1061: day b4 long long long holiday

have been thinking through, do i want a guy who wont take care of me at all but instead will be me taking care of him all the time? i don't know. maybe i have been thinking too much. but growing sense of unhappiness at his selfishness. maybe it's time to take a step back and think for myself instead.

it's always easy to think like that but its difficult to be hard-hearted and to execute this. i am pretty weak and i know it, am i a pushover?? haiz. but seriously, i'm exhausted mentally from thinking about him. maybe i should just step back and take a break for a while. this totally reminds me of Friends.. the episode where Ross & Rachel takes a Break. "on a break" is not the same as "broken up" ??

fuck his selfishness. i'm not going to be his stupid maid and cook anymore.