i'm exhausted. took off from work today cos i realli was too tired to drag myself up. i dunno why, i perpetualli feel tired even though i sleep at 12+ and wake at 7. yes as in i will nod off at 12 midnite, and even in the day i keep yawning, and sleeping on the bus. is it normal? its been a month and i should have adjusted to the routine of sleeping and waking early but no, i haven't. really feel super exhausted despite not doing anithing much. didn't even go out much for the past week. pretty worried that this fatigue might be a symptom of a larger illness or something. hmm..

just reached home.. went to bugis to shop with my sis after work. i tot it was bloody near so i walked. yes, walked from suntec to bugis. it realli was veri near! unfortunately, it also started to rain. i was walking towards bugis from the ecp exit (pple who drive there will noe wat i'm toking abt) and it started to drizzle. ok, still bearable.. then as i reached the middle of that bridge, rain got heavier, lightning was flashing every few min. by the time i reached the junction, where there was no shelter aniwhere near and it was a little too late to turn back and run into suntec, the rain started pouring. SUAY. was torn btw running forwards towards any building but was afraid i would fall down and malu myself even further. so i tried to walk briskly without looking too pathetic and it was like only in the last 100m when i then remembered i had today (the paper) in my bag. well, it saved me from SOME drenching at least. can't believe my stupidity.

when i finalli reached bugis, was nearly totalli drenched, and me and my sis went to trim our brows and after that walked ard a little. we saw a super dumb booboo sign at the entrance of The Edge (a poor imitation of The Annex at the Heeren).. "We've extended the Edge" or something liddat saying bout the extension of the edge has been opened blah blah. they might as well add a tagline saying "We've extended the Edge, Walk further b4 u FALL over! " ... LAME.. heh..

my frens said i've been crapping alot these few days. maybe its cos i haven seen hp in like.. 4 days i think? hmmm. longest break i've taken from seeing him so far. hope he's studying hard for his exams... dun even dare to call him much. JIAYOU dear deaR!!

going to my bank's regional head's farewell dinner tomolo evening. its weird. i dun even noe him yet i'm invited to attend. my whole floor's pple have been invited as well though. his chauffeur's most excited bout this. nv see him so enthu bout walking in and out and toking bout the party's itinery everyday. maybe he's just glad that his boss is finally leaving him for gd. hehe..

nv came back so earli from work b4. once again boring day. manage to spend a whole day on some excel sheet hehe.. then no need to get ani more dull work. :S ate lunch by myself. i'm getting addicted to the korean food at suntec foodcourt. its realli spicy and gd. but i can feel a sore throat coming up :S

happy sia!! coloured, cut my hair and did treat ment too.. woohoo! promotion pricing of course but it looks gd.. :) so long nv pamper my hair liaoz.. although it took bout 2.5 hours..

work was no-brainer again today. haiz. as usual, efficient me finished up wat was assigned to me realli quickly, even took the initiative to clean out the cupboards and found some treasures inside, mainly souvenirs from some past events the company held. my boss even gave me the go-ahead to take ani of the souvenirs if i liked them.. hehe.. :) she realli couldn't find animore work to give me and told me i could leave earli if i wanted to.. thats y i was so free to sit so long at the salon hehe..

received my visa DEBIT mini! wooo!! haha.. it looks every bit as gd as on paper. now.. just have to wait for my next month's pay to start using it :P

my dark rings getting realli bad although i sleep 12+ every day.. WHY WHY WHY???!!

work today was DUH. i felt underutilised. my efficiency was fully shown in the way i handed back every piece of work given to me in less than half the expected time. my superiors were veri surprised to say the least. cos i still had no PC and no intranet, they couldn't expect me to help with their server implementation of the training programs etc. in the end, was assigned to clear out some dusty old cupboards and rearrange the stuff in the room. all cluttered up and messy basicalli. cleaned it out and cleared the mess in an hour. yes, i noe i'm realli super efficient, i can't help it!! :P aniway. managed to leave at 6.30 today. 6.30!! finalli. only my first 2 days of work i managed to leave so earli. and hp was so sweet!! despite having exams on friday, he came to fetch me from work. *touched* he had dinner at my place and as my parents had to fetch my sis from her tuition job, he got a ride to JP.. :) my sis scared us for not returning calls/ answering sms etc. had some weird foreboding feeling something happend to her, like robbery/murder etc. i'm realli too imaginative for my own good sometimes.. lucki she appeared at 10. else i would prolly have gone to the house and asked if she was there liaoz. phew.

