i just miss u so very much. :( i didn't message u in the day cause i wan to appear as unemotional as u, so that it would seem like i didn't care and i could be as independent as well.. but i still think of u in the day, wondering wat u were doing and if u were missing me too. wat are u really thinking of? do u notice that i'm MIA?

met jon for the first time today and we went to watch 13 going on 30 at lido.. gs was supposed to go with us but he was too busy with his studies.. :(

the movie was quite good.. very touching at the end.. actually more of very sad and i ended up crying a little.. haven seen such a light-hearted show for so long, the way the poor kid was stuck in the woman's body was really funny.. but jEaNnieZ's blog was rite.. her body shape was really funny.. she looks too well-built and muscular and she walks funny in heels.. think she was much more suited for Alias.. looks cooler there anyway.. but its a good weekday show.. not a must-catch, but not something you would regret catching either .. :)

ahh.. to continue, my sis bought the printer and we had to drag it ard suntec. then there were some people that were realli morons.

i was dragging a trolley behind me and it was so crowded, of cos i couldn't keep making sure i dun hit anione, at least i kept looking back to make sure i didn't accidentally trip anione as i dragged it along.. However, some morons (a particular woman) had to try to step in btw the little bit of space btw me and the trolley to get a step ahead in front of everyone. obviously, i didn't have eyes behind my head, and i was only making sure the end of the trolley didn't trip anione from behind, u wan to step in btw me and the trolley, and u trip and nearly fall flat, who is there to blame?

YOURSELF!

and she still dare to glare at my sis and grumble really loudly about people who dun look where they drag their trolleys to purposely hurt other pple. super dulan, i said really loudly to my sister,

"what Happened? wat? the IDIOTIC woman tried to step between me and the trolley? she STUPID or wat? printer so big cannot see ah? my eyes at the back of my head meh? want to be kiasu blame other pple for wat?"

i think she heard me, considering she was walking behind me and she was grumbling to her fren really loudly to let me hear her words as well. too bad for her i didn't catch a single word she said, almost wanted to turn ard and slap her for bring a moron and kicking up a fuss when it was her own fault. grr.. it doesn't pay to cross me when i'm having a flu and feeling hungry with a major headache..

aniway, then at nite, hp passed me his extra wireless Lan card so basically, i've un-wired my home into a wireless networked home.. :) ALL BY MYSELF! muahahaha... now.. have to figure out how to share the laser printer from the living room..

was at comex the whole day again.. sis bought a laser printer: Xerox phaser 3115.. the cheapest laser printer ard.. at $219, it was a steal compared to the next cheapest HP printer at $299..

ok brain abit dead.. continue my story tomolo..

yikes. i caught the flu bug.. :(

anyway, turns out that so many people i noe went comex yesterday at the same time i did but i only managed to see one (not counting the pple working there).. and the person i met was the most unexpected person i had tot i would meet.. he doesn't need to work meh? weird.. and is the girl the same one i saw at orchard with him as well? hmm.. *switching into gossip mode*.. i hope she noes wat he's really like.. ? hahaha..

b4 i fell asleep last nite, my tots inadvertently turned to my past bfs. was thinking bout wat went wrong with each of the relationships and when it came to jx, i couldn't help it but started feeling pissed off again. Is it actually normal? its been nearly a whole year, and i still manage to feel anger (thats quite intense) whenever the thought of him pops up.. maybe its becos we nv properly ended things and met up after that to go on to the remaining frens part. he said we were frens still but i haven seen ani sign of it at all and i hate such hypocrites. I tot about the rest of the guys, and i realised it was only him that didn't keep in touch. as in, the rest, we could still amicably chat online, can even meet up for coffee, that realli we would actually make an effort to catch up on each others' lives, but for him, he didn't bother to wan to remain real frens at all. so i guess thats wat i'm angry at him for still. i've of course gotten over him.. but i'm angry at pple who dun keep promises or reciprocate frenship when they're supposed to be frens? wat a jerk.

comex 2004!! heh.. so happy today.. this is the only IT show that i went home with my hands full.. finally subscribed to maxonline! Free Xbox.. !! yay!!! finally... decided to just downgrade my singnet all the way to dialup cheapest plan to keep my email add before phasing it out in future.. and i'm so happy about getting an xbox.. its transparent white.. cool hor? now asking ard for the cheapest place to mod it.. then getting the games from my tuition kid to burn on my dvdwriter.. muahaha.. also bought a router and an access point so that i can finally wireless network the house.. WOOHOO!

