千四百四十九： 緊張

My head is sorta bursting with the combined feelings of animosity towards someone & the waiting for another someone to arrive today.

I should get rid of the negative feelings before the 2nd someone comes, but I just can't help it, i hate him for making me feel this way such that i can't properly enjoy my this week with the 2nd someone. ARGH!!!!! I hate the first someone even more now. I wish he would just get out of my life ASAP. there is no such thing as taking a step back, you can't press undo on yourself to get rid of all those feelings that has already happened.