lunched with xinhuan today. i love meeting up frens for lunch. my oni time of the day to relax and meet up with pple basicalli, pple not from the office i mean. we toked, yaked, shopped. and i got a box of pralines from Sins (the chocolate store) today! free! was reading Her World magazine on the bus to work and i saw that the offer to redeem the chocs began today! and hehe.. there was an outlet at millenia walk so it was realli heng i saw the article. haven eaten them yet though.. wil comment on them when i'm greedy enuff to eat them all up..

another $25 earned today :) tuition in the morning then afternoon studied with hp. or should i say i had lunch and took a nap in his room until 5? :S NO DISCIPLINE!! argh... wanted to study one.. in the end studied until 7 and then went home.. :( dunno why i feel sooo tired. couldn't wake up from the nap. kept dozing off when i tried to wake up. tmd.. and i've been falling asleep in front of my comp for the past 2 nites while chatting.. :(

was traumatised tonite. on my way back, when i was walking towards my estate, saw a man walk out, towards the railway side. then he stopped in front of the hedge. tot he was waiting for some one, but as i walked nearer, realised he was in a peeing position facing the wall. OMG. this is the 2nd time this week i've seen men peeing there. IN PUBLIC. wats wrong with these PERVS???? he saw me walking towards him and quickly zipped up and pretended to just be smoking. but i could see the wet puddle on the ground and almost puked. YUCK. the 1st time, i saw a taxi parking at the side of the road. the driver got out and walked into the small lane towards the railway. AND he started like unbuckling his belt and unbuttoning his pants while walking towards the lane, STILL in full view of the main road. i was nearli blind BUT I'M NOT BLIND YET!! veri veri disgusted. and i made a mental note to be home by 8 every nite from now on unless someone's sending me back.

had this realli gd idea. it's still in the midst of construction but me & hp decided to blog daily into a shared blog of events/happenings/thots in our relationship. to have something to look back and read about in future. :) sweet idea huh? be prepared to get realli jealous of us. muahahah..

had sambal stingray and sotong for dinner. YUM! :) walked ard clementi central for a bit, long time nv been there.. it was pretty fun.. bought some groceries and just hung ard abit, veri relaxing end to a boring day haha..

have signed up for Google's new Gmail (as solicited to all blogspot users) and i must say, its realli quite gd. besides loading realli fast (unlike spymac which is totalli slow, and doesn't retrieve mails except every few days), it also doesn't time out users who keep the window open similar to outlook. it auto-refreshes every few min to check for new mail, and has this cool "Labeling" function for u to sort your mail. although the filtering of spam still leaves much to be desired, but overall, sorting and searching done great (of course they do that well, they're GOOGLE) and the 1GB mail space is a bonus to the efficient way of checking mail everyday. so i've switched from the booboogal mail to the new email alexxis@gmail.com. do email me, even ani short note, i LOVE to receive letters :)

stoning at home on a saturday afternoon.. would have gone to NTU but feeling too lazy to do that. think he needs to study w/o me oso.. i'm too much of a distraction :P feels gd to relax at home without facing strangers and worrying wat they're thinking when they see me walking to the loo like once every 2 hours? i drink alot, and pee alot apparently, but then u nv noe wat these pple are thinking despite smiling so brightly all the time. maybe its cos they get a ton of renumeration so they can smile at everyone. did u noe that they top dog gets like $3k of transport allowance per month??!! $3K!! on transport alonE!!! :(

shitty day. ultra suay. having some dispute with singtel over my phone bill. can oni elaborate when i'm clear of it. has anione ever encountered their customer service pple telling u something is free over the hotline and then charging u for it later? freaking asses if they are going to do that to me too.

