went for the interview at Cue this morning.. they were willing to represent me but i had to fork out $350 for a training course first.. anione knoes whether it's actualli worth it? need some help in making the decision.. the money is actualli pretty large sum for a person who has no income presently.. :( the trainer is supposedly trainer of miss s'pore universe etc.. ahh.. must realli decide properly.. this thurs there's a class beginning.. pretty short time to decide.. :(

strangely.. despite not having eaten since morning .. i did not feel hungry at all.. even at 3pm.. what happened to my ferocious appetite? *sob*.. nowadays i can't even finish my food.. that horrible food posioning incident realli ruined me.. now i can never eat buffets again.. :(

ahh.. stumbled upon a tuition job today.. it starts this saturday.. so perhaps can supplement my income a little.. Primary 5 maths.. shouldn't be too difficult i suppose.. at least some extra income to use..

the book fair this year seems veri subdued and it wasn't veri interesting.. mostly edutainment companies setting up booths.. oni books were at the times stall.. bleah.. lucki didn't purposely make the trip down to see it..

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From the New York Times:

June 29, 2003
Victims Say Japan Ignores Sex Crimes Committed by Teachers
By HOWARD W. FRENCH


AYATO, Japan — Two years ago, a 16-year-old high school girl who lived near here was hospitalized with a high fever. After doctors found that she had an acute case of genital herpes, she told her parents that her teacher had had sex with her.

When approached by the parents, the teacher denied the claim, warning them that their daughter would be expelled if they reported him.

Experts say molestation and statutory rape are commonplace in schools across Japan, and that victims rarely come forward. To do so would violate a host of powerful social conventions, said Akiko Kamei, a retired teacher who is the country's only nationally known expert in classroom sexual abuse.

"In Japan there is a rape myth, which says that the victim of a rape is always to blame," Ms. Kamei said. "Moreover, women are told that if you suffer molestation or groping, you have to be ashamed. If you talk about it to anyone else, you are going to be tainted for the rest of your life."

Beyond that, even when they are identified and caught, molesters rarely receive more than a slap on the wrist.

Speaking at a public symposium, a member of Parliament, Seiichi Ota, recently made light of reports of gang rapes at a Tokyo university. "Boys who commit group rape are in good shape," Mr. Ota said. "I think they are rather normal. Whoops, I shouldn't have said that." (The legislator's comments were carried in many Japanese newspapers.)

Recently, however, the public tolerance for rape has begun to change as a handful of victims or their families have pressed charges against classroom molesters. The mother of the girl infected with herpes, for example, went to the police, which led not only to the dismissal of the 49-year-old teacher, but to a one-year prison sentence for him as well.

In an interview about the incident, the mother requested anonymity, as do most people involved in such cases. She said that if her identity were revealed, she would be ostracized and could even lose her job.

As if to underline the family's concern, the daughter has left Japan, fleeing the taunts of fellow students and the cold shoulder of teachers at her former school.

"Whose interests would it serve for us to go public?" said the mother, who asked not only that her name not be used, but that the name of her town, which is near Hayato, in western Japan, not be revealed. "We would have liked to receive solidarity from other people, but that is not how it works in Japan. I grew up in this community, and although a foreigner might not understand, it is a fact that the victim is always cast in a negative light."

This reality was vividly demonstrated in another recent molestation case in Osaka, where a 13-year-old girl insisted, against her parents' advice, on bringing charges against a 51-year-old teacher. In February, the man was fired and given a two-year prison sentence for fondling the girl in a school office, though more than 40 teachers, friends and colleagues signed a petition requesting leniency.

The victim's best friend told her she had ruined the teacher's life, according to one newspaper, The Mainichi Shimbun. When the girl answered that it was the other way around, the classmate replied: "Well, you are young. You have a second chance."

The victim told the court that after the teacher's arrest she became an object of ridicule.

"When I was at a supermarket, I was surrounded by some senior students I had never spoken to before," she said, according to the newspaper account. "They shouted, `That's the sexually harassed one!' and laughed at me."

The girl's family and lawyer would not agree to requests for further interviews. Ms. Kamei, who published books on sexual abuse under a pseudonym while she was a teacher, came to her field more than a decade ago, when an alarmed mother approached her to say that her 8-year-old girl was masturbating. It emerged that a teacher had been fondling the girl.

Ms. Kamei said that at the time, she and the mother merely insisted that the teacher be sent to another school. "Even today, if a prosecutor fails to bring an indictment, the teacher is completely off the hook," she said. "Even after administrative dismissal, some of these teachers find work in other schools in other districts, or even as volunteers with children, although some people estimate there is an almost 100 percent chance of recidivism."

There are no generally accepted statistics on classroom sexual abuse in Japan. According to figures compiled by the Education Ministry, which parents and advocates for victims say reflect vast underreporting, there were 27 cases of molestation by teachers in 1992, a number that included cases in which teachers themselves were victims.

