千六百： American Gangster

Went to watch the movie with C, (another C.. I realise I noe alot of Cs) and i realised i really becoming more scaredy cat with age. The bombing scene startled a gasp out of me (i think i was the only person who gasped in the cinema), and I don't like watching violent shootings!! but the story was good, the way he did business was very cool, his drive to make himself richer than others was very motivating as well, given his environment. & learnt that heroin and opium both came from poppy. (only knew about the opium from poppy from all the historical chinese movies..) I dunno why they had to make the thai heroin boss so ah qua (with makeup?!) though, even though he was dressed in a military uniform. hmm. but good acting by Denzel Washington, not used to him acting as the baddie this time. Russell Crowe abit too chubby to look cooler than him though.

Boss is in town but didn't see her in the office at all except once. sighz. still can't believe she isn't going to be our boss soon.

Dental appt tomorrow. Felt super crappy this morning, i had a weird nitemare last nite about me trying to fly to escape from prison and then to avoid being caught by sneaking around and avoid being shot as well. Only woke up when my mom woke me up and i woke up with a gasp only to realise I was holding my breath throughout. (well u would oso be holding your breath if you were escaping capture and sneaking around) Head ached throughout the day and tummyache oso, with me feeling nauseaus and having no appetite the whole day, all thanks to the nightmare. I hope to sleep better tonight...

千五百九十九： Fatigue

Tired.

Eyes been feeling tired these few days, the late working hours are really taking a toll on me. I feel listless during work although yesterday and the day before, I could finally sleep better.

& I had some weird dreams which I enjoyed. The night before, I dreamt that K had came here earlier than planned and surprised me. I was happy to see him but I can't remember how it ended. I think it was the morning that I couldn't wake up because I so did not want the dream to end. Last night, I dreamt of meeting robbers who pointed guns at me but S was beside me and he managed to fend off the robbers and we managed to escape. Then weirdly, because the robbers were waiting outside the house, S couldn't leave and he just shared my bed & cuddled with me for the night. Interesting. But weird. haha.

BBQ tmr at teammate's place in Bishan after french lessons. I realised I haven't stepped in the North area ever since i stopped meeting HP.

I need some work motivation. Today I saw Mr B twice. Early in the morning, they were having breakfast in the office cafe then his wife came along. sighz.. she looks more pregnant than ever. Then he sorta smiled at me when I waved at someone else at his table, but its hard to smile back at him (cos i feel guilty smiling at him when his wife is at the same table). It seems like i'm being dao when I don't even say hi to him when other people are around but i really don't want to even hv a little bit of crush on him at all because he is married and his wife is so pregnant! if he is alone, fine, i would just mouth hi/bye but just feel super shy when he is around. argh.

listening to David Tao's songs these few days. kinda depressing, cos his songs are mostly love songs that have very sad lyrics. :( I have the desire to just quit my job immediately and go JP w/o any reason just to be able to be around Ryo. Stupid. but I really can't bear this LDR thing anymore. You think u get used to it, to the alone thing, but its really not true; you are only just pushing urself until you reach the limit when you can't stand the loneliness anymore then u break up with him or do something drastic. Its alot easier to push urself when u have something to look forward to, but w/o anything to look forward to, what's there to keep pushing you to go on??

I had dinner with Shinji & Akane at Pasta Cafe and am glad they enjoyed the food. (cos we reached there quite late and had to queue for a while & I was the one who suggested the place and dragged them there.. ) was having that kind of mood when I laughed i couldn't stop, probably due to fatigue thus having lost control of the ability to control myself. sighz.

Ok, must focus on my studies and get all these messy stuff out of my head.

千五百九十八： Fly kite

I always wondered what goes on in C's mind to be able to go to church as a Catholic, to volunteer for children's camp, to fetch kids to sunday school, yet treat relationships so lightly. Its hard to commit more than superficially, even as friends, because it is not my end who can't or won't take out time for him but he is the one who cancels on appts on a regular basis. Out of 10 appts, it's best to make other plans for at least 9 of them for the same day because he will probably not make the appt or cancel on you at the last minute. sighz.

& try this if u have time, this is a big improvement from touch typing lessons in secondary school at 35 words per minute:
67 words

Touch Typing

千五百九十七： 桃太郎電鉄

Played 桃太郎 on DS with Shinji & Hiroki this evening, its turning out to be a daily thing, and having a monopoly styled game to compete on was super fun.