hp lost his handphone on the bus when he sent me back. :( CRAP!!!! haiz. i should have done my usual look ard b4 getting off the bus but i didnt!!! :( partly my fault. so sorri so sorri. :( haiz.

first evening in eons (since i started working it seems like eons aniway) i been home for dinner. reached home at 9? haiz. not veri earli, but i tried to leave the office at 8. long walk to the bus stop. all the way from millenia towers to esplanade. in heels. argh. and came home to a crap dinner. not that it tasted crap, just that there was so little left of everything i was almost licking the dishes to get at every morsel cos i was sooooo famished. haiz. so hungry now still. and sleepy. but if i try to sleep, all i hear & feel is my stomach growling so i can't sleep. & i'm grumpy as well. cos i'm hungry, and hungry jocelyn is always VERI grumpy. :(

i'm now stoning in front of the PC trying to recall my day. oni thing i remembered was i had lunch at crystal jade (courtesy of lynn, my colleague). she was craving for the porridge and ended up treating us lunch. :) thanks lynn! :) then we went to carrefour and i bought some snacks for me to eat when i was working. in the end saw some mushi icecream thet King's came up with which looked jap and delicious so bought it and treated the other girls to it during tea-time. (no my office is not that kind to give us tea-time and yes, it was self-declared) a little too frozen but pretty gd.

think i'm going senile. i can't rem even today. wat i did. wat happened. and i just feel tired all the time. freaking exhausted from sitting down all day and not doing much work with my brains. cRAP.

oh and i'm still waiting for my UOB visa debit mini. applied for one last week. but it HASN'T arrived yet. freaking slow bank processes. but it's Sooooo cHIO. check this out:

cooler than visa mini in fact :)

ok finalli at work this morning, a little late (9.30am) but still here. i always have to summon ALL my will power to wake up on time in the morning when my direct superior is away on business trips. i have to summon even more will power to decide to come to work at all. yes, i am sad to say that i have no self-discipline whatsoever esp with regards to work of meagre pay and long hours. and that i'm prolly going blind due to the long hours at the PC with no health benefits. :(

as i was saying last nite, DOMs & crowds on public transport irks me. DOMs being Dirty Old Man(S). How does one define a DOM? its realli a instinctive thing. first, he looks chee koh, staring at every single girl that looks passable on the train/bus. once he discovers a suitable target, he inches towards her. this is difficult to do on a crowded transportation but all the more he can't be detected moving while the train is lurching etc. after moving in close enough, he will inch into her personal space, wif his arms trying to move into her portion of the bars she's holding. he won't molest her as it'll prolly put him into jail and end his DOM days but will do things like try to lean against her or his arm against her or stand veri close next to her. by this time, the poor girl has notice the invasion of the DOM and is looking ard worriedly for ways to escape. she tries to subtly move away, but the DOM relentlessly follows.

KNN! KEEP AWAY FROM ME u STUPID OLD MAN! IT's ONLY OUT OF RESPECT FOR OLD PPLE IN GENERAL I NV KP U IN PUBLIC!

ahh. i feel better. crowds i hate cos they enable the DOMs to operate. haiz. would so love to knee a guy in his meisters one day just to vent all my frustrations with guys in general. would knee him a few times and then laugh cruelly at him doubled up in pain, curled into a foetal position on the ground. dun be fooled by my mild exterior. i'm realli a violent maniac locked up inside me.. *smiles sweetly*

damn it, i missed posting this entry on wednesday by 18 seconds.

tired. veri veri tired. thin haze over my vision of everything. forgot i wanted to blog until i saw the clock on my comp ticked 11.53pm. now that i'm blogging, i can't rem wat i wanted to blog about.

i'm that brain-dead.

there's a vague memory of work today. hmm.. had argument with hp over msn and was sorta upset in the morning. lunch with celestee at bK with her smoker and me breathing in passive smoke. then more chatting / powerpoints until work ended. freaking boring day.

super tired. crowded mrt today, i absolutely hate crowds and DOMs on public transport. shall elaborate more on that tomolo. nitez.

have decided to post up somethin in tribute of my current fav blogger Neville Nah.. its one of his blog entries from feb for those of u too lazy to scroll to his archives. :) check out his feb17 2004 entry. enjoy!