By 2001, the most recent year for which statistics are available, the number of reported cases had risen to 122.

In Tokyo, an Education Ministry official minimized the extent of the problem.

"Compared to other issues such as bullying, truancy and school violence, the rate of incidence is not so high," said Yoshiyasu Tanaka. "Of course I don't think the official reporting shows everything, but still, this is not something that occurs in every school, whereas problems like bullying occur almost everywhere."

That is small comfort to the mother from the school near here. When asked whether she felt satisfied with the punishment meted out in her daughter's case, she paused and shook her head.

"It is a fact that he was punished, when lots of other cases are swept under the rug, but I can't say that we got 100 percent justice, either," she said. "One year in prison is too light. The disease given to my daughter wasn't taken into account. I just wonder what the judges were thinking about."

maybe the japanese school girls should wear longer skirts to reduce the number of sex crimes? when i was in tokyo.. their skirts were extremely short and they usualli showed their undies when they sit down.. how can the men be totalli blamed for being tempted to commit crimeS?

hmm just saw this quiz on another blogger's site:

and i'm a vanilla Vixen! :P

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woke up at bout 2pm.. to realise there's no lunch for me.. still on a silent war with mom.. discussed with andy and realised the root of my problem is that i'm actualli the type of person such that if u leave me to manage my own life, everything will turn out fine, but the more u try to manage my life and decisions, the more i'll go against what u want.. (in other words, dun try to control me!!) setting rules and restrictions just make me want to break them and i hate to come home cos anything could become a potential argument..

wat the heck is wrong with the mMs settings on my phone??!! it's damn irritating to own a technology that you're unable to use to to the faults of the service provider..

hmm.. must remember to ask from zhiwen the picts we took at Sentosa.. hehe.. an innocent looking girl taking picts of other bikini babes.. no one would ever suspect me of taking voyeur picts.. :P

have to sleep earli tonite to get rid of eyebags and dark rings.. want to look my best for the interview tomolo.. arghh.. anithing for some extra pocket money..

ooh.. great fun at sentosa yesterday.. now i look like a lobster.. :P

then had a mahjong session and a major row with my mum abt it.. heck lah.. she always gives stupid reasons for scolding me.. anihow.. i won $13! heh.. not a bad sum..

met boi boi after that.. the usual stink of cheonging - cigs and alcohol was on him but i was too sleepy to care. at least he paid for the cab ride..

argh.. just reached home.. going to wash up and sleep.. Zzzzzzz

went holland v for dinner wif andy and his frens.. had quite a good time, since it was a treat.. heh.. then went cafe 211 for beer.. was quite surprised i didn't get red or ani bit drunk at all :) went coffee bean after that and it was time for a cup of ice-blended pure choc again.. my fav!!

the taxi ride home was a little eerie.. the taxi got horned at 3 times for no apparent reason.. the taxi driver was a little sullen.. and i couldn't realli see his eyes.. the windscreen was realli dirty and oil-stained.. and when he neared my house, i heard him being horned at again but this time i couldn't see ani vehicle near us at all!!! argh.. shivers running up my spine just thinking bout the taxi ride again.. so eerie..

i feel a little unsettled now.. hmm. will go to sleep now.. hopefulli no bad dreams.. :X

hmm.. thinking twice bout paying so much money to do portfolio again.. and the agency not that established oso.. was almost impulsively going to go take photo liao then realised i should prolly look around for more options first.. lucki i slipped and fell.. legs kinda injured to go out now..

but hmm.. should have sent photos earlier.. landed an interview with Cue.. it seems pretty established.. hopefulli, its not another money sucking operation..

just had maggi mee for lunch again.. sick of it, but its free, so i can't realli complain.. rewatching all my frens episodes again.. i think my fav season is 7, b4 monica and chandler got married.. :) wedding preparations always interest me... perhaps i'm at that age where marriage seems pretty real and not so much just a fantasy animore, hence the interest in all things white and weddingy.. heh.. i love wearing gowns.. evening gowns i mean.. make me feel so beautiful and elegant.. although i feel realli clumsi in my heels.. but then i generally feel clumsy in anithing.. :P

so bloated now.. think i'll go play with ham chan (my hamster!)..

first a quiz:


What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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this is so true!! i'm Jaws oso.. :)

hmm.. woke up after receiving a barrage of messages at 10+ this morning!!! arghh.. nv have supper until 5 am again.. was planning to sleep till 3 today..

now trying to recover from the lack of sleep..

another tip: nv drive when u lack sleep as well.. judgement goes slightly haywired when abit sleepy even when sober.. and i almost did not realise i was looking away from the road.. think must rest abit more tonite.. i shudder to think how drunk drivers actualli drive..

ouch!!! just slipped on a patch of water and fell outside the loo.. shit.. not a good day..

