was cleaning out my room today... throwing away old notes and stuff.. found an old foolscalp pad with hl's love notes to me. read it and realise this was the week we broke up. was overwhelmed by sadness at my stupidity and weakness then. he was so gd yet i chose to abandon him for another. lost both a best fren and a bf. its been 2yrs+ since. but dunno why i still nv gotten over this. haiz.