Managed to complete everything at 6plus, (six heures plus) and received some good and bad news from Ryo. Good news is that the work trip here is about confirmed, bad news is that his work trip here is only for probably a day. :( sianz. then after that, he's heading to Dubai and Hong Kong. sighz. sighz. I didn't realise I miss him so much. I want to join his trip, but I don't think I can pull out the time from work even if my boss approves my leave. :( & I must stop all contact with unsavoury acquaintances.

There haven't been much good movies lately, but then I been trying hard to save money also. I want to watch maybe Sweeney Todd / Cloverfield.

Boss will be here next week. Will be her last trip to Sg as our team leader. sighz. I don't like farewells.

& R.I.P. Heath Ledger, one of my favourite actors. I'm shocked by his passing on, accidental I want to believe. sighz. Condolences to his family..

千五百九十六： Please just let me sleep well

finally a chance to finish by 5.30pm today.

I had to wait for my sister, so I had mario party games with Shinji & Hiroki till 7pm. very fun and took my mind off quite alot of things.

I think its the chicken essence thats adding to my insomnia.

I better get to sleep now that I'm feeling a rare bout of sleepiness.

千五百九十五： Nightmares

Haven't been sleeping well the past week. nightmares every night, about work, about missing flights and I would wake up with a start wondering where I am. :( I have resorted to not drinking any single caffeinated or sweetened drinks, just to try to get some undisturbed sleep at night. I hope tonight I can sleep better tonight.

千五百九十四： C'est une erreur!!

French class today, practised alot of conversation and started on numbers. some people were so spaced out they held up the whole class, and I'm wondering why they're there. They don't want to speak up when the teacher asks them to answer and just look all shy etc. come language class dun wan to learn to speak then come for wat!?

anyway, went for tea with akane after the lesson and we ate french fries at NYDC while waiting for K to call me for dinner. we were discussing how to make the best of the step up account while not missing up on the step up interest. came up with someways, but dunno if it will work so needs very good timing and coordination in moving money around. she was also sharing with me on how she was investing her money and got more of an idea of what i need to do soon. but first abit more research to make sure i don't make too many fatal mistakes.

K finally reached Orchard at about 8pm and he treated me to dinner at Modesto's. Great service, all the waiters were prompt and attentive and they kept updating us about our order, and reassuring us when our food isn't here yet etc. when they saw me walking towards them, they immediately pointed me in the direction of the loo w/o me having to ask. :D food was pretty good as well; we had the seafood pasta for 2. I think this is the first time we had proper dinner together, just the 2 of us, and its very comfortable to just chat about anything and everything. His gf can speak french too!! cos she lived in france for a year plus due to work. pretty cool ~~ I wan to be able to do that, so maybe after my contract is up, maybe can get a working holiday visa or something.

& I can't find the working holiday visa everyone keep telling me about btw singapore and Japan. where got?!

千五百九十三： Rain

reached home late again. luckily there was shelter all the way to the bus stop and that the rain only got heavier again when I had reached the outside of my estate. ran in and the rain started pattering.

the bulk of my work came about because i had to recheck other people's work and edit. sighz.

at least there's only 1 more day to the weekend.

千五百九十二： 爆弾

First time I had to work until 10pm in many many months. Its actually all of the US people's fault, sent out email w/o properly making sure it was the right tool and wasted our morning of testing time. Told us there was 2 hours of downtime, but actually we weren't impacted by the downtime at all and caused us to wait until 2pm before we started work on the tests.

Tired. Barely had time to breathe and then another question comes flying into my face. Have to remember to help print stuff for my sis and post the bill for the other sis also.　& to photocopy french notes for YH & Akane. head about to explode soon.

千五百九十一： また？！

2nd week of the new year at work, and more bad news. Something from my boss, and then in the evening heard something more about another boss. AHHHH!!! why this year so messy!?! Just when I thought things had settled down at work. ...

I went with 吉岡さん to the Chanel Spring Collection 2008 session at Shangri-La this evening and there was a famous make up artist from Chanel International showcasing their products and sharing makeup tips. Unfortunately i'm trying very hard to remember his name now and I only remember it starts with Y. argh!! He was very friendly, very funny as well, and enjoyed the evening listening to his tips and watching his deft and experienced hands proceed to come up with magic on the model's face with the make up brushes.

After the event, had a good chat with 吉岡さん about work. hmm. its always good to chat with seniors and get a feel of wats going on in the whole company (and the politics) and to find out what they actually expect of locals and how they see them. I am glad I am going about things the right way.. but feeling quite lost at work w/o much leadership. I mean, being able to function independently is great, but wat if sometimes you need some guidance? sighz.

