it's horrifying.

he's harboured tots regarding that other girl and even discussed with her the possibility of breaking up with me. in August when i tot all was well and we were going to see fireworks every weekend. i'm seriously heartbroken. and he says he just makes idle chat with her? i'm really sorry, i'm not buying it again. wat a fool i've been taken for. has he forgotten wat i've done for him just before that? why did he hold on to me all the times i suggested breakups when he was really contemplating that himself (& with some other girl apparently)?

I dunno wat i should be feeling right now. has this whole r/s been a farce all this while?