my sis dragged me out of bed this morning to go for the biotherm skin consultation session in SMU. turns out.. the skin consultation is like a one-minute thing (my skin has super low hydration level by the way).. the whole of the next hour was spent queueing up for a free makeover :P and the makeover took like 40 min? now i noe why some girls take so long to dress up.. aniway.. in the end, i look quite ok.. abit over done on the eyes, not suitable for daywear again heh..

check out the blue eyes.. hehe.. this pict makes me look like i'm in the sea or something..

not bad, got a free sample pouch package from them, and i bought makeup brushes for $20 for a set of 5.. very worth it.. :)

we had a training session for the Nokia promoters in the evening.. I think I'll enjoy working with the other people :)

i had a strange interview today. had to speak jap and there was an american translator who could speak totally fluent jap. I'm very impressed. i'm now praying for the best, hopefully my dreams can come true becos of this. pls pls pls let my dreams be fulfilled!!!!

went for Nokia promoter interview at the last min cos i needed the cash.. i think i got in, but it depends.. on whether the lady liked me.. wasn't much of an interview, she toked bout the job and looked at my form (with impressive roadshow experiences) and then took my pict. weird kinda interview..

caught The Collateral with hp at PS. (Neil Humphreys was right, s'pore is really the land of acronyms) it was good.. not gory hitman action but more of a psychological type of movie. I can't put a category to it; its not really a thriller, there wasn't like alot of actions or stunts, but quite a fair bit of the movie focused on how the cab driver interacted with the hitman and the insights of life they gleaned from each other. the ending was sort of a twist, but the final final ending was quite disappointing. predictable, in some sense. but i enjoyed the movie.. lived up to my expectations.. i'm more of a plot person, sucker for witty lines rather than all action and lame talk.

oh, coincidentally, Joanne Peh (miss universe finalist) was in the same theatre watching the same show with a guy, probably her boyfriend (since he was hugging her in the lift after the show..) .. in singapore a celebrity really can't have much private life since there aren't many places to hide with ur other half... my advice to these pple would be just to come clean and admit it, at least pple won't gossip bout news u're not hiding.. (it won't be worth gossiping about if you told us about it urself rite?)

apparently, my clubbing entry from friday has caused a bit of confusion. when i said "thanx wei... so glad u went into uni at this time", wei is my sis. also known as evelyn... not a new boyfren or anithing. and to clarify, its cos of all her bashes that i'm allowed to tag along with hp to these events, without my mom blowing up a big fuss! heh...

i can't remember wat i did yesterday.

after some brain-wrecking, i remembered. hair treatment, got my insurance policy, ran some errands and then home. a bitch sat next to me on the bus and she wasn't cute and furry. she was loud and kept hitting her boyfren, gesticulating wildly in her speech, and kept shoving me with her bag. BiTch.

it was a tiring day.

have forgotten how good it felt to be clubbing with a boyfren until tonite. superb fun. i'm glad i went to chinablack. thanx wei... so glad u went into uni at this time :P

music was hip hop, my fav, although after that it degenerated to retro. not to say that retro sux, but retro is only fun at mambo where everyone is doing the same hand actions.. here, everyone just shaking and moving around.. but since the place was packed, the mood was all there.. totally stress-relieving but wallet-busting.. have to skip meals for the next few days le..

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je vais bien! heh..

don't you just hate it when some people are so insensitive they deflate your happiness with some hurting words? i don't know if they mean it, or its just that they've had a bad day, but I totally lost any euphoria I was feeling and dropped back down to feel as pissed towards them as I could.

would you drop a friend if your other half hates her? especially guys. would you stop seeing your gd fren who is female, throw away the frenship becos the girlfren hates the gd fren? perhaps you have been a tad too close to her in the past, but it really isn't any of the girlfren's business then was it? since she wasn't even his girlfren yet? esp that the gd fren didn't bother you much cos u wanted her not to, and now u tell the girlfren the "truth" bout how u and the gd fren were quite close, the girlfren feels hurt (i dun see why she feels hurt, its not like the bf is cheating on her or has cheated on her b4) and gets all pissed and sullen when ever he chats to her online (very seldom in fact) and now she definitely will get upset if he meets the gd fren at all (not even once in the past 6 months have they met) so he has to cut their frenship short?

