wanted to hug u from the back in the supermarket cos it felt right to do so but i didn't. managed to feel nothing until i got onto the bus to reflect the meeting. had to fight back tears on the way home.. had u actualli hugged or kissed me, i would have forgiven u there and then.. but i guess its just one of those tv scenes that nv happen in real life.

i'm proud of myself for my behaviour today.