't watch this.. its pretty RA for a cartoon.. my fav character is the donkey still.. super crappy! laughed until i almost dieded.. but haiz.. had some things troubling me.. so didn't enjoy the show as much.. :(