I value friendship more than that. i hope you remember that i was there for you when you were feeling most down. and when you were crying, i comforted you. and made the effort to save up get you something you like for your bday even when i had to cut back on my own spending. now becos of a new girl in your life, you're telling me that it upsets her to know of my existence. it was your fault that she is upset..

WHOOOOOPEEE!!!!!!

did i mention that i bought the new Jay Chou album? its so-so.. quite disappointing.. i prefer his singing to his rapping. he seems to have developed a style of using children to rap for him. which is super irritating. and he seems to have developed a style of using handphone tones as part of his music's melody, another distasteful point as well.. there are the good songs, tracks number 2, 4, 6 and one more that i can't remember, mainly those that are the real songs with him singing and soothing melody. listening to qi li xiang and ge dian again and again..

this must be the longest i haven't blogged for.

nothing much has happened, save for the final fireworks display. it's beautiful.. and marks the end of this year's national day celebrations.. I feel kind of sad that i didn't get to watch NDP. nor the prime minister handover ceremony. all historical events. haiz. I realise I'm fiercely patriotic. I'll actually get angry at pple who keep talking bout other countries that are better etc etc. why dun you leave if you dun like it here so much? our education system is globally renowned, ignoring the stress and all, and in which country is it actually safe to walk anywhere anytime without having to watch out for muggers and murderers?

I was watching the multi-cultural performance at the SMU convocation ceremony yesterday and it actually brought tears to my eyes. Well, partly it was cos my contacts were very dry, but more importantly, it was also i was feeling very proud to be Singaporean. that our country has such a rich diversity of traditions and cultures and yet losing none of it along all these years of nation-building and industrialisation.

When minister of Env Lim Swee Say gave his speech in the half broken english tone typical of the older ministers, i cringed at first, but got drawn into his story when he spoke of grassroots problems. Everyday life that related to most people. And his joke was funny. :) it was met with resounding applause, cos it was just so singaporean. about how he mistook mashed potatoes for ice cream as a homesick undergrad in UK some 31 years ago. after him, Mr Ho Kwon Ping, chairman of SMU, gave his speech. but he made me cringe even more. he was speaking with a American accent. and he used alot of big words in his speech. a huge contrast to Mr Lim, and not really in a good way. i would just say that i felt uncomfortable listening to him. good english is one thing, but to hear an american accent from someone so distinctly singaporean as a public figure was disappointing. just some personal opinions. but the tribute video by the students to professor Ronald Frank was touching. Apt music, touching subtitles, nolstagic pictures. although i dunno him, if the video was for me, I would be crying at the end of it.

i am just so tired. more to lack of sleep than anithing else, but still... :(

went to california fitness yesterday cos i got some free 10 day trial thing, they were quite rude, hard sell and the manager was very manly (imagine xena sporting a china doll haircut and face looking super mannish?) disgusting right? as expected us, they kept pushing for us to buy, but its still too ex, and i really just wan to try out first. so irritating.. they should know their customers!! they could just possibly kill my interest with their tactics.. :(

haircut day! try the Yess Salon at cineleisure.. there's a 30% off for students and apparently their lead stylist is quite famous in the hairdressing circles.. shorter and straighter hair again.. :)

this morning woke up horrendously early to queue up for some printer that was on offer for $5.50. Becos hp wanted to get it.. in the end.. we were too late. such a good offer, of cos by the time we reach, there was a long queue le..only limited to 55 pple.. anyway.. wasted our time..

a little panicky at the tuition kid. he hasn't studied and next week is his common test!! .. and his family isn't helping him much.. i dunno how to help him le..

great day today! finally hp has his off day again.. and he came my place to have a swim and tan. but.. the sun had to choose to hide today.. so after an hour of swimming and waiting ard.. in the end came up to satisfy his potato chip craving and watched the last episode of frens together.. since he hasn't watched it b4..

had to cut the day short when i went for tuition. but.. totally looking forward to his next off day again.. :)

happy 39th Birthday Singapore!

wished i had tix to NDP, and i missed the parade cos of tuition anyway, so didn't catch the fireworks at all :(

rotted today, sooo sleepy cos i'm starting to develop habits of waking up at 9 despite sleeping at 2. ARGHH!! shall go sleep super early tonite..