I forgot we have a new hamster in the house. His name is.. Hamster for the time being. while I try to stuff him with several languages. hoho.

千五百九十： BBQ

G held a BBQ at his place today since his wife was in from Seattle for a week plus and K was leaving sg soon to go back to Seattle. or Reno? and it was J's advanced bday celebration as well, and surprisingly almost everyone who could, brought their other halves. *envious..* I arrived a little late and all the food was gone. ... too fast this time, and then the food that was left was cooked with garlic. hmmmm. wat happened to sambal?? I can't stand the taste of garlic/onions, no matter how hungry, so just tried to eat a little and after the BBQ, we headed to Raffles City for somemore food. Most of the restaurants were already closed so we went to Thai Express, & I ordered a tom yam soup and beef rice while the rest of the team ordered thai coffee and desserts. had a surprisingly fun nite (?) during the thai express dinner, with the conversation being so funny that I was laughing more than I was eating.

Currently listening to Clazziquai, a Korean alternative group who collaborated with m-flo before and I liked the sound of their music so decided to give their group's album a try. Quite funky, acoustic sounds, very ez on the ear. They also sang the theme song for Lovely Samsoon, the korean drama, 我愛金三順, so i gotta check out that song again haha.

Have decided to relax tomorrow and try out the leather jewellery making and beads again since i've neglected that for quite long due to studying on weekends. :D good night!

千五百八十九； Long weekend ahead!

Monday is a public holiday - 成人の日。The day where all Japanese kids turn into adults because they become 20 years old this year. The girls will dress into their kimonoes and guys in suits and there will actually be a ceremony in each town to celebrate the event for these teenagers. I only seen the event on TV before but I saw the kids in kimonoes and they look so pretty :)

Attending another makeover event next week with the girls cos of a Citibank promo, but this one is alot alot cheaper, dunno whether will have photos so I'm going to bring my camera anyway. :D

Still in the office actually, after a long DS 対戦 session with Shinji & Hiroki, had alot of fun playing multiplayer games like 太鼓の達人、応援団、やわらかい頭 (Big Brain Academy) and Mario Kart. with me being the big winner for most games. :p ok la, only cos i played the games b4.

Starting French lessons tomorrow, so excited! then bbq with colleagues on sunday, nuahing at home on Monday and my sis will be back next week.

千五百八十八： HARBS

does this make u hungry?

mouth-watering strawberry cake

This piece of strawberry cake is from HARBS, a premium cake cafe in Japan. super super super delicious cake, quite expensive though, but Ryo loves it and we always have it when we meet up. I want some cake!!

千五百八十七； Pokemon League

Finally reached the last stage of the game.

I got nothing interesting going on for me recently.

The office is in pretty low morale cos of 2 deaths in the past 3 days. 1 of a manager who was not too old and still healthy, and another one suddenly of a colleague's father. Last week, an employee in Capcom was murdered by his dad. luckily it wasn't someone i knew personally. Thought it was gruesome when I saw the news on tv, only when Ryo got the call later from HR, then we realised that was an employee who got murdered. =.=

Its tiring to be mad/depressed.

& also to worry whether your loved ones are next to go.

千五百八十六： back to work

photos from the trip:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/alexxis/sets/72157603658706983/

we didn't set a date for the next trip.

My bond will be ending on 2008 July. Finally free. 2 years is pretty fast when u're travelling all the time.

Osaka was super cold.

my ex team leader treated me to sushi on my last day in Osaka. interrogated him about his secret gf. i told him he's going to be an おじさん like ryo soon if he is still so picky. He said he has already decided to be single and have many girlfrens.

busy at work today cos UAT has began again. it wasn't long ago when I was URC, but I feel like I'm new at this again. this month I have higher pay to look forward to, but i've done up a monthly budget so that I can have enough money to buy a new laptop at the end of this year. If there is any extra, maybe I can do Lasik as well. 頑張ります！！

千五百八十五： 2008

5th day of 2008, 2nd last day of my trip.

I wondered if I should set any resolutions but I guess the main thing I want to do is remove excess baggage, clean out people from the past.

Have made the most of this trip trying to meet up with friends here, am meeting 郷さん　later for shopping, and my ex-team leader from Capcom for lunch tomorrow.

Started the year with so much clutter in my head. argh.