"Alright settle down now boys and girls, today we're going on a journey of discovery and education! Old Gramma is going to talk to all you kids about the male sexual organ otherwise known as the penis.

The penis is known by many names. It is known as dick, cock, schlong, monkey, penguin, shoe, tool, sausage, weener, love meat, pee-pee, ding-dong, one-eyed monster, knob, dipstick, rod, boner, willy, woody, python of love, pecker, prick and pork sword, just to name a few.

Now the reason why we are talking about the penis today is because during psychology lecture today, the one Theresa told me that the one Yvonne told her that her one bio teacher once told her in secondary school that the average size of the firm worm at attention is equal to that of a:

CUCUMBER.

That very statement just jerked me to my senses and blew me away.

Now girls (and some boys), if you think that the average "shoe-size" of a virile male at full alert is the size of a cucumber, then in future, you are going to be 1) sore 2) disappointed 3) sorely disappointed.


"Mummy! It doesn't fit in my mouth!"

After stating her case, the one Weiling too agreed that she heard from someone that it was indeed the size of a cucumber.

WHERE DO THESE LIES COME FROM?

So that's what they do for sex education nowadays huh, sell false hope. Seeing how no amount of verbal explanation would satisfy and make them understand, I decided, in the middle of my psychology lecture, to whip out....



...my pen to draw on a piece of paper....



...a circle representing the diameter of the average cucumber (since they countered that even if willy-wonka wasn't the length of a cucumber, surely it was at least the diameter of one)

This was followed by mathematical explanations how impossible it would be for someone to hide something that size into pants unless he was wearing a parachute as a skirt. The mentioned size is simply impossible to achieve, it would defy every single law of physics and nature ever known to Man.

OF COURSE, there are exceptions. No, not me. But I mean if women can have boobies the size of the:

MOON

then surely, there are some guys out there with a pickstick the size of a:

WHALE

But boys and girls, let us not be too obsessed with the size of the toothpick, be it a cocktail or a bratwurst, for what really matters in a guy is really... his:

HEART

Because that's what really matters...

stronger heart, more stamina.


"Boy! You get your hand out of those pants NOW!"

DID YOU KNOW?: The one Sharon Shen Fungly once meant to write "My pen is broken" on my foolscap paper back in JC but due to her horrendous handwriting, it turned out as "My penis broken". Just for your perverse information. "

muahahahah... hilarious, yah?

spent most of the day studying and stoning. the Nicoll highway business is dua zong (BIG news) but pity my side of the office can't see it. or i prolly haven figured out which is the golden mile complex from 33rd floors.. yes my myopia's getting worse, and everything looks the same from 33rd floors!! :S

spent my day reading and laughin my head off at the writings of Neville Nah's Husamalia's Den. he's hilarious. veri witty, sarcastic but not in the kinda way that offends anione. and no controversial stuff either just clean wit and sarcasm. :P

disgustingly warm weather. HUMID as well. melted into a puddle and prolly lost a kg of liquids. my sis says i look thinner. guess the best way to lose weight is not ani stupid diet programs but just to stand in the sun and sweat ur fats off. effective and cheap. best buy.