fireworks festival was great. breathtaking in fact. but i feel that the US team was actually better. in the sense that their fireworks lasted longer in the air. singapore's ones just burst into colours and disappeared without a trace.. not veri good for photography.. :( but on the whole, marvellous, although i wished it was longer. but.. looking on the bright side, took some really good shots.. sharing it with u pple ..
Fireworks festival 2004

i have no stomach for war movies. I don't enjoy seeing arms/legs or any human parts being blasted out by shrapnel or by accidental mines. the love the brothers had for each other were touching. but it seems like in tough situations such as war, you abandon all forms or conscience or humanity you have when you're forced to fight for your survival. You want to kill the enemy because they have killed your friends and your family but you forget that these enemies are humans too. and they prolly were drafted to fight as unwillingly as you were, for the sake of their family. but as time go by, as you see more of these enemies killing your soldier friends, you hate them and kill them for revenge, not patriotism anymore. wat's the true aim of war? how are any problems solveD? you throw a bunch of people in a battlefield, they have to fight else they die. and the side with more survivors gain domination?

I think i'm a peace advocator. war really doesn't solve any problems.

taegukgi is similar to saving private ryan. i have a headache now from all the killing and fighting. will think about it in the morning when i recover.

ate at the hawker's square (or wat do they call it?) area in front of centrepoint last nite. tons of pple.. but cos it was quite late le, not difficult to find seats.. actually, I dun see wat the fuss was about..its just a normal hawker centre except its a temporary one (albeit to recreate the atmosphere of the past) in the midst of orchard Road? i wan to say which food is more popular, but due to the kiasu attitude of most pple & the novelty of having a big hawker centre in orchard road, there were long queues at every stall. I had the chicken rice and it was ok.. just that it was weird they provided fork and spoon to eat rice in a bowl. -_-!

We were sitting across this table of homosexuals though. Which almost ruined my appetite. I'm not against gays or anything, but I'm against sissy behaviour. & girly behaviour. Particularly from Men. I mean, I dun care wat ur sexual preference is, but you don't have to behave like a girl if you choose to make ur bod as buffed and beefed up as Arnold the terminator rite? when i see girls whining, i feel like slapping them. when i see men whining, i can't help but cringe and my insides all turn to mush (as in the kind of mush that makes u wan to puke). When i see Beefy men whine (at other beefy men), i have to use all my willpower to restrain myself from puking and after puking, giving them a good hard kick in their balls to make them behave the only manly way they know how to. urgh. henceforth, i've realised i'm sissy-phobic.

today went to simlim, walked ard until my legs hurt and apparently, there's a major MP3 player sale on the first floor. cos it was all branded gds, not that cheap, the cheapest was $199. not worth it.

frens jio-ed me to watch midnite Brotherhood. actually was supposed to be evening show. But, didn't noe it was still so popular, tried to book it bout an hour b4 the show and there was oni 3 seats left. BOOOO..

I'm In THE NEWS I'M In THE NEWS!!

heh.. in the papers actually.. for the gunbound article.. The STORY

but FYI, my name is Jocelyn.. (not JoYcelyn) and i graduated from Computing.. (not comp engin)..

:)

yay! hp's off day today.. relaxed at his place today... played dynasty warrior on PS2 the whole afternoon and had delicious bak kut teh at the market opposite his block. the soup was rich in flavour and the pig's trotters was super fatty, totally suits my taste.. :P

sad that had to leave for tuition at bout 7. drats.

i got shortlisted for the Capcom EDB training test! to be a programmer though.. i hope they are testing logic and analysis skills cos i have all that! just that i'm too lazy to properly learn java :(

supper at fong seng.. actually dinner.. and it was packed. full of orientation uni students. haiz. nolstagic of the days when i was one of them. didn't realise we were such a rowdy bunch though. :P i felt pretty old.. although, i'm sure i actually looked like one of them. LOL.

just read another book today.. (i'm on a roLL!)
Meg Cabot's Boy Meets Girl

cool story, with loads of romance, twists, horrible bosses, evil people and best frens, etc etc. typical bestselling type novel? hmm.. dun really know how to describe it, but its the kind of novel that will give u a warm feeling in ur heart/tummy at the end of it cos it ends well :P furthermore the book is written in a mixture of methods, conversations, emails, memos, etc so that u have to link it up urself. :)

guosen treated me & stan to curry fish head today.. as a thank u for helping him with his comp ;) once again.. they underestimated their apetites and we had not enuff to eat again.. i'm hungry now le.. :S but it was VERY good curry fish head, at jurong west.. i'm a fish head freak.. the eyes (& the meat under the eyeball) are the best parts! yum..