i'm bored.. and boi boi dua me again!!! haizz.. i expected it realli.. at least i get to sleep tonite instead of driving around aimlessly.. :(

kinda disappointed in him though.. he did promise after all.. :( sad sad sad sad sad...

wat am i going to do now.. ??

think i'll go sleep.. haizz.. most boring blog entry i ever written..

went to the GV recruitment session this morning.. tons of pple applying for the customer service crew job.. pretty reflective of how bad the job market realli is now.. & found out something realli disgusting as well.. GV oni pays $3.60 per hour starting pay!!! Grr... and to think they make more than that whenever i buy popcorn liao.. was deeply shocked and disgusted.. from now on, will treat all the service staff better... they realli work veri hard to earn so little money..

then went to the interview for some modelling thing.. think this is less of a scam than that stupid IMPACT models i went to b4.. at least u oni pay for the photos out of ur assignments and not b4.. this should be the way to do business and not cheat poor students' money.. but the office premises look pretty shabby.. hehe.. was pretty skeptical when i saw the place..

the tutors' course is finalli over and i'm glad to say i made a new fren! :) coincidentalli, both days, the person sitting beside me is from NTU accountancy.. hmm.. this is a pretty good setup i must say, properly training tutors.. gives both tutors and parents more confidence as well..

finally feel well enuff to write bout my day..

boi boi was veri nice today.. :) *applause!!* it was raining realli heavily today when my training ended at buona vista and i had no umbrella, no nothing.. luckily today he took the morning off (coincidentally!) due to usher duty and had just got in a cab and was on his way to jurong east when i called.. hehe.. although he was going to be late, he got the cab driver to swing by and pick me up.. then i got to take a look at Chevrons as well.. finalli find out where/wat it was.. not a bad place.. it seems like Safra club but in a more country-club style.. oh yah.. and hats-off to boi boi for his kind gesture today! *applause again!!* :P

dinner time!!

exactly wat i'm feeling rite now..


you're fuck.

What swear word are you?
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just woke up from a horrible nap.. now my head hurts.. arghh..

my neck, my arm, and my back are aching like crazy! and my arm feels strangely numb.. in a painful sort of way.. wonder if its due to yesterday's action-packed day? arghh.. think i'll take a nap..

Zzzzzz...

My comp is giving me so much problems.. after an hour of intensive installing and re-installing, finalli, i can use it again..

Went to Jurong swimming complex today... it was so fun!! hehe.. call me a suaku (mountain tortoise) .. but i nv been there b4 until today.. went with the jurong gang.. and being the only girl (as usual) the guys took extra care to make me feel included and of course in looking after me.. heh.. one of the benefits of being a girl.. :)

the wave pool esp was great! heh.. at first was just relaxing in the float and watching the guys trash one another, trying to overturn the floats and do silly things, while i just tried to stay in the general vicinity and look cool.. i was quickly part of the brawl when some one overturned me.. heh.. when they made me monkey and had to run around trying to get the float back, it was sooo tiring.. but pretty fun.. haha.. lucky i didn't wear a bikini for this.. would have been feeling uncomfortable all the time and it was darn cold when it rain in the afternoon as well.. at least in a swimming costume the guys dared to include me :)

had a great time playing PS2 at zhiwen's house later on.. now my hands are totalli sore..

must say it was a pretty tiring but fruitful day..

feeling ultra boliao.. also did this quiz.. veri happy to say i'm Wolverine.. :)


You are Wolverine!

A loner by nature, you feel uncomfortable when around those you don't know and even those you do. You are awkward when it comes to relationships, but fiercely loyal to those you love.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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which i totalli agree with as well: come too near me and u risk getting hurt .. but to those i love, i dun hold back any affection and trust.. :)

my comp is going haywire! my modem had to uninstall and reinstall.. and i can't play CM4 animore.. something wrong with the damn thing, the virtual disk thing doesn't work animore.. shit!!

but surprisingly, everything runs faster on this new hard disk.. hmm.. clear proof that the old one was going to spoil pretty soon..

I'm a dominant kisser!


You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully, it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into you playing the dominant role MEORW!

What kind of kiss are you?
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hmm.. pretty true.. i always like to kiss my way.. :P

just had the dumbest argument with my mum regarding bikinis and going out with my mainly guys clique.. come on!!! as if my main aim of wearing a bikini is to seduce men!!! duh.. and if the bf doesn't mind me going out with my guy frenS, why should u nag so much??

it realli is a lot easier to just lie to make her feel happy than to tell her the truth at all. wat with the guilt trips and the "all things bad written in the newspapers will happen to u" theories.. its realli realli difficult to make peace with her even if i want to.. wat the heck, i'll just let her think watever she wants..

arghh!! i can't believe my stupidity!!!

got a new hdd, did not back up my old one.. now i have no idea how to transfer my files and the rest of the things from the old one to the new... shit!~!!!