woke up late, went to work late and was super tired. i duno why. considering i slept so earli last nite. had some disturbing dreams of me chasing after someone for something. can't rem wat though, and it was so hot last nite i had to on the fan full blast on myself. neck and back was aching when i woke up and i think there's a mosquito in my room. had a throbbin headache thruout lunch and after that. shortness of breath as well. :( i dun wanna die!!! felt better after i rested awhile but the best cure is still to meet up with hp.. headache forgotten immediately :P

took a big step today. equivalent to hmm.. from one side of the road to the other? (in one steP) we put down the deposit for the wedding package thingey.. after watching their showcase fashion show at millenia walk.. the dresses were WOW.. & me and hp were like looking with our mouths open haha.. cos it was a promotion and they were giving custom-made wedding bands as well, we went to the jeweller's after getting our receipt and it was weird cos the guy was like saying "so wat size does ur husband wear?" n it took me a while b4 realising he was toking to me. it sounds weird, we've been barely b/gf for a while and suddenli he's my husband? heh.. aniway.. after that we were both veri happy, didn't even feel my hunger from not having eaten lunch.. :) we just wandered around suntec hand in hand looking to see wat to eat and since hp has been craving to eat the kuali buffet (formerly congress), we decided to hang ard the food court and wait for the buffet to start.. SO HAPPY!! hehe.. seriously big step but he took it as well so its realli time to look forward and work towards this goal.. :)

i am very embarrassed by my mom. (would like to say i hate her but its too strong). she's damn rude to my bf, treating him like he's invisible, always being so unreasonable. throwing tantrums and slamming doors in the house. asking me to do a thousand and one things and accusing me of things i nv do. scolding me bout things when she was the one who broke her promises. KNN. would like to one day scold her in her face and just leave. have tolerated this for 21 years, dun see why i have to stay on further. going to save and leave when i can afford it. maintain minimal contact to keep peace in the house. she hates me too obviously, always scolding me but not my sisters for NOTHING. i'm always the bad one, other pple's daughters and sons are so gd, why dun u learn frm them? blah blah.. fuck her.

had a good day today :)

hp came over to swim and we suntan for like 2 hours so now i'm a nice tan brown, even my tummy.. :P then i cooked lunch for him while we studied our stuff. basicalli veri relaxing day.. he bought me the HerWorld Brides magazine and we looked thru it for ideas.. realised that our choice of package is not bad, cos the studio is like 18 years old and featured in the magazine as well.. :) going down to check out the show tomolo as well.. but their designs are NICE.. :)

aniway.. floated the idea of marriage during dinner and it was not well-received. ahh abit too earli, but hp was there as well and it was obvious they are still damn living in their own generation (my parents).. still trying to control my life as usual and hp could see why i sianz of toking to them oso, cos they were so unreasonable.. :(

i finalli finished my slides!! wooHOO!! .. was slacking half the day away in celebration haha.. aniway, celebrated a colleague's bday in the boss' office (which became a meeting) and i listened in on it, with minimal contribution since it wasn't relevant to wat i was doing..

hp came to find me for lunch, jack was supposed to meet us but he once again nv reply and all, and in the end tell us he busy, so bochup him. there's a bridal promotion thingey at millenia walk and we got pulled in to tok to the pple bout it. hmm.. it turned out to be a gd thing cos hmm, it was a worthwhile tok. about 3.5k for that bridal package, and it was like open date thingey.. so just needed to pay the deposit and keep them informed of dates so that they can schedule for u.. their photography's quite gd, so i think it's pretty worthwhile, gown's made to design as well.. woo.. suddenli can envision myself walking down the aisle.. :) check out their gowns and photos here: www.goldenhorseawards.com.sg hmm.. i'm pretty excited bout this.. now i just have to figure out how to let my parents noe..

tired.. i'm now so brain dead i can't rem wat i did at work today. i think i finished the animation for the slides, started on the cover slides., had a gd lunch by myself at thai express.. my lunch kaki was home with MC.. damn.. the office was so freaking cold. i ate the seafood laksa again.. think its nicer than tom yam.. haha.. well.. the weather was so hot today i was kinda perspiring even in the restaurant.. but at least i didn't feel so cold in the office after lunch.. it was lucki i ate a gd lunch cos had to work until 9pm.. stupid powerpoint. i nv wanna touch animore point in my whole life after this job. YUCK.