had an interview this morning, gd chance but crossing my fingers.. not very sure wat they're looking for actually..

finished a book on child abuse: "Wounded Innocents & Fallen Angels" by Gregory K Moffatt..
it tells of the different types of child abuse and child aggression and their symptoms, how adults/parents actually can help the child get over these traumas and prevent any major disaster from happening like suicide/murder etc. From Amazon.com, the book description reads: Moffatt addresses the two sides of this cycle of violence, including examples from clinical case studies and treatment options. He details crimes against children, ranging from Munchausen Syndrome by Proxy, sexual and physical abuse, neglect, filicide, and infanticide, and addresses aggression committed by children against other people, property, and self, including self-mutilation and suicide. I found the book very informative.. although i realise i'm quite a anorexic person (fitting most of the symptoms except puking my food and thinking i'm fat) and i'm also suicidal. :( but some of the cases really shocked me. One of it was a girl who witnessed her father raping and killing her playmate. He had locked her in the front while and raped the fren at the back in full view of his daughter, after which he smashed the playmate's head against the van's floor until she died. and then he threatened his daughter not to tell anyone or she would die too. WHAT KIND OF SICK BASTARD IS THIS? the daughter was only aged 6 years then. and she suppressed the memory until 20 years later when she saw a psychiatrist for depression. There really should be a school for parents. or at least lock all these psychos up instead of letting them become parents who kill kids or other kids.

have discovered the wonders of facials. my face feels so smooth now!! signed up for a few more sessions but as i was a "poor student" they allowed me a discount and instalment payment and some freebies if i paid more money today. paid just enuff for me to be able to use their facilities and for them to need me to go back to pay some more. :) it was pretty relaxing as it included a hand/shoulder/neck/scalp/face massage.. and after getting the few more treatment, i get to use their gym n jacuzzi as and when i wan.. shiok!

I saw a woman yawn outside the bus as I looked out. I thought to myself, "hmm, she must be really tired" and caught myself yawning the next second as well. I didn't realise yawning was THIS contagious. isn't it really quite amazing how our behaviour is so easily influenced by our environment?

reading Life of Pi by Yann Martel..

at first was wondering why the picture on the cover and the blurb was bout this shipwrecked boy and a tiger.. cos the story was this guy telling his life story at first in a really light hearted tone, bout his views on religion and his childhood.. only when i read until him losing his whole family when the ship they were emigrating on sank, and he was stuck on a lifeboat with a Bengal tiger from his dad's zoo then i realised what the book was really about. its bout his survival on his own with the tiger in the same boat for 227 days. still reading it, kinda gruesome when he describes his survival killing tactics.

i can't do nothing on bus/MRT journeys. i think that's how i end up looking like an owl with thick specs. dunno read how many books and magazines on buses and trains le. and it doesn't help tht i read at 1500 wpm; i need at least a thick book or 2 magazines else i'll go crazy with boredom. think thats y i can't sleep well at nite cos my mind is so super active all the time. if i had a dreamless nite, i would actually wake up feeling that something's amiss. i'm abnormal..

realised a person who msged me on wholivesnearyou.com actually really live in my estate. it works!! so we went to orchard today, got his handphone repaired at nokia care, and then walked ard abit until it was time for him to meet his frens and me to meet hp. :)

bought this today.. Issey Miyake's limited edition perfume..

smells gd.. fren who went with me said it smelt really feminine..



some of the free gifts included this bath gel that looked like a condom.. (?!) and also another perfumed bath thingey..


saw a broken carplate and wanted to bring it home.. but was afraid of spirits residing in it? heh. 4D anyone>?

After that watched The dreamers. It was so freaking RA. almost like porn. except it had a plot. the female lead had boobs that looked really weird. her nipples. they didn't look normal.. anyway.. thats the least of it.. the incest part is really gross. how they, as adult siblings still slept and bathed together naked. and how they watched each other masturbate and make love to other pple. and how they used sexual forfeits in all their film games. and there were scenes of 2 grown men bathing together. with the sister of course. all in a tub. i mean, how do these scenes actually fit into the story bout french revolution and the students then? besides showing they're incestuous, callous and just full of talk? i'm quite disturbed.