half drunk now. drank almost a whole cup knit of johnnie walker red label . (90% johnnie walker and 10% coke) tastes like shit. but i really don't wanna think bout anything now. he'S angry at me . and he is the one in the wrong. what the hell. no sorry no anything. fuck him. not coming at least have the balls to just say not coming. this is it. i hate waiting and i seriously cannot tolerate this anymore. if he thinks i am going to say I'M sorry for nothing anymore he